Friday, December 29, 2006

It's me again

I don't know why but it has just been so hard to find the time to write this past week. It's not that I have a lack of topics to blog about either. I could write about how our Christmas was, or about the conversation that I had with my parents last week. Or the great sex that SR and I engaged in after we had that conversation. Or about how much I dislike HATE Kaiser!

But for some reason I'm just not quite "feeling" it. But in the spirit of blogging I will find my way and tell a little about what has been happening in my life as of late.

I'm not going to delve into the talk that I had with my parents. I'm just going to say that we worked a lot of things out. Things were said that have been needing to be said for many many years. Everything is not perfect. It never will be. At least it won't be perfect for some time to come. Some things that were said can never be taken back.

What I will say about that night is that I learned something about my parents that I could have gone my entire life without knowing. And to make myself feel a little better I'm going to tell you all what I heard. After my dad came back over to pick me up that night and we were driving to his house when he said that he and my mom haven't slept in the same bed for years. Many years. Then he said that they haven't been "intimate" with each other for years before that. WTF! who really wants to know this about his parents? Seriously. Would any of you like to hear this from your parents? Or how about some of the people that are in situations like that. Would you tell one of your kids that you haven't had sex with their other parent in years? Just what I want to know about. The sexual habits of people that are a year or two away from being senior citizens. AARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

On to more pleasant thoughts.

Nope not going to post about the sex that SR and I had. Not after that revelation.

Christmas was a good day. It actually started on Sun night. We took the kids out like we do every year to look at the Christmas lights throughout the town. When we came home SR read Twas the Night Before Christmas to the boys and put them to bed.

That's when the real work began. There were still presents to wrap. I had to go to my work to get all the presents out of my locker and bring them home. SR and I ended up staying up till about 11:30 getting everything under the tree. after we were done with that it was time to hit the hay. It was a very long, emotional day for me.

Did I mention that Summer asked me to go to church with her on Christmas Eve?


Well she did. And I accepted. It was a good day at church with the family. all of Summer's friends were saying how happy they were to see me there. Not sure if it was that they were glad I was there, or if it was more of it's about time you started coming here with your wife. This was a record for me I think. It was the third or fourth time in a month that I've attended a church function with her. A few weeks ago I helped her and a few of her friends to decorate the church for Christmas. That was a lot of fun.

Back to Christmas day. Summer and I are very fortunate and lucky parents. When my sister and I were kids (heck even as teenagers) we would wake up at about 4 in the morning, start calling for our parents, and ask if it was time. They would say no it's not time yet go back to sleep! We knew better than to leave our rooms before mom or dad gave us permission. so the calling and asking if it was time yet would go on till about 6 or 6:30 in the morning. We'd call about every 20 minutes or so. Finally my parents would say fine. It's time to open the presents. We'd open the presents then they'd go back to bed for awhile to get some sleep that we would deprive them of.

Us on the other hand, have kids that will sleep forever if we would let them. I think the earliest that we have ever opened presents is somewhere around 7:45. This year was no different. Summer and I woke up around 7ish, and waited for the kids to get up around 8. Is that lucky or what?

The other nice thing this year was having my parents living in town. There was no rush to leave the house to get to my parents house. We got to be lazy, watch a movie that we got the kids and didn't leave here till after 3. That was great! Plus it was a nice 5 minute drive to get home when the time came.

That's really about all I've got for now. Maybe later this weekend I'll talk about why Kaiser is pissing me off so much. That is of course if Summer don't beat me to it while I'm out hunting this weekend.

I'll leave you with these two final pictures from Christmas day. The first is of me in my Homer Simpson sleep pants. I just LOVE them! They're so cool. The next is of my S-I-L and my sister acting like weirdos at desert time.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Merry Christmas!

Summer and I would like to wish all of our readers a very Merry Christmas. May you enjoy your holidays with friends, family, and loved ones.

May you also have a happy and safe New Year.

I would also like to take this time to thank each and every one of you that stop by here and at Summers blog. The support that you have given us this past year has been nothing short of amazing. We appreciate all of it.

Merry Christmas from CH, Summer Rose, CH Jr., and youngest son.

**I also realize that I really need to post an update to what happened between my mom and I the other night. I just haven't been in the spirit as of late. Just let it be known that everything has worked itself out and we are doing fine now.**

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

This is why men don't design Christmas wrapping paper:

Happy Holidays! :-)

Letters to Santa

Deer Santa,
I wud like a kool toy space ranjur fer Xmas. I'v ben a gud boy all yeer.
Yer Friend, Billy

Dear Billy, Nice spelling. You're on your way to a career in lawncare. How about I send you a book so you can learn to read and spell? I'm giving your older brother the space ranger. At least HE can spell. Santa


Dear Santa,
I have been a good girl all year, and the only thing I ask for is peace and joy in the world for everybody! Love, Sarah

Dear Sarah,
Your parents smoked pot when they had you, didn't they?


Dear Santa,
I don't know if you can do this, but for Christmas,
I'd like for my mommy and daddy to get back together.
Please see what you can do.
Love, Teddy

Dear Teddy,
Look, your dad's banging the babysitter like a screen door in a
hurricane. Do you think he's gonna give that up to come back to your frigid mom, who rides his ass constantly? It's time to give up that dream. Let me send you some Legos instead.


Dear Santa,
I want a new bike, a Playstation 2, a train, some G.I. Joes, a dog,
a drum kit, a pony and a tuba.
Love, Francis

Dear Francis, Who names their kid "Francis" nowadays. I bet you're gay. I'll set you up with a Barbie.

Dear Santa,
I left milk and cookies for you under the tree, and I left carrots for your reindeer outside the back door.
Love, Susan

Dear Susan, Milk gives me the shits and carrots make the deer fart in my face when riding in the sleigh. You want to do me a favor? Leave me a bottle of Scotch.


Dear Santa,
What do you do the other 364 days of the year?
Are you busy making toys?
Your friend, Thomas

Dear Thomas,
All the toys are made in China. I have a condo in Vegas where I spend
most of my time making low-budget porno films.
I unwind by drinking myself silly and squeezing the asses
of cocktail waitresses while losing money at
the craps table. Hey, you wanted to know.

Dear Santa,
Do you see us when we're sleeping,
do you really know when we're awake,
like in the song?
Love, Jessica

Dear Jessica,
Are you really that gullible? Good luck in whatever you do. I'm skipping your house.

Dear Santa,
I really want a puppy this year. Please, please, please,
PLEASE, PLEASE could I have one?
Love, Timmy

Dear Timmy, That whiney begging shit may work with your\n folks, but that crap doesn't work with me. You're getting a sweater again.
Dearest Santa,
We don't have a chimney in our house.
How do you get into our home?
Love, Marky

Dear Mark,
First stop callling yourself "Marky", that's why you're getting your ass whipped at school. Second, you don't live in a house, you live in a low-rent apartment complex. Third, I get inside your pad just like the bogey man does, through your bedroom window.
Sweet dreams, Santa

Love, Marky

Monday, December 18, 2006

More crap I don't need right now

**New post below this one as well.**

Well yesterday wasn't all sunrises and roses. No. Not by a long shot.

Apparently my mom has been "unhappy" with how things in her life have been going. So she decided to attand a seminar in San Francisco. This was a 3 day seminar having to do with becoming the "you that you always wanted to be". Or something like that. I'm not exactly sure. After I got a bombshell or two dropped on me I was in a different world.

Anyways part of this program is about open and honest communication. Because before you can be the you that you want to be, you have to be open and honest in all of your life. Which means that you must always be honest with the people in your life. So she spent most of her breaks in the day practicing this open and honest communication. And guess who was on that list.

That's right. Yours truly. Me.

So she tells me that in order for her to be who she wants to be she needs to be open and honest with me. So what does she do? She tells me that there has been something that has been bothering her for a quite a few years now. She tells me that she knows I did something when I was a kid. About the same time my sister and I were molested by my cousin. She says that she is my mother and that she still loves me unconditionally. She don't expect me to do or say anything. But that she needed to get it off her chest to become this new person.

Well there wasn't really much I could say. She just comes out of the blue and says I did something over 20 years ago and she knows I did it. WTF?! I have a hard enough time remembering things that happened last week. How the hell am I supposed to remember every detail about what happened in the year 1980 something? That is a year that I don't want to remember anything about. So I said well I have no clue what your talking about or what I'm supposed to say so I'm just not going to say anything.

To make me feel like I wasn't alone she says that well your not the only one I've taken by surprise today. I also called one of my brothers and blew him away as well by saying that I want to have more communication with him than just saying hi at the Christmas party every year.

Um...yeah. That's so the same thing. I feel ssoooooo much better now. Thanks for that little tid bit of information. Then she says to me that that was all she wanted to say to me and that she would let me go back to my evening with my family.

Yeah. Right. You just drop this major bombshell on me and I'm supposed to go on like nothing was ever said? Bull SHIT! So it pretty much fucked up the rest of my night. As well as today too. That's why I'm posting today in the afternoon. I was in a funk at work that I couldn't get out of so I came home. Didn't help. Funk is still there.

Back to the conversation now. I asked her before we hung up if this was something that she was doing with Mary Kay. She said no it was something she wanted to do on her own because she was unhappy with how her life was going. This is when she drops the other bombshell. She's going to use her newly found "open and honest communication" skills when she gets home and talk to my dad. And she's not sure if they will remain married when they are done "talking".

Um....nice one mom. Especially since you just had hoim buy you a new wedding ring not even 4 months ago that he paid 3 grand for. Way to go. Smooth move.

So here we are.6 days before Christmas, and two major life altering things being said to me. Out of nowhere. Merry f'ing Christmas.

This really isn't the shit that I need to be dealing with. Not now. Not ever for that matter. I'm just starting to get my own life on track for once and in the blink of an eye my mom goes and derails it again. Where the hell does she get off tearing my life apart just to improve her own life?

So really all I have to say now is that you can't expect to give "open and honest communication" without receiving "open and honest communication" in return. Be carefuly waht you ask for. You just might get what you are asking for. And when you get it, it might not be as pleasant as you think it will be.

All this is really starting to make me think that what I hear some people say is correct. "A parents job is to raise their children to the age of 18. To ensure that they will be contributing members of society. Once the child reaches the age of 18 the parents job is done. In return when the child get's married and starts his own family the parents are no longer the most important people in the childs life. That roll goes to the spouse and children of the child. You should not worry about making your parents happy anymore. Make you spouse and yourself happy. Every one else is secondary and not as important anymore." That is not an exact quote but real close. It stems from people that are sacrificeing their marriage to please their parents. The parents have done their job. It's time to go out and live your own life the way you see fit.

Really begining to think that nature has it right when the offspring leave the nest and never return.

Hunting pictures

For my first post of today I will post up some pictures I took while out duck hunting yesterday morning. I didn't get any birds. Again. But that's really not the reason that I go hunting. I go out there because it gives me a chance to think about things. I get the opportunity to look at the world and know that somewhere money and other shit don't matter. I also get the opportunity to see sights that many people never get an opportunity to see. So I hope you enjoy these as much as I do.

The mountain range in the back ground is known as the Sutter Buttes. They are a very prominent feature visible for over 100 miles as your driving on I5 through the valley. The land all around is flat rice fields. Except for the buttes.

I have at least one more if not 2 more posts in mind for today so there is more to look forward to.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Tis the season for family pettiness

Does anyone recall this little post back in June? It's the one about my cousin coming out of the closet and announcing that he is gay, and divorcing his wife. Well things are getting pretty ugly now. Which I'm sure they were destined to become. But why the pettiness? I just don't understand it.

So let me see if I can relate whats been going on. I'm sure none of you really want to hear about this. But for those of you that are contemplating divorce I'll just go ahead and post it anyways to let you see the darker side of divorce.

So let's see what's going on now. Since the breakup my cousin has found and moved in with his boyfriend. They are living in a one bedroom apartment. So when he has his weekend to have the kids he goes to his parents house so the kids have their own room. His boyfriend goes along with him for the weekend. The kids really like him and know him as their dads friend. Except the oldest who is 8. His mom told him that his dad was gay a week after my cousin moved out. When they both agreed that they would do it together.

Well a few weeks ago his parents have decided to get a divorce for the same reason as my cousin. So my uncle moved out of the house. The day after he moved out my aunt calls my VERY Catholic grandma to tell her that they are getting divorced because her son was gay. (This is important trust me.) It's also important to know that she has a "medical" marijuana permit. Cousins ex knew about this for years. Never once had a problem with it. Even had my aunt watch the kids for a week at a time so she could go on vacations.

A few weeks ago my cousin and his boyfriend decided that they needed to move to a different city so they could afford a bigger place to live in. That way the kids will have there own room to stay in when they see their dad. The city is an hour and a half away from where they are living now. So now ex is upset and says that she refuses to drive half the distance as agreed on in the temporary custody agreement. So what does she do to retaliate? She files papers with the courts saying that my cousin can not provide a stable home environment for his kids because he is living with a man. Also because his parents are getting a divorce as well and because the kids grandma has a permit to smoke weed. So because of this my cousin is not allowed to see his kids until the court can evaluate the situation in a court hearing. Which won't be till after the new year.

So what does my aunt do this week? After what she did by telling my grandma about my uncle when it wasn't her place to do in the first place? She went to all the family members Myspace pages asking/telling us to remove my cousins ex from our friends list. Because she is not what the family needs to be associated with.

Personally I don't think that either one of them are what the family needs right now. I really wanted to stay friends with my cousins ex. But this little stunt was just to dam far. She's just doing it to hurt my cousin because she knows how important they are. She's using them as little pawns instead of letting them be kids. She changed the phone number so he can't call and talk to them. She even took the kids and hid them from all the family members for awhile.

Now I didn't need my aunt to say what she did about taking her off my myspace page. But where does she get off saying that when she told my grandma about my uncle when it was none of her business? As religious as my grandma is it could have been very bad. She's in good health but she is also 83 years old. Who knows what the shock could have done to her. I was going to do that on my own. Without being told.

The good news is that I'm only spending Christmas with my parents, sister, grandma, SR, and my kids. No other family to bring me down. I've got enough shit to deal with without them adding to it. Seriously thinking about just closing out the myspace page.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

The greatest wife

I challenge anyone to tell me that they have a greater wife than I do.

Any takers?



Good. I wouldn't want to embarrass anyone.

So why is Summer the greatest wife? Because through all the troubles we have gone through in the past 2 weeks with our children she still has the ability to remain the loving woman I married 12 years ago. Sure there have been many tears shed in the past week over issues that were out of our control but she still has remained strong after the tears have fallen. She still has her faith. That is something that I truly love the most in her. Her faith. I may not be a "believer" in the eyes of many many people. But it don't mean that I have no respect or admiration for those that have an unwavering faith.

So what has she done to make me so happy lately? Let's see here............. For starters she tells me several times a day that she loves me. She gives me hugs, kisses and love, every day when I walk in the door from work. She makes me feel like I'm the best person I can possibly be. She's really turned very playful as of late.

Take yesterday for example. We were sending some text messages to each other. When she sent what she thought was her last one she sent an animation of a person sticking out his tongue. That started an hour and a half text message marathon between the two of us. It lasted until I walked in the door from work. At which point I took her to our bedroom, took off her clothes, laid her on the bed and played wonderful mouth music on her southern regions. Which led to us having wonderful hot animal sex. She even talked dirty to me. Very, VERY HOT!

Afterwards she made me the happiest that I have been in a very long time. She attended my therapy appointment with me last night. Even more importantly she opened up and talked! She talked more in an hour last night than she did for the 7-8 appointments we had in marriage counseling 4 years ago. She even said that she will return to the next one next month. We had a great time last night at the appointment. We both laughed a lot when we were talking. The feeling continued for the rest of the night as we finally started our Christmas shopping. Unfortunately we're not even half way done. We've still got a lot more gifts to buy for the kids, my parents, my sister, my grandma, and a certain diamond ring I've got my eye on for that special someone in my life,. ;-)

Thursday, December 07, 2006

I'm going Nucking Futs!

I have no clue what is going on with me today. Outside of the fact that last night didn't happen as I was hoping and it don't look like it will be happening tonight either. But that's besides the point.

Today while at work I was in the same vehicle as annoying coworker (who by the way isn't so annoying anymore). For some reason she said something and I spit out something totally unexpected.

I said to her- You know that it is a proven fact that 28.5% of women a battered?

She replies really?

Yes it is. And to think I've been eating mine plain all these years. I got a big laugh out of it and her reaction. She turned real red and told me that I was just wrong. But she said it was funny.

About 15 minutes later we're in the yard eating lunch. She asks me to tell our boss what I said because she knew he'd find it funny. So I told him and laughed even harder than I did the first time.

he responded by saying that it's a fact that women think about sex on average of every 6 hours. Men on the other hand think about sex every 30 seconds on average.

Oh God! I'm laughing so hard about this all over again I can barely type.

So after lunch (which I got to spend with Summer as well as coworker and boss) my boss asks us to come in his office to see the pics he took while in Ha. to see his son. We're looking at the pics for awhile when another female coworker (different crew) comes to the office and looks in. I said excuse me is there a problem? May we help you?

She responds Is there a mouse in your pocket?

So for some unknown reason I said would you like to help take it out?

My boss covers his ears, other coworker says there he goes again he's on a roll today! Coworker asking about mouse steps into office and wants to know if I was serious.

We all got a good laugh out of it.

after work I'm telling the whole story to SR on our way shopping and I again start laughing so hard my jaw hurt, my sides hurt and I had a hard time staying in my lane.

I have NO idea what has come over me today. But I am just full of laughter and weird jokes.

I think I just need to get some hot monkey love. What do you think?

Wednesday, December 06, 2006


Just want to stop by real quick like to say that I'm still alive. Been extremely busy this week making Christmas cookies. I've made 5 double batches of cookies since Sun. night. I still have at least 2 more double batches to make before Sat. afternoons family Christmas party.

The other thing that I wanted to say was that sex is just the best thing. It's fantastic! When two people that love each other get together and show their feelings physically it's just amazing. Made a slight medication adjustment last week and this week I'm hoping tonight will be #3 in 4 days. **fingers crossed**

Almost forgot- last night SR saw a commercial for the Victorias Secret show and asked me if I would like to watch it with her. How awesome is that? :D

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Where I'd rather be tonight

This video is from a live concert. It is Trans Siberian Orchestra. The song is called Christmas Eve Sarajevo 12/24. They are doing a concert here in Sacramento at Arco Arena tonight. Unfortunately I won't be making this year. Again. :-( I have been wanting to see this show for years. I've heard from many people that have seen it that it is an excellant show. They have an awsome light show that goes along with the music.

I make this promise to myself: I WILL go see them next year! At any cost I will see them live.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Funny shit right here!


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I found this video over on my cousins Myspace page. It takes awhile to get there but this is HILARIOUS!

Wednesday, November 29, 2006


A little peek into a fun conversation a few days ago between SR, S-I-L and myself. It was a brief conversation but was memorable for me. We were watching a Carrie Underwood video on TV. I believe it was for the song "Before He Cheats" or something like that. Hey it was country. How do you expect me to know? Anyways here's how it went.

SR "She's hot!"

S-I-L "Dam your right she is."

CH Sitting back with a shit eating grin on my face.

S-I-L "Oh things I'd like to do to her."

CH "Oh the possibilities." Smile getting bigger.

SR "What possibilities?"

"Well the possibility of getting the 3 of us alone in the same room together. Oh yeah."

"What are you talking about?"

"Well you said she was hot. So I'm just thinking about the doors that are about to open in our lives."

"I didn't mean it like that. I just meant that she was very pretty."

"But you said she was hot."

I faked pouting and we got a good laugh over it.

It never would have worked anyways. She's a country singer.

Monday, November 27, 2006

So what has been going on in the CH/SR household as of late? Well let's see. It's been awhile since my last "real" update so I'll have to do some back tracking here.

On the Sun. before Thanksgiving my cousin and I went duck hunting at a refuge about 2 hours south of home for me. The 2 of us spent the night in the back of SR's Explorer. Let me tell you sleeping 2 full size adults, one 5'11" 270 pounds, the other 6'5" roughly 200, is NOT the most comfortable place to sleep. But it was a good day of hunting when we did wake up.

On the way home from hunting I had to pick up my S-I-L to drive her to our house to spend the week. What a joyous week that turned out to be with her here as well.

Mon. morning I had another therapy appointment in the morning. I talked to my Dr. about the possibility of having Summer sit in on an appointment with us in the future. He said that would be no problem at all. So she will be attending my next appointment together on the 12th of next month. I can't wait for that day to get here.

The real fun happened on Mon. on my way home from the Dr. though. I got about 5 miles into my 30 mile drive when my truck started to vibrate uncontrollably. I had no choice but to drive about 20 miles an hour on all the back roads I could find. I called my mechanic and said that I'm on my way and will be there when I can. I drove about another 10 miles and was now on top of a one lane levee road. All of a sudden I heard a clang and something bouncing on the ground. I stopped and got out to see my rear drive shaft hanging from the rear axle onto the ground. Two bolts were about 50 feet behind me. Both broke in half. I'm so glad I was on the levee road and not on the highway doing 75. Got towed home and had the vehicle ready to go duck hunting after work on Tue night.

Hunted on Wed. afternoon. Nothing special. Came home and cleaned up my hunting gear.

Thu. we went to my parents house for dinner. It was a good meal as always. Turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, frozen fruit salad, sweet potatoes (YUCK!!) and pumpkin pie that SR made. Didn't really do much that day at all. Watched some TV and that was about it.

Fri my dad and I took both my boys out pheasant hunting. It was a slow day that didn't last long. After about 45 minutes youngest decided that he had enough and wanted to go home. So home we went. Where I got my hunting stuff reorganized to leave again to hunt Sat. morning.

Gee do you think i have an addiction or something? :D

Hunted most of the day on Sat and learned a very valuable lesson: Cell phones and water DON'T mix. I lifted my jacket up forgetting that my phone was in it. I was going to lay the jacket out on the island to take a little cat nap while the birds weren't flying. I lift up the jacket and splash. In goes the phone. It didn't work after that. But by the time I came home Sat. night it was fine. Drove all the way home with it on top of the defroster outlet and the defroster going full blast for the 2 hour drive. I got very lucky. The phone is only about 2 months old.

Sun. I was supposed to go hunting again but decided to stay home and do some chores instead. Raked leaves, helped my parents rearrange furniture, and clean all the frost out of the freezer in the garage. Let me tell you that with all the frost off the shelves there's SO much more room in there. Before I cleaned it, it was so full we couldn't put anything else in it. Now it's almost empty. Just from the buildup of frost. The mistake of the day was not going hunting. A storm came in Sun. afternoon and it would have been a perfect day to be on the marsh. At least SR took her sister home that night. YAY!!

Which reminds me dear you were supposed to tell me stuff about her after she was gone. I'm ready to listen.

That's been my week in a nutshell. Except that I forgot that last Sun. (the day I brought S-I-L home) SR invited me to go to a concert at her church. It was called Psalm 100. It's a choir that is made up of people from 4 different churches on the delta. I had a really good time there and I'm glad I went.

One last note for those of you interested in the Dr. Phil saga of late I have not watched an episode in a few days now. But that will change tomorrow night. At 7PM my time the episode will air that will be the conclusion to the case of Jeremy and whether or not he molested his 3 year old daughter.

I would also like to congratulate Emily on reaching the 100 post mark, and also Artfuldodger on his upcoming blogging anniversary.

Congratulations both of you on a job well done.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Where does....

....the time go? It's been well over a week since I finally came clean with the world. In that time I have been trying to stay away so that I could focus on what I needed to so I could stop. Unfortunately it didn't work. I went back to my old ways again on Fri. after work. I caved and watched another episode. So to battle the networks I spent all day Sat. cleaning my garage and preparing to go hunting on Sun. I did go out Sun. and it was a flop. Not because of the birds not being there but because I couldn't hit the broad side of a barn.

In trying to keep up with not watching again on Mon. I came home from work and was attacked by my wife. We had a very good afternoon together. Then my dad invited me over to his clubhouse to watch Mon. night Football with the other retired people. So Mon. was good for me in my resolve.

Tue. I came home from work and again was feeling the urge to cave. So to fight the urge I left to go hunting again. I did not return until this evening. But I found myself driving way to fast in an effort to get home before the show was over. I did slow down when I realized how bad I have become.

So my new resolve is to just admit that I like the show and there's no getting around it. Just over an hour till I can watch again.

As a side not the episode that Taja referred to in the last post has an update coming next week. Dr. Phil is bringing Jeremy back on the show to see what the truth is. Is he molesting his 3 year old daughter or not? We'll just have to see next week.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

I'm so ashamed

I'm sitting here at my desk hanging my head in shame. I think that I should have my man card taken away. I am finding myself sinking to new lows in my life. I'm resorting to forms of entertainment that I swore I'd never resort to.

I'm watching Dr. Phil!


How could I let this happen to me? How could I allow myself to watch a show of this type? It's a touchy feely talk show. But for some unexplainable reason for the last two weeks I have found myself coming home from work and instead of getting on the computer and blogging, I am now turning on the TV to watch Dr. Phil. To make it even worse I am looking at the TV listings for the evening to see if I can catch the evening show as well.

Oh what am I sinking to?

Promise me one thing my dearest friends: If you catch me watching Oprah please -SHOOT ME!

Monday, November 13, 2006


One year ago today my beautiful wife entered into the world of blogging. Through that time she has contemplated leaving quite a few times. She has found a release for the hurt. She has made some very good friends. Through it all I'd like to think that we found each other all over again.

So here's to you baby. I LOVE YOU!!

Friday, November 10, 2006

A stolen Meme

I'm bored! So I stole this from Artfuldodger. Just part of my new duties as his apostle spreading the word to keep the faith.

1. Explain what ended your last relationship.
The simple fact that she had a self induced miscarriage. Didn't want my baby so she did a lot of crank to get rid of it. Nothing major.

2. When was the last time you shaved?
Can't remember. I think it was a week and a half ago. I HATE to shave. Usually once a week.

3. What were you doing at 8:00 am this morning?
Laying in bed feeling sick.

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Emailing with my favorite blonde, and IMing with SR.

5. Are you any good at math?
That was my favorite subject in school.

6. Your prom night?
Was fun. Went to a Japanese restaurant where they cook the food at your table. Went to the prom danced, and went home.

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
Have no clue.

8. Are you upset about Britney Spears failed marriage?
Am I supposed to be?

9. Do you know the words to the song on your Myspace profile?
Some of them. I'm going to change the song soon. Then I will know the words.

10. Last thing you received in the mail?
Another hunting catalog.

11. How many different beverages have you had today?
All I've had to drink today was water.

12. Do you ever leave messages on peopleÂ’s answering machines?
Isn't that what your supposed to do?

13. Who did you lose your concert virginity to?
Garth Brooks 1992

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?

15. What was the most painful dental procedure youÂ’ve ever had?
All four wisdom teeth pulled at the same time.

16. What is out your back door?
The jungle also known as my back yard.

17. Any plans for Friday night?
Getting ready to go pheasant hunting.

18. Do you like what the ocean does to your hair?
I didn't know it did anything to your hair.

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorns?

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?

21. Do you re-use towels after you shower?
Meaning what? I use the towels the next day ithatsts what you mean.

22. Some things you are excited about?
Getting out of bed. Going pheasant hunting on private land this weekend for the opener. continueing the lovmakingng session SR and I started yesterday morning.

23. What is your favorite flavor of Jell-O?
Haven't had Jello in years.

24. Describe your key chains.
Just a ring witKeyses on it. Noting special.

25. What is the very first song in your iTunes library?
Don't have an iTunes library. My son does but not me.

26. Where do you keep your change?
n the change jar.

27. What kind of winter coat do you own?
Which one? I have quite a few.

28. What was the weather like on your graduation day?
HS it was sunny. Technical school it was raining.

29. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Of course. Don't want kids or cats sneeking in.

30. Do you want to keep blogging?
Of course I do.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Well here I am. Stuck in bed. Home from work for the second day in a row. I'm sick. Stuck here in bed, bored of my ass. At least SR was nice enough to leave the laptop home when she went to work this morning. So I can check your blogs every few minutes. So for those of you with site trackers I'm going to give you a huge spike in visitors today.

Anyways I got some bad new today when I called in sick. Apparently my supervisors son got shot over in Iraq a day or two ago. He got hit 2 times in the arm and once in the thigh. He's doing alright now. When he is well enough to fly they are sending to DC to recuperate. They are flying my boss and his wife to DC as well over the weekend to stay there while he recovers. He was due to come home from serving his time in about a month. He was there for somewhere between 18 months and 2 years. Not sure exactly. I d know he was due to come home though because my boss was saying how his daughter couldn't wait to see her big brother soon.

So for now I'm lying in bed, hoping that I get better before pheasant season opens Sat. and feeling bad and happy for my boss and his son. He did get shot, but at least he's still alive and so far has all of his limbs.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006


As I posted in this post back in June, I took a test for a promotion at work. They "said" that I would receive the results in about 6-8 weeks. Well this is now Nov.! Well guess what.

I finally got the results back in the mail! And the results are..........
I PASSED!!!!!!

Not only did I pass but I got a lot better score than I ever thought I would get. I had originally thought that I was going to fail the test, and IF I passed it would barely pass. Well the letter that I got in the mail said that I scored an 88%. AND I'm #18 on the list. So there are only 17 people ahead of me. One of those people took a promotion from a previous test I did not take last year so there is actually 16 people ahead of me.

So now I need to wait for my superintendent to get home from vacation next week. I have a supervisor right here in the same yard I work at that wants me to take an opening. So if it is in the stars I'm hoping to be promoted by the New Year. I'm actually hoping that the promotion don't come through till after Jan. first. I have a 5% raise coming in my current position on that date. If I get promoted before then I need to wait 18 months to get that 5% when I reach top scale.

Time to celebrate!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

lllllloooonngggggggg weekend

This weekend is going by so sloooowwwww! SR was sick yesterday so I didn't go duck hunting with my uncle like planned. I was a good husband and stayed home to take care of her. Turned out to be the better thing to do anyways because there weren't many birds. The bad thing though was that we lost our Comcast service for at least 12 hours if not longer. That meant absolutely no TV and no internet. I was fine without the TV but I was feening like a crack addict for some internet access. I missed some important emails and an instant message. It did turn out to be a good day though. I got to take care of Summer and she got to take care of me as well. ;-)

Today is the day that just doesn't seem to want to end. It's like the clock is standing still! It's not even 3:30 yet. I think part of it is that I got out of bed early today. I was up before 8. First thing I did when I got out of the bedroom was to see if I had internet access back. I checked my emails and replied to the IMer (so sorry I missed you yesterday I really could have used it). Cooked a big breakfast as usual- fried eggs, hash browns, sausage patties, bagels, and OJ. It was good enough to keep me satisfied till a few minutes ago. After breakfast SR and th boys went to church and I stayed home to do some housework and listen to my "non kid friendly" music really loud. ie Eminem. Folded and put away laundry, then cleaned out a cupboard that was getting on my nerves. I really should do that more often. The spice cupboard was a mess. We have 2 unopened and 2 open containers of poultry seasoning, 2 things of celery seed, and a few others that we had doubled up on. No more of that though. I can now see exactly what I have again.

Anyways to the reason for this post. It is actually a two part reasoning. First is the recap of Men's Group from Thu. night. Second is what happened last night while going through some old things of mine.

First off I guess I will try to remember what happened at group the other night. I really should have posted that the other night while it was still fresh. It really has to do with the Self Discovery portion of this blog. My Therapist asked me how I thought the medication was doing and if I was dealing with things better. I told him that I personally don't "feel" any different but that SR has seen a big difference in me. I said that I still get mad but it don't seem to consume me like it used to. I'm not yelling at Summer like I used to do either. I told him that we are doing a lot better now that I have been taking the medications but at the same time I have absolutely NO desire to stay on them for the rest of my life. I hope to get off of them at some point in the not too distant future. He told me that that was a big step in my "recovery".

We then talked about youngest son and how things were going with him. That's where things got a little bothersome for me. I related to him how he is my biggest "trigger" right now. By that I mean that he is the one thing or person that triggers me to lose my composure. I also admitted that when we are out in public actions cause me to be quite embarrassed to be around him. That was actually a break through for me. It took a long time to come out and say that. At the same time it made me feel like shit. He is my son. Yet he is the one that triggers my worst reactions with his actions. The biggest part of the evening came when I said that I know why he acts out in the ways that he does. It's because of the was the I have reacted to situations and he is just practicing what he has seen me do.

Well my therapist said that it was actually a good thing for me to realize that. He thinks it's a big step for me to start realizing what my triggers are and that now I can focus more on how to deal with them better. He also asked me to give an example of how he is "embarrassing" me when we are out. Lucky for me I had the perfect example. It only happened the previous night. So here's the tale. We are on our payday shopping trip. I'm not sure if I've said it in the past but it is something that we do as a family. Every payday the 4 of us pile into the car and drive to "town" to pick up the needed supplies to get us through the next 2 weeks. Any ways we're at Walmart and youngest has some birthday money that is on fire in his little pocket. So while I'm doing the shopping Summer takes him to the toys to spend that money. Well he knows that he is not allowed to have toy guns. No exceptions. So what does he pick out? A toy gun. SR says no you can't have it. He then comes to where I'm at and asks me if it's alright if he gets the gun. I say no. So he screams at me and runs over to SR. She tells him to put it back. He runs away from her. We both go different directions to get him. When she catches up to him he punches her in the back and pushes her and continues running. With the help of oldest son we finally caught up to him and I took him out to the Exploder. He's kicking and screaming the whole time I'm carrying him out the store. When we get to the truck he yells that I'm a big fat meanny and that I'm a stupid person and he hates me. I get him inside and strap him in to his booster seat. I close the door and go behind the truck so he can't see me and sit down. This way I can make sure he is being watched, but at the same time he thinks he's alone. Well his tantrum lasted the rest of the time that SR and oldest were inside. About 40 minutes or so. Screaming the entire time. When SR got out we drove across the street to Sam's Club and he was his nice smiling self again. Asked if he could help put groceries in the cart, talking nice, not asking for things all the time. It was a great rest of the evening.

So I asked my therapist if that was an ok thing to do. He said that is fine. It teaches him to calm himself down. I just have reservations about doing it. You can't imagine the looks I get from people walking by. Really makes me feel even more embarrassed than his actions in the store. He said that I shouldn't worry about others looks and that it is a fine way of dealing with it. It shows him how to calm himself down, it also shows him that I can deal with him without losing my temper therefore teaching him the proper way to deal with things.

So all in all it was a good group meeting.

Now to last night. Seeing as I couldn't read blogs, post on mine or even watch TV we went to bed early last night. Around 9. Well SR was into reading a book and didn't want to turn out the light so I decided to go to the closet to find a book for myself to read. Instead I found an old box of letters. Going all the way back to when I was in high school. Read through a few of them and then just got down further into the box. Well I forgot that SR and I saved every letter that we wrote to each other when I was in Basic Training. I read through some of hers. Looking for the sexy ones she wrote to me. You know I forgot my old nick name? I could always tell when it was a sexy letter because she use my nick name instead of my real name. Then I came across a few of the letters that I wrote to her. I was such an ASS! When she said in the beginning of her Blog that I was controlling she was right. I was in Alabama, she was in Cali. But I still tried to control her through my letters. What the fuck was I thinking? After I read a few of those letters I just put them away and rolled over and held her tight. I said that I love her so much and was sorry for the way that I treated her. I told her how lucky I am to have her in my life and that I'm going to remind myself and her of that every day. So we laid there and held each other until we fell asleep in each others arms.

So that should bring me up to date now. I now know a little more about what I need to work on to improve myself. I just wish I could see my therapist more than once a month to speed this process along in a more timely manner.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Where does the time go?

Seriously. Where does it go? I can't believe it has been a week since my last post. I've been very busy lately. Dr's appointments, hunting, work, shopping, you name it.

So for starters let me say thank you to the people that voted in my poll. O made a question that some others agreeed with. She asked me what did it matter to me what anybody else thinks. The answer to that is............I have no clue! It's not really that it mattered per se, but more that I was curious. Just to ease everyones concerns Summer and I did find the time (somehow) to watch an episode of Pornocopia together. We sat on the couch, she laid down in my lap and we watched the whole thing. After wards she told me that it wasn't her cup of tea. She told me that yes in her oppinion she considered it to be porn. For the sole reason that she believes that it shows you how to make a porn movie. She then told me that won't hold it against me if I do watch the shows. She just won't watch with me. So we have an understanding that makes us both happy.

On to new news. Summer went duck hunting with the boys and me on Sun. It was a real fun day. This was the first duck hunting trip for her in 6 years. We couldn't do the stuff we used to do when the birds stopped flying, but it was still a great day. So for your viewing pleasure here is a photo of SR in her war paint. NOT make up. Isn't she sexy? That is just the sexiest thing ever to me. A woman wearing camo. Anyways the day was warm. Actually hot. For duck hunting at least. It was in the upper 70's! I'm really wishing for some of that cold wet weather that is hitting some of the other Bloggers. I ended the day with 1 duck. Youngest was as happy as could be. He got to carry the duck all the way back to the parking lot. That made his day.

Halloween was just another day. The kids dressed up top go trick or treating. We went to about 15 houses and youngest said it was time to go home. He was done. Complete opposite of last year. I took him down 4 streets and he didn't want to stop. He was dressed as a knight and oldest was dressed as the scary figure in Scream. Again. Summer was happy though. This was the first halloween that she didn't have to work in the evening in quite awhile. So she did get to go out with the boiys as they begged for candy.

That's about it for now. I hope to post a more meaningful post tomorrow night or Sat. after I return from duck hunting. I had a good men's group meeting tonight and would like to share how it went.

Yes I'm still alive

Just stopping in real quick like to let you all know that I am in fact still alive and breathing. I've just been so dam busy. I'm really going to try and make a real post later this evening. But first I need to go to men's group tonight. I really must say that I am so sorry for not posting. I've actually missed it quite a bit.

So till tonight.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

The poll

As i have stated a few times on my blog and in comments to others I don't watch pornographic movies. I also don't masturbate.

well tonight while I was in a small chat romm with SR, myself and two fellow bloggers. Summer made the comment that I do watch porn. I countered with the fact that I haven't looked at a pornographic website or movie in over a year. She agreed and said that's true.

But then she asked me what was on the cable box under the on demand watched programs. well those were some of the shows that I have watched recently. They were on the HBO section under late night specials. I had watched the first few episodes of Pornucopia Going Down in the Valley. And also the best of Real Sex. NO! I waqs not watvhing all these episodes at once. Any ways we got into a "discussion" about whether or not that was equal to watching a porn movie or porn on the net. My standing was that this is NOT the same. There is a difference between the two.

The difference is that porn is something to watch when you need a release. Or are trying to get aroused for your partner. You watch it and rub one out. Unless of course your watching with your poartner then you can renact the scenes as they unfold.

The shows on HBO are more like reality TV. There are no money shots. A lot of the stuff is actually blurred out. Watching a seminar with a bunch of left over hippies learn about being at one with your partner is not porn.

What do you think? Go ahead and answer the poll to the right. And please for the love of all that is good, if you are going to put an answer on the poll post your oppinions why in the comments. Yes I am a comment whore.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006


Blogger is finally cooperating today. So here is the photos I wanted to post last night.

Another beautiful sunrise on the marsh. I live for moments like this!

This would be the birds we shot. This picture ws taken about 45 minutes after shooting time.

Me all ready to go with my war paint on. (I actually like duck hunting because it gives me an excuse to wear makeup. :-)~ )

Oldest son holding my uncles bull sprig.

Youngest son holding my hen mallard. No he is not scared or upset. That is just the funny face he likes to make for pictures.

All the birds hanging in my garage.

Monday, October 23, 2006

The opening of duck season!

**WARNING!! Photos of duck carnage following!!**

The trip started off being a long one. SR didn't get home from work till after 11:00 on Fri. night. So I wasn't on the road untill quarter after. I had an hour long drive to my uncles house. Didn't get to sleep till around 1:30. Let me tell you something. 3:00 AM comes aroung pretty quick!

We drove to the refuge we were to hunt and got all signed in. Let me tell you. I love having a reservation! We walked to the blind, set out our decoys, and still had 45 minutes to drink coffee and watch the sun come up before it was shoot time. We even had time to watch the shooting stars. We saw about 7 in 30 minutes. Not like going on in the sweatline where your rushing to get all your gear out before shooting time. As is usual on opening day some bozzo was shooting 5 minutes before legal time. When legal time hit though My uncle and I had 2 mallards locked in on us. My uncle got up and shot first. Missed. I shot second and stoned my bird. As I am climbing out of the blind my uncle says hold still. We have 2 more birds locked on our decoys. My uncle misses again. I hit my target. My uncle gets out and goes after the first bird. I go after the second. I look for about 20 minutes and can't find it. So I go back to the blind and wait for the sun to come up some more. It was simply amazing. For the first 2 hours of the morning the skies were just full of birds. We missed quite a few opportunities on teal. Those birds are fast as hell. We passed on all the spoonies we saw. Opening morning is NOT the day to be slumming on spoon bills. My uncle downed 2 birds for himself as well. After the flight died down we both got out of the blind to look for my lost bird. We searched for over an hour. Could not even find feathers where it hit the ground. The thing that got me was that it was on dry land. No tules around at all.

We ended the hunt around 11:00 and drove back to my uncles house. I talked to my aunt for a little bit and drove home. SR and I went shopping for youngest son's birthday presents.

That folks is how my wonderful weekend went. I get to do it all over again next weekend. I'm going to go hunt next weekend in the Sacramento valley for their opener as well. Can't wait.

Without further ado here is the carnage photos along with a few others from the day.

Well I WAS going to post photos but Blogger once again is being a bitch and won't let me upload any pics. So they will have to wait for another time.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

The question

As I said in my last post I had a question that came about from my morning going to church with SR. This question is for anyone to answer but I am really looking forward to the input from a few specific readers: FTN, Desmond, Christian Husband, and Digger. Just for the record I'm looking for anyone's input here, but these are the ones that I know of that regularly post on the topic of religion. And I know that they aren't shy about posting their opinions.

So here is the topic of the day: The churches mission and vision pt6. It has been an ongoing topic over the last few weeks. I attended part 4 & 6. He was talking about how the congregation is supposed to be the disciple's to the people in their lives, to get them to know the truth. He also said that it is every Christians duty to love God and put Him at the top of your priorities even above your spouse and children. I understand that from a Christians point of view. But then he said that if the congregation believed that he was not doing his job as being a disciple of the church that they should go ahead and find another pastor. A few minutes later he ended and we all went home.

After church we went back to the carnival and then went to do our payday shopping. On the way out of town I asked Summer what that was all about with him saying that they should find a new pastor. Apparently the Elders of the church (I believe, correct me if I'm wrong dear) aren't to fond of the pastor. I found this hard to believe because I really like the way he talks and preaches. So I asked her why that was. She said that it was due to his age. They think that he was/is to young to have the position of being pastor of the church. Apparently a prominent family in this small town stopped attending the church because they didn't like him for his age.

So the question is what does his age have to do with him holding this position? I've heard some of the people that I specifically mentioned views on having a female pastor in FTN's comment fest last month. So does this also apply to having a young pastor?

A little background that I do know: He is around 27 years old. Married to a smokin hot wife. Has 3 kids ranging in age from 6-3. Lost a son at a very early age. Is very passionate about his job and takes it very seriously. He is one of the people that takes the bible literally for what is said. There is no interpretation of the written words.

So what does his age have to do with whether or not he should be a pastor? If they thought that he was to young then why would they hire him in the first place? Does it say in the bible that you must be X years old to be in charge of a congregation?

In other news duck season opens day after tomorrow! I can't wait. I'm so excited for this years season to begin. I haven't been excited about an upcoming duck season in years. This is truly a new chapter in my life.

Sunday, October 15, 2006


That's right folks. Just 6 more days to my favorite season of the year. Duck season! This year is a very special year to hunt ducks for me too. I got my first reservation to hunt a refuge on opening day. No sitting in a parking lot for hours waiting for the people who got a ressi to shoot their limit and leave so I can get on. Not this year. I get to be in the field at first light and get first crack at the new birds of the season. I can't wait. I just need to get all my gear out of storage and ready to go.

The past weekend was a good one. Our town had it's annual celebration. There was a carnival for 4 days, fireworks, vendors, a parade today, and awards for the biggest Striped Bass caught. They even had a car show yesterday morning. SR volunteered at the Chamber of Commerce booth selling raffle tickets, T-shirts, and give wrist bands to people over 21 so they could by beer.

When SR got off at the booth last night the kids and I met her down in town and we walked around from about 5:30 till a little after 10:00. We ate dinner and took the kids to the carnival. We all rode the bumper cars. The kids just love to do that. After that was over Oldest went on the Ferris wheel with some friends while youngest and I got on the Tornado. That was a complete shocker to me. It was his idea and he insisted on going on it. So we stood in line for a 20 minutes waiting to get on. The whole time he is extremely excited. When it was our turn to get on he ran to where he was told to get on and had the biggest smile in his face. When the ride got going it lifted us off the ground and went in circles. He asked my to spin the bar so we could spin more. So I did. He had the biggest smile I have ever seen on him. He was laughing so hard. My parents were there to take videos of him as we were going in circles. I can't wait to see them.

Now if he was me when I was 5 there was no way in hell I was going on that ride. Or any other ride for that matter. I was the biggest chicken you ever saw. The first coaster I ever went on was the Demon at Great America. I hated it. And I was 15! I didn't like coasters until I was about 17. Then you couldn't keep me off of the Demon, or the Edge or any other coaster I got a chance to ride.

Back to last night. After we rode the Tornado it was time to get ready to watch the fireworks. So the 6 of us went back to Summer's truck to watch the show. Now for a little town like it is that we live in they have one heck of a show. Nothing like Disneyland or Butchart Gardens, but good none the less. They bring a barge in under the draw bridge and have it stop right at the end of main street. Then they light the fireworks off by hand. No electronics used. There are 4 guys on the barge lighting them off with flares. It was awesome.

Then we went back to the carnival again where youngest went on the super slide and oldest went back on the bumper cars. Then it was home to bed. Boy did I sleep good last night.

This morning I attended church with the family. It was a good time. Although I have some questions to ask a few of my readers. Those will wait for later in the week though. Need to keep something for a post in the bank. :D After church we went back to the carnival to watch the parade. Then the boys and I took SR over to the boat dealer where they were having some excellent deals on some boats. There was one that normally goes for 130k that was show priced to 98k. What a deal! We did see a patio boat that we were semi interested in. It was about 23k. but SR really surprised me when she saw a boat that was going for 20k. The payments were 170 a month. Something we can't yet afford. But she said if we could afford it, it might be something she'd be interested in. It was a 19' Searay w/135 horse motor. It had a fiberglass floor to it so it made it real good as a fishing boat. But it also had the wakeboard tower on it as well so it would be a great ski boat as well. I miss water skiing. So we have more stuff to dream over now. Along with 2 new trucks for SR and I.

Then it was back to the carnival for another round of bumper cars. This time youngest went on the small coaster with SR. They had a good time. Both kids went on the Super Slide. Then all 4 of us got on the Tornado. SR screamed the whole time. Telling me to stop spinning while youngest is wanting me to spin more. My arms got real tired. :D

That's all for now. I want to leave you with final thing. I don't usually do this but decided that what the heck. I'll only live once. I found a new blog the other night.Ramble....anyone? She is a new blogger and only has about 5 posts. If you want to check out some good Ferris wheel stories go check her out. Especially parts 2 and 3. She's just starting out and is looking for input on her writings so go give her a visit.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Another hunting trip

Went on another hunting trip the past weekend. Went back to the same place as before. Just on a different hill. Nada. Zip. Zilch. I saw 4 deer in 3 days. Never before have I had a worse season than this. I'm used to at least seeing 15-20 deer a day. All does of course. But it was a good trip all the same. This time it was just my dad and I. The kids wanted to stay home this time. Which was fine with me because it gave me an extra day to go hunting. It also gave me some time to spend with just my dad. So it was fun. We did a little bit of talking. Not a lot but hey at least we talked.

Nothing spectacular happened this time like the last time. No crashed vehicles or anything like that. Although my uncle called us on Sun. morning to ask where we were at on the mountain. Apparently he shot his deer on Sat. at the club. So he was going to meet us at our spot. His season lasted an entire 90 minutes. Shooting time was at 6:30 he got his deer at 8:00. A 2x3 buck. But it wasn't mine or my dads so I won't bore you with the details.

So this afternoon SR asked me the silliest question. She asked me if I had enough decoys for duck hunting finally. That would be like asking if a woman had enough pairs of black heels. Of course not! She said that I have tons of decoys now. What else could I possibly need. Well let's see here. I currently have about 5 dozen duck decoys. 2 dozen mallard, 1 dozen pintail, 1/2 dozen green wing teal, 1/2 dozen widgeon, various decoys I've found over the years, some feeders, sleepers, and flyers. She bought me a decoy bag last year that holds 8 dozen decoys. So I NEED at least 3 dozen more.

Then there are goose decoys. 2 dozen honker shells. 1 dozen honker "socks". 8 dozen honker silhouettes. 2 dozen snow goose "socks". 1 dozen spec shells. I NEED at least 1 more dozen spec shells. 2 dozen spec silhouettes. 200 snow rags. 2 dozen snow shells. 1 dozen spec floaters. 1/2 dozen honker floaters. 2 dozen honker full bodies.

So as you can see there is still a long ways to go before I have what I need. That's just decoys. There's still jackets, waders, calls, boats, dogs. The list is endless. Just like black heels to a lady I can NEVER have to much duck hunting equipment. Sorry to those ladies out there that don't wear black heels. I'm in no way trying to be patronizing or stereotyping.

One last little tidbit of good news. SR got her schedule changed at work. So she is now working M-T during the days. And Fri. nights. That means that I will be able to attend my men's group meetings on Thu. nights! Isn't that great news? I'm so happy about this. I can't wait to go this Thu.

Just for those of you that are keeping track (not that there are many) our sex streak came to a screeching halt after I posted about it last. Went from 3 times in 7 days to once in 10 days. So there really isn't much to be jealous over. It just has it's ups and downs like every other relationship out there. I just wish it wasn't MY relationship. But then again I guess everyone thinks that.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

What's wrong?

What the heck is going on here? I can't see my blog at all. Is this just me?

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Just wanted to drop by and say that today is a special day for me. For the first time since I started taking the antidepressant medications I had sex three times in a seven day period. To some that may not be a big deal. But to me it's HUGE! Just like my tool. ;-) Oh wait. You've seen my tool and know the truth. Never mind.

Anyways as you can see things are going good for me. I'm in a good mood. The world is right. The state finally got off their ass and sent us our signing bonus. The best news about the check is that they didn't tax it at the overtime rate! That would have meant that they would have taken out 44% of the check. Instead they only took out something like 1%. So what am I doing with this new found money? I got my new cell phone to start off with. Finally. And got the one I wanted too. The rest is going towards the Visa bill. Then when we can find an open Sat. night Summer and I are going to go out to dinner. Alone. She's been wanting to try out a restaurant that we haven't tried before. So we're going to TGI Friday's. Supposed to be a good place.

Nothing much else going on in this little corner of the world. SR went to a Sisters in Christ conference yesterday. Ever since she got back she hasn't stopped telling me how much she loves me. Glad she went. Great ego boost for me. :D

I took the boys shopping yesterday and bought them Pirates of the Caribbean The Curse of the Black Pearl. Watched it twice so far. Pretty good movie. Haven't seen that one before.

So now I guess I should tell about what is going on with youngest and school. He will be attending a new school starting tomorrow morning. He will NOT be going to the school we went to look at two weeks ago. Instead he will be going to the same school that had the pre school he attended. It is closer to home for us and he is comfortable going there. They have a special day class that he will be going into. Then when he does better they will have him splitting the time between the day class and the kinder class there.

Ever since we had him out of the class he was in and got him away from his aide he has been doing great at school. He has been spending his days in his resource teachers class. Melissa I think is what I named her. Anyways she had thought that since he was doing so well for her for the 9 days he was in her class that he might be able to stay at this school and just go to a different teacher and get a different aide. She talked to the principle about it and she refused the idea. She said she does not want him at the school. Even though we have two people with the school district saying that the problem was most likely caused by conflicting personalities between him and the aide. Melissa said that the only problems that he had come across was when the aide came to the classroom with another of her students.

So I'm wondering now if there is any legal action I can take against the school to have him stay here. I'm already pissed enough at the original teacher for what he said to my son.

Oh that's right I never told you about that did I. The day after we had the IEP meeting at the school our sons kinder teacher told our son that he would be going to a school for bad boys. I was livid. I called the principal. She had the teacher call me and SR to apologize to us. He said that he was sorry and he just got frustrated and lost his cool. And that was it. Nothing happened to him. I want this ass holes job. I want him fired and have this on his record so he can not teach ever again. He went to school to learn how to deal with kids. And this is how he reacts. Maybe he found the wrong profession. So after this incident with the principal refusing to let him stay at this school I'm contacting my EAP program and talking to a lawyer to see if we have anything to go on here. All I want is 1- for the teacher to be fired & 2- to have our son stay at the school he is supposed to be at.

So do any of you think I have a snow balls chance in hell of accomplishing this?

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Sex and kids

Well to start off with I was able to perform twice so far this week! :::Happy Dance!::: (that was so girly of me) summer and I had a fantastic session on Tue. afternoon before the kids came home from school. Let me just say that she is amazing. She's even adding new things on her own. She was very vocal when we were alone. That is a huge turn on for me hearing how excited she gets. But the icing on the cake was when I was ready to cum she grabbed both of my nipples and squeezed them. OMG! I came so hard from her doing that. When we were done I asked her what brought that on especially at that precise moment. She said it just came to her as something to do. Well she can do that whenever she wants to. :D

Then this morning when I woke up I was feeling quite........amorous. So I did what just came naturally. I rolled over on top of Summer and gave her a kiss. She in turn kissed me back and opened up to receive me. It was amazing how easy it was to slip right inside of her. There was no foreplay at all on either of our parts, but she was still ready to take me in. After a few minutes I stopped long enough to play with her clit with my tongue. God I just love the taste of her. I paused all of this long enough to just breathe in her scent. She smells ssoooooo good.

She told me that she wanted to feel me inside of her again so I got back between her legs. After a few strokes I moved my legs outside of hers and sat up. She likes the way that I can rub on her when I sit up. She pulled me back down on top of her and began to tell me she wanted me to fill her up. I was so ready to do just that. I told her to say it some more. She said it in my ear and I felt her hot breathe. That sent me over the edge. I came inside of her and collapsed on top of her.

It was at that moment that she looked at the alarm clock. Oh shit! Your going to be late for work! I looked at the time and saw that I had 10 minutes to get dressed and get to work. Good thing I live so close to the yard. I wiped myself off quickly, threw on some clothes and ran out the door.

When I got to work my crew said that I looked very happy and wanted to know what was up with me. I just said that it was a beautiful day today. Then my boss come in and gives out the job assignments for the day. Everyone got an assignment but me. So I asked what was I supposed to do. Then he reminded me about my physical. He said that I had a 9:30 appointment for my DMV physical.

"Oh crap. I forgot about that."

"Did you need to ger cleaned up?"

"Yes I do. I totally forgot it was this morning."

"Well you have 30 minutes to get home and back here."

I ran out to the truck and headed home. Called Summer to ask if the shower was open. She said it will be in a few minutes. (We only have one shower.) This is where the day got funny. I walk in the door and youngest asks what I'm doing home. I tell him and summer that I have a Dr. apt. that I forgot about and need to take a shower. Summer starts laughing at me. Youngest says 'Why didn't you take a shower before work?' In a bossy tone of voice.

"I did take a shower last night."

"Then why are you taking one now?"

"Because daddy exercised this morning and didn't have time for a shower before work."

Summer is turning red now.

"What did you exercise?"

"I did push ups."

"What kind of pushups?"

"The adult exercise kind."

"Show me what you did."

"I can't."


"Your too young to do these push ups."


Summer just turns real red and laughs. I get in the shower and go back to work.

So the real good news in all of this is that I am starting to get my drive back slowly but surely. Now I just need to get a few more things tweaked with and I think this medication thing will be pretty livable. Just don't want to be on this stuff for the rest of my life.

Good night all and happy shagging!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Home again

Well I've returned from my hunting trip with my boys and my dad. It was a fun trip. Saw some new and awesome sights. But saw very few deer. We saw 4 deer on Sat. 2 does and 2 fawns. The coolest part about seeing the deer on Sat. was that I have never seen a fawn that still had the white markings on it. That was a high point of the trip for me. I didn't have time to get the camera out to get a picture though.

On Sun. youngest son did really good and spotted the first deer of the day. He did exactly like he was supposed to do to. He tugged on my shirt, gasped quietly and whispered 'Dad there's a deer'. I turned around and there was a doe standing out in the open. She stood there for a few seconds and continued walking and eating. Soon her 2 fawns followed her down over the hill out of sight.

The highlight of the trip for the boys was getting to shoot the .22's. My dad and I found a secluded spot where we had a good back stop of a hill and set up some cans and some paper targets. They had a blast shooting them. Well youngest had a blast trying to shoot them. Oldest did a good job of hitting the cans consistantly.

After we were done shooting we continued down the road doing some road hunting. The road ended up being a dead end so we had to turn around and go back the way we came. In total from the time we started on this road to the time we got turned around and got back to where we were shooting was about 90 minutes. This is important to the story.

after we got a few turns past the shooting location my dad stopped the truck and said that he saw something strange. He got out of the truck and told the kids to stay there. He told me to come with him and bring the binoculars. When I got to where he was at and looked down the side of the hill we saw a truck at the bottom that was on it's side.

We were talking the situation over trying to decide whether or not it was there when we came through earlier. We determined that it wasn't there when we originally came through. So that meant that we needed to go down to the bottom of the hill and see if there was anyone inside still and if they were hurt or not. We both said at the same time 'I really don't want to go down there to find a mangled dead body'. As we started our decent we saw 2 CDF trucks drive up. They said that the people who were in the truck were ok and were on their way in another truck. At this point we were blocked in. So we stayed there while more CDF guys and 2 CHP officers arrived. The occupants of the truck came up with the CHP officers. When they got there we got the story of what happened.

Apparently they were road hunting like we were. In this type of hunting you basically drive around on old logging roads at an idle watching the hillside for signs of deer. So your going at a speed of maybe 2 miles an hour. Anyways they saw a buck and went to stop the truck. The next thing they knew they were going backwards down the hill. When they got to the bottom they hit a drop off and rolled over. At that point they were able to get out of the truck and by some miracle their Nextel's worked to get direct connect to an emergency number. That explained to us how the emergency crews got there so soon. And the helicopter that had been circling us for awhile.

After we got the story dad and I walked down the hill to check out the truck. It was about a 150 yard drop from the roadway. It was STEEP. We got a little over 2/3 the way down the hill and decided that was close enough and took some pics and made our way to the top of the hill. Oh did I forget to mention that the occupants of the truck walked away without a scratch? They were wearing their seat belts. Something that you never see while hunting these old logging roads.

So here is the story that my dad and I came up with as to how they ended up down there. They saw the deer. The driver went to put his foot on the break. In his excited state of seeing a buck he missed the break and hit the throttle instead. This in turn launched him over the edge into the tree pictured. When they hit the tree it made the ass end slide away from them. Then they rolled down the hill until they hit the bottom where they rolled only one time. The driver said that the only thing he remembered was seeing a deer and then rolling down the hill backwards.

That was the extent of my hunting trip. No deer so we will be going back up there again in two weeks with the hope that we will have a storm come in to move the deer around more. Being later in the season there will be less people hunting as well.

There are a few updates to make about our sons schooling but that will come tomorrow night. It's now time for some desert and bed.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

One more.....

...quick post. This weekend I'll be going deer hunting with my dad and both my boys. This will be youngest's first hunting trip. It's going to be a very special weekend. The only down side is that oldest busted his wrist at school today so he's in a cast for a few weeks. He's really upset about it too because the Dr. told him no shooting. My dad and I were going to bring our .22's along for the kids to plink around with. So he's pretty bummed about it. But he is happy to be going out in my dads fifth wheel. When I return next week I should have some good pictures to post up.

Now I do have a question for women out there (men to if you want to pitch in with your experience as well). It is said that a male reaches his sexual peak at about 17-18 years of age. When does a female reach her peak? And how do you know when she has reached it? I have noticed that the last few times Summer and I have been together she has just been phenomenal. She has left me completely breathless. Really. There is just such a huge change in making love to her the past few weeks compared to the last few years. I'm just curious if it is due to her reaching her "peak" or is it because of the decrease in the amount of sex we have.
Or could it be because her feelings for me have truly started to change for the better again. Just things for me to ponder.

If you haven't done so you might want to drop by and see this topic that is going on over at FTN's place. It's mind boggling to me to see that he has over 115 comments. The topic reminded me of a discussion he and I were having over at Unsolicited Advice a few months ago. It reminded me that I never have posted my thoughts on religion like I said I would. So it is here now as a reminder to me that I need to do it in the near future.

Until next week when I see you again. Have a good weekend!

Oh one last thing- Wish us luck tomorrow. SR and I will be going to a new school in the morning to see if that is where we want our son to go. So fare from what we have seen on the web and from what Melissa has said from what she has seen it will be the perfect school for our son. Here's to hoping for transportation!

HNT! (late)

It's a lttle late but technically it's still Thursday on the west coast. :D So here is my HNT contribution for this week. It's been awhile since I've done this.Sorry for that. The reason for this is that a few weeks ago I did the unthinkable. I trimmed my goatee. Down to about nothing. This is what it is currently like. Summer asked me to cut it off because it was getting to be a little to "rough" for her liking. And being the loving husband I am I did as she asked me to. But pomly because she asked nicely, and said that if i didn't want to it was fine.

Monday, September 18, 2006


This is just going to be a quickie post. I have been ordered to do 50 push ups in bed with SR by Captain Winky.

So we had the IEP meeting for youngest son today. Things just aren't adding up. The Autism center hasn't tried to contact the school for any information at all pertaining to any tests that the school has done. The school has contacted them several times but they wont return the calls. Even though we signed a release paper allowing them to discuss the issue with the proper school officials. Our caseworker from Kaiser is very displeased with the center as well. She feels that they have not done enough testing of our son yet. They never went over half the tests that have been done and just told us to stop administering the Abilify. She believes that there is something else besides just ADHD. Especially since the medicine prescribed to him for when he was thought to have Autism helped him out so much. The problems at the school started back up when we stopped that medicine and went to ADHD meds. So now he's back on Abilify and he's getting better again. He is being allowed back into the school for this week but only for half days. On Fri. we have an appointment at another school that is about 25 miles from home. It is a "non public" school. It is set up to be in a stricter environment than the school he is currently in. They have staff on board that are trained specifically for his type of problems. So if we like the school he will begin attending there next Mon. morning. As long as the school he's currently at can find the transportation. So now it's just another waiting game to see if we like this school or not.

The thing that I don't understand about this school is that it is not a public school. So does that mean it is a private school? They didn't make it sound that way when we were in the meeting today.

The biggest thing to come out of the meeting today was that the school has finally realized what we have been trying to tell them for the past 2 years. He has some really big issues here. The thing for us now is to get Kaiser off there asses long enough to give us some straight answers instead of the dam run around that they have been giving us since the beginning of 2006.

Sergant Stiffy Out.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

If I were in porn.....

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Sergeant Stiffy

Saturday, September 16, 2006

A new song

As you can see I changed the song again for my video. I usually don't bring attention to this. But this time I felt it was necessary. The song is called Animal I have become. It's sung by a Canadian band called Three Days Grace. I also don't normally put videos up for the type of music that I truly enjoy because well it's just not for everyone. This is what I listen to 95% of the time. I do mix in a little bit of country to please Summer, and some Eminem just to keep things interesting. Anyways I decided to put this song up here because I feel that it describes a lot of the inner turmoil that I have going on. So listen to the words and not the "evil" music. Sometimes even the evilest of songs can have meaning if you just pay attention to the lyrics.

I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times I've lied
(So many times I've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this animal

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)

Well folks it's time for this post to end. I need to see if SR still wants me to dye her hair tonight before bed. Then I need some sleep. My dad and I are going fishing together for the first time in over a year. We're also going to be marking GPS locations for some duck hunting spots on the Delta. Mainly marking the channel so we don't run aground in the fog. There's some huge sandbars out here that if you hit them at the wrong tide you'll be screwed for quite some time. My dad got stuck on one back in the 70's about 1/2 mile from my house. Was stuck there over night. Not a good situation. Especially since my mom was with him. Good night!