I’m trying something new here so let’s see if it works. I just downloaded the Word add on for Blogger.
So I talked to the shop today about the Exploder. They said that the misfire code has stopped registering. That is a good thing as that means that most likely the piston did not float a piston ring. The catalytic converter is still full of oil. Actually the whole exhaust system is full of oil. They want to do a fuel injection flush to clean out the top end. But they can’t do that until they get the cat cleaned out. They are trying to keep from ruining the cat, as they just replaced it and the rest of the exhaust system 18 months ago. When they started the truck up this morning they revved the engine a few times and turned it off. When they walked to the back of the truck there was a pool of oil under the exhaust outlet. So the owner was going to use the truck to run all of his errands today to try and clean out the exhaust.
The rest of the day was spent trying to get M2C to relax. She is beating herself up over this constantly playing the ‘What if Game’. I’m sure you can think of the what if’s she’s saying. So I said “what if I had a pussy instead of a dick. That would make us lesbians”. Apparently that was the wrong thing to say.
**We interrupt this post to bring you the latest information.** The shop just called. They did a leak down test on the heads. Acceptable is 10%. It is at a 15%. So what that means is that it needs to have a valve job. So now they need to take every thing out that they just put in for the gaskets and send the heads out to a machine shop. So we will be without the truck for at least another week. It will cost at least another 1500. They will have a better estimate for me on Mon. morning.**We now return you to your regularly scheduled posting.**
Now where was I? So this afternoon M2C was really stressed out trying to do laundry and clean up from our mouse problems. (More on that later). I put a movie on for the kids and took her to the bedroom. She got upset saying she had too much to do. I told her not to worry about the other things. Right now all she needs to worry about is relaxing. So I told her to just lay there and relax. At first she protested but I told her if she gets up I’ll be forced to tie to the bed. ;) I almost wanted her to get up. She asked me to make her some tea so I obliged. Then we just lay in bed. I ended up falling asleep. Side track: Why is it I can instantly fall asleep in the day time but at night I toss and turn all night?
So now I’m going to a little back tracking here and go back in time to yesterday. Ever since the truck went back to the shop M2C has had a really bad knot in her shoulder. So she scheduled an appointment for yesterday when I came home from work. After the appointment she was on her way home in my truck when she got pulled over. She calls me up and asks me where the registration is for my truck because she was pulled over for no light over the license plate. I told her it was in the glove box. When she got home I asked her if I could see the ticket as it would be a fix it ticket in my name. She said that they didn’t give her a ticket because she couldn’t find the registration. Great news. But she almost had the truck searched also. This small town won’t pull over someone without having a second car there within 3 minutes. When the second cop gets there they search the vehicle. Last night they had 2 cops there. Luckily no search. Not that there was anything illegal in the truck but dinner was getting cold. Plus the humiliation of standing on the side of the road having your car searched while people drive by watching.
Other than that it has been pretty dull around here. M2C has been crying a lot about her truck. I keep trying to cheer her up but it doesn’t help. I asked her if she wanted to go on a date when her truck got out of the shop. She said that is what people do before they get married. Not after. Oh well. I’ll try again when she is in a better mood maybe.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
And it all comes crashing down!
Well all the good happy feelings I've had lately about our financial situation is gone. It's gone. A huge bomb was just dropped on us today and I don't know what we are going to do. Words cannot describe how I am feeling now. I want to lash out at anyone. I want to crawl into a little ball and hide. I want to just say fuck it to everything and everyone.
So here's what's happening. I picked up the Exploder from the shop on Mon. night. Dropped down 1200 dollars. I was told to not take the vehicle on any long drives. When I get home let the engine cool, check the coolant level, and check the oil. The mechanic told me to do all this before M2C drove any where on Tue. So I did as I was told. The coolant was low so I added some. The oil level was right where it was supposed to be. It was hard to see as it was fresh oil but I know what I am looking for.
Yesterday M2C calls me up at work and says that it is low on oil. I said I checked it last night it is fine. But go ahead and buy some so we have some on hand. She calls me up a few hours later and asks what kind to get as she is at Autozone. I told her what to get. When I get home she says and I quote " I'm sorry. I'm an idiot. I put just a little to much oil in this after noon." I said as log as it was a little bit it will be fine. That is where I made my mistake. I didn't check to see what a little bit was. I guess stupid me.
So today she calls me up at work and says she had to take the truck back to the shop because the check engine light came on. When I get off work go to the shop so we can drop off the Explorer. I think ok not a big deal. When I go to the shop after work M2C is not there yet. The shop owner looks at me and he is shaking his head with a very bad look on his face. He said she put in 2 quarts of oil. Not a "little bit" but 2 whole quarts! He said there are sensors going haywire all over the engine. Here is a partial list of the problems. Some are definite some we have to wait till they tear down the whole top end. AGAIN!
Catalytic converter full of oil exhaust blowing blue smoke.
PCV valve full of oil. Needs replaced.
Whole top end which was just thoroughly cleaned needs to be cleaned AGAIN as it is full of oil.
Possibly blew some where between 1& 3 piston rings. Will find out for sure once top end is torn down.
Has a constant misfire on one of the cylinders.
Other things that will not be known till the teardown is complete.
So now we are down to one car again. If we need to replace the cat again and the rings plus the cost of complete tear down again we will not be able to afford to fix them without charging the Visa again. That is if the engine is even worth fixing which it might not be.
So now M2C is crying a lot. (Well not really at this moment she is at work.) I am extremely pissed off now. I can't get mad at her because then I am an evil ass hole. It's not really her that I am mad at. It's really me. I never should have told her to check the oil. I checked it myself and it was fine. If I didn't tell her then maybe she would not have put the oil in the truck. But on the other hand and this is the big one (well 2 things) I asked her to wait till I got home to put oil in it. And the second even bigger is that she was at Autozone. They will come out and put oil in for you if you ask. They will check the oil to see if you even need it. All you need to do is ask for help. So hear I am stuck at home with non vehicle again for who knows how long. It's been a month since I shot my gun and I really need to shoot something. Preferably that dam Explorer. The worse part is that since we paid it off we lost our gap insurance.
I'm going to go now before I say anything else that I may regret.
So here's what's happening. I picked up the Exploder from the shop on Mon. night. Dropped down 1200 dollars. I was told to not take the vehicle on any long drives. When I get home let the engine cool, check the coolant level, and check the oil. The mechanic told me to do all this before M2C drove any where on Tue. So I did as I was told. The coolant was low so I added some. The oil level was right where it was supposed to be. It was hard to see as it was fresh oil but I know what I am looking for.
Yesterday M2C calls me up at work and says that it is low on oil. I said I checked it last night it is fine. But go ahead and buy some so we have some on hand. She calls me up a few hours later and asks what kind to get as she is at Autozone. I told her what to get. When I get home she says and I quote " I'm sorry. I'm an idiot. I put just a little to much oil in this after noon." I said as log as it was a little bit it will be fine. That is where I made my mistake. I didn't check to see what a little bit was. I guess stupid me.
So today she calls me up at work and says she had to take the truck back to the shop because the check engine light came on. When I get off work go to the shop so we can drop off the Explorer. I think ok not a big deal. When I go to the shop after work M2C is not there yet. The shop owner looks at me and he is shaking his head with a very bad look on his face. He said she put in 2 quarts of oil. Not a "little bit" but 2 whole quarts! He said there are sensors going haywire all over the engine. Here is a partial list of the problems. Some are definite some we have to wait till they tear down the whole top end. AGAIN!
Catalytic converter full of oil exhaust blowing blue smoke.
PCV valve full of oil. Needs replaced.
Whole top end which was just thoroughly cleaned needs to be cleaned AGAIN as it is full of oil.
Possibly blew some where between 1& 3 piston rings. Will find out for sure once top end is torn down.
Has a constant misfire on one of the cylinders.
Other things that will not be known till the teardown is complete.
So now we are down to one car again. If we need to replace the cat again and the rings plus the cost of complete tear down again we will not be able to afford to fix them without charging the Visa again. That is if the engine is even worth fixing which it might not be.
So now M2C is crying a lot. (Well not really at this moment she is at work.) I am extremely pissed off now. I can't get mad at her because then I am an evil ass hole. It's not really her that I am mad at. It's really me. I never should have told her to check the oil. I checked it myself and it was fine. If I didn't tell her then maybe she would not have put the oil in the truck. But on the other hand and this is the big one (well 2 things) I asked her to wait till I got home to put oil in it. And the second even bigger is that she was at Autozone. They will come out and put oil in for you if you ask. They will check the oil to see if you even need it. All you need to do is ask for help. So hear I am stuck at home with non vehicle again for who knows how long. It's been a month since I shot my gun and I really need to shoot something. Preferably that dam Explorer. The worse part is that since we paid it off we lost our gap insurance.
I'm going to go now before I say anything else that I may regret.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Another Recipe
Here is a recipe that I came across online. I must admit that I haven't tried it yet but it sounds so good. I also don't have much to say today.
Here's how to make some interesting Hamburgers. You need to make your own patties not the pre made ones from the store. When you make the patties make them bigger round and thinner than normal. Place mushrooms, bacon bits, and cheddar cheese on the burger leaving space around the edge. Then place another patty on top and pinch the ends. Place them on the BBQ and Enjoy.
Also just to let you all know my wife now has a Blogger ID and is a member to this site. So hopefully she will be posting soon.
Here's how to make some interesting Hamburgers. You need to make your own patties not the pre made ones from the store. When you make the patties make them bigger round and thinner than normal. Place mushrooms, bacon bits, and cheddar cheese on the burger leaving space around the edge. Then place another patty on top and pinch the ends. Place them on the BBQ and Enjoy.
Also just to let you all know my wife now has a Blogger ID and is a member to this site. So hopefully she will be posting soon.
Monday, November 07, 2005
I remember
Well as I was taking a shower I remember what one of the things that I wanted to say on Fri. were. I wanted to tell you about something my wife introduced me to a few months ago. Now for a little background (maybe a little too much info but oh well). For years I have had severely dry feet. I would put lotion on my feet every night before bed. Sometimes 2-3 times a day I'd put lotion on. No matter how much I would put on it would do no good. 5 minutes after I put lotion on, my feet would feel like sandpaper.
So fast forward to a few months ago. We are taking a shower and she takes this piece e of pumice rock and starts to scrub my feet with it. It feels great. When we got out she put the lotion on and it made a huge difference. So now we have a special foot scrubber we bought at Wal-Mart (my favorite store). It has a pumice rock on one part, a brush, a fine sand paper like side, and a course sandpaper side. This thing works wonders. I have started to use it on a daily basis and have noticed a huge change in my feet.
Now you may ask 'Why is he telling us this?' Well I'll tell you. Recently I decided if the scrubber does such a good job on my feet how will it do on my hands. So the other day I used it on my hands. Let me tell you something. It made a huge difference in my wifes responses when I touch her. So there is my tip to men out there with rough hands. Get a scrubber and scrub your hands. It will work wonders in your loved ones responses. ;)
So fast forward to a few months ago. We are taking a shower and she takes this piece e of pumice rock and starts to scrub my feet with it. It feels great. When we got out she put the lotion on and it made a huge difference. So now we have a special foot scrubber we bought at Wal-Mart (my favorite store). It has a pumice rock on one part, a brush, a fine sand paper like side, and a course sandpaper side. This thing works wonders. I have started to use it on a daily basis and have noticed a huge change in my feet.
Now you may ask 'Why is he telling us this?' Well I'll tell you. Recently I decided if the scrubber does such a good job on my feet how will it do on my hands. So the other day I used it on my hands. Let me tell you something. It made a huge difference in my wifes responses when I touch her. So there is my tip to men out there with rough hands. Get a scrubber and scrub your hands. It will work wonders in your loved ones responses. ;)
It's back!
Well I finally picked up my wifes Exploder from the shop tonight. We had quite a few extra things done to it than just the head gasket. But none of you are interested in that so no details. The best thing is that the shop as usual gave us some good discounts on parts and labor. It's amazing what a few cases of beer can get you. I need to give him another case on payday. I buy him a case of beer after every job and he gives me discounts. He even has done some jobs for free.
It will be nice having 2 vehicles again. We can actually do stuff again. Plus I can drive to work again. Maybe. I've walked to work for a week now and it don't seem to bother me. It only takes 8 minutes to walk to work so I don't need to get up earlier in the mornings. I just need to make lunch the night before. So I might keep up with the walking to work unless it's raining.
I am now seeing the down sides of being a home owner. In the last 3 days I have received 10 letters from various companies asking the same thing. Would you be interested in mortgage insurance? I'm sick of it already. I talked to my mom today to see if I can stop the mailings. She said nope. Nothing you can do. The lender has already sold my info to other companies. Personally I think they should make that illegal. This company is making enough money off of me in interest. They don't need to be selling my info to anyone. I could care less if that is "the way it is". It just burns me. I get enough useless crap in the mail as it is already. I don't need more.
Nothing new to report on my thinking about a new job. In fact I went to a meeting today at work. Hopefully if we have a good winter I will be able to get some good over time. That is if we get enough snow in the sierras. I'm on the list to go plow snow and do chain control. When we do that we work 12 hour shifts 7 days a week. Plus we get paid per diem for being away from home. The last time I did it 2 years ago I was there for 8 days and worked 110 hours of overtime (that was 110 hours in 8 days.) Plus mileage and meals. I made quite a bit. This year they are short handed in the sierras so they may call more people from the bay area and delta to help out. The down side is no internet for the amount of time you are there. Some people have been there for during really bad storms for 5 weeks working 12 hours a day with NO days off. Thats a lot of work but wow the $$$$$$$ signs are very hard to resist. Last year I wasn't called up. My boss said I was on vacation when they requested me. I told him this year that if I'm on vacation it don't matter. I have a cell phone call me. If you can't get ahold of me call my wife she can. I need to go to the snow.
Thats enough. I'm thinking about stuff thats still a few weeks from happening. Till next time.
It will be nice having 2 vehicles again. We can actually do stuff again. Plus I can drive to work again. Maybe. I've walked to work for a week now and it don't seem to bother me. It only takes 8 minutes to walk to work so I don't need to get up earlier in the mornings. I just need to make lunch the night before. So I might keep up with the walking to work unless it's raining.
I am now seeing the down sides of being a home owner. In the last 3 days I have received 10 letters from various companies asking the same thing. Would you be interested in mortgage insurance? I'm sick of it already. I talked to my mom today to see if I can stop the mailings. She said nope. Nothing you can do. The lender has already sold my info to other companies. Personally I think they should make that illegal. This company is making enough money off of me in interest. They don't need to be selling my info to anyone. I could care less if that is "the way it is". It just burns me. I get enough useless crap in the mail as it is already. I don't need more.
Nothing new to report on my thinking about a new job. In fact I went to a meeting today at work. Hopefully if we have a good winter I will be able to get some good over time. That is if we get enough snow in the sierras. I'm on the list to go plow snow and do chain control. When we do that we work 12 hour shifts 7 days a week. Plus we get paid per diem for being away from home. The last time I did it 2 years ago I was there for 8 days and worked 110 hours of overtime (that was 110 hours in 8 days.) Plus mileage and meals. I made quite a bit. This year they are short handed in the sierras so they may call more people from the bay area and delta to help out. The down side is no internet for the amount of time you are there. Some people have been there for during really bad storms for 5 weeks working 12 hours a day with NO days off. Thats a lot of work but wow the $$$$$$$ signs are very hard to resist. Last year I wasn't called up. My boss said I was on vacation when they requested me. I told him this year that if I'm on vacation it don't matter. I have a cell phone call me. If you can't get ahold of me call my wife she can. I need to go to the snow.
Thats enough. I'm thinking about stuff thats still a few weeks from happening. Till next time.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Well I guess I'm wrong.
Well I guess the general consensus is that I am wrong about how I want my wife to quit. She has read all the responses to the post and says "see I'm giving them notice." So she will be giving them notice. Now we are 'discussing' when her last day will be. I'd like her to leave on the day before Thanksgiving. We are having her sister here, plus that leaves the whole weekend to get set up for Christmas. I really want to get the Christmas decorations good this year. Plus the kids are out of school from the 23 to the 28. I'm off work Thu. to Sun. So we can do something together as a family.
She wants her last day to be the 28th. She will end up working the day after Thanksgiving. Then work on Mon. That's it. No reasons for wanting to work those 2 days. Especially with her sister here. She says she might make a post on it later.
That brings up a question. I've seen Blogs that have team members that post. How do I get my wife on my site as a team member? I know I need to make an account for her but what else do I need to do? Especially as she has shown some interest on posting on my Blog lately as well as on some other Blogs as well.
There have been some other things that I have wanted to post about since Fri. but now that I have the time I don't have the memory. :-( I had all these wonderful thoughts while laying in bed the other night. Now I have no idea what they wee. Except for one. But that one is going to wait. I'm still debating on whether or not to post about my kids in detail.
As an update on us we are doing fine. My wife's truck is still in the shop. We should be getting it back tomorrow. She missed the wedding that she wanted to go to, and I missed a hunting trip with my dad. So we stayed in bed till 10:30 yesterday. Today I mopped the floors. Going to go to bed early tonight I hope.
On a side note as of getting Comcast Cable we now are able to watch HBO on Demand. So now I can watch every episode of Sex Detectives. It was referred months ago byLizzie . I have watched them alone but they have given me some insight. Good program. I'd like to watch it with my wife but that is out of the question. I recommend it to anyone in a committed relationship.
She wants her last day to be the 28th. She will end up working the day after Thanksgiving. Then work on Mon. That's it. No reasons for wanting to work those 2 days. Especially with her sister here. She says she might make a post on it later.
That brings up a question. I've seen Blogs that have team members that post. How do I get my wife on my site as a team member? I know I need to make an account for her but what else do I need to do? Especially as she has shown some interest on posting on my Blog lately as well as on some other Blogs as well.
There have been some other things that I have wanted to post about since Fri. but now that I have the time I don't have the memory. :-( I had all these wonderful thoughts while laying in bed the other night. Now I have no idea what they wee. Except for one. But that one is going to wait. I'm still debating on whether or not to post about my kids in detail.
As an update on us we are doing fine. My wife's truck is still in the shop. We should be getting it back tomorrow. She missed the wedding that she wanted to go to, and I missed a hunting trip with my dad. So we stayed in bed till 10:30 yesterday. Today I mopped the floors. Going to go to bed early tonight I hope.
On a side note as of getting Comcast Cable we now are able to watch HBO on Demand. So now I can watch every episode of Sex Detectives. It was referred months ago by
Friday, November 04, 2005
Well my wife was given her start date the other day. Her first day of work will be Dec. 1st. So as we had our 10 minutes of talk time today between me getting home and her leaving for work she said she needs to give the store her 2 weeks notice. WTF?!?!? She don't owe them shit. She was all for it few days ago. Not telling them until they call her for not being there. Unfortunately she has cooled way faster than I have. Here's my take on the situation as told to me by my dad. "Why do you need to give your current employer 2 weeks notice if you already have a new job lined up? If you boss were to fire you would they give you 2 weeks notice before firing you? Or would they fire you on the spot?" I took that piece of wisdom very seriously. Because it is true. If my boss were to fire me they would not warn me. They would fire me on the spot. So we are trying to find common ground here. She says she don't want to get in trouble with the store owner. I said what kind of trouble? You are quitting so he's no longer your boss. Maybe she can just go to work one day and not be dressed for work. Then when she gets there say I quit. Or do like I did at my first job. Just walk out in the middle of a shift by quitting. (We had 4 people quit that night. All within 2 minutes.) But when the big moment comes I will definitely let you all know how she quits.
Wife has been sick for a few days this week. She's better now though.
I came to a new revelation this week. I need a new job. A job where I am the boss. Or at least I have very little contact with a boss figure or other people. So the search for a new job is in the thinking process as of now. I'm really sick of people telling me what to do. Well that's really not it. The problem is that my boss likes to micro-manage. Plus he likes to assign you jobs that he knows will get a reaction from you so that you will say something. Then he says you have an attitude and it needs to change. The big problem is that he's not going anywhere as he didn't pass the superintendent test. So we are stuck with him. I just don't want a job that I need to commute to. As I have said my round trip commute is about .6 miles. I also need to make the same amount I make now. So I need a job that pays 20 an hour. More if I need to commute. I also want to have my weekends off like I do now AND be home every night like I am now.
These requirements are going to limit me to stay at my current job. Some jobs I have thought about are a truck driver as I already have a class A license. But there really isn't any money in it unless you go long haul cross country. I have thought about going to the private sector doing what I do now but they work 10-13 hours a day 6-7 days a week. They also get laid off when the rain starts. A job that I thought about yesterday is a garbage truck driver. Picking up peoples household garbage. They have weekends off, home every night, and make more than I make now. They just have to be around garbage everyday. Then there is my ideal job. Going into business myself doing woodwork. I loved doing that when I was younger. I used to make furniture. I made the bed that my son sleeps on now when I was in highschool. It is a twin bed with 6 drawers on one side and a storage bin on the other side. It also has a 7 foot headboard that is a book shelf. I have also made computer desks, bookshelves, microwave cabinet and towel racks. I just don't have the time to make enough furniture to support my family. Also I don't have any wood working tools anymore since I moved out of my dads house. I might do that as a hobby though when I get my tools.
I have also had something else on my mind lately that has to do with the blogs I comment on. When I leave some comments and look at them later I realize that I am trying to say something and be sarcastic or funny but they can be taken completely different. You can't hear the tone of someone's voice when they type. I have been told that sometimes when I am trying to be funny some people don't take it that way. So if I have offended any of you I'm sorry.
I have some more things on my mind but I'm cooking so maybe I'll write more tonight or in the morning.
Wife has been sick for a few days this week. She's better now though.
I came to a new revelation this week. I need a new job. A job where I am the boss. Or at least I have very little contact with a boss figure or other people. So the search for a new job is in the thinking process as of now. I'm really sick of people telling me what to do. Well that's really not it. The problem is that my boss likes to micro-manage. Plus he likes to assign you jobs that he knows will get a reaction from you so that you will say something. Then he says you have an attitude and it needs to change. The big problem is that he's not going anywhere as he didn't pass the superintendent test. So we are stuck with him. I just don't want a job that I need to commute to. As I have said my round trip commute is about .6 miles. I also need to make the same amount I make now. So I need a job that pays 20 an hour. More if I need to commute. I also want to have my weekends off like I do now AND be home every night like I am now.
These requirements are going to limit me to stay at my current job. Some jobs I have thought about are a truck driver as I already have a class A license. But there really isn't any money in it unless you go long haul cross country. I have thought about going to the private sector doing what I do now but they work 10-13 hours a day 6-7 days a week. They also get laid off when the rain starts. A job that I thought about yesterday is a garbage truck driver. Picking up peoples household garbage. They have weekends off, home every night, and make more than I make now. They just have to be around garbage everyday. Then there is my ideal job. Going into business myself doing woodwork. I loved doing that when I was younger. I used to make furniture. I made the bed that my son sleeps on now when I was in highschool. It is a twin bed with 6 drawers on one side and a storage bin on the other side. It also has a 7 foot headboard that is a book shelf. I have also made computer desks, bookshelves, microwave cabinet and towel racks. I just don't have the time to make enough furniture to support my family. Also I don't have any wood working tools anymore since I moved out of my dads house. I might do that as a hobby though when I get my tools.
I have also had something else on my mind lately that has to do with the blogs I comment on. When I leave some comments and look at them later I realize that I am trying to say something and be sarcastic or funny but they can be taken completely different. You can't hear the tone of someone's voice when they type. I have been told that sometimes when I am trying to be funny some people don't take it that way. So if I have offended any of you I'm sorry.
I have some more things on my mind but I'm cooking so maybe I'll write more tonight or in the morning.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
She got the job!!!!!!!
Well I am pleased to say that my wife got a phone call yesterday and it was the place she has been interviewing with. They gave her the job. She goes in on Fri. to sign her employment papers, and help get the massage program started up for the gym. We are both so excited about this new job. YAY she can quit the grocery store!
On to other things. It has been a while since I posted so I'll catch you up on the stuff I can remember from last week. First we had a birthday party for our youngest. He is now 5. That was on Tue. Also on Tue. we got our $27,000.00 from the house deposited in our checking account. So I was still sick on Wed. and stayed home from work. We ended up paying off all of our credit cards, my student loan, and my wifes Exploder. Then we went to the auto parts store and ordered parts for the same vehicle. When we got home the cable guy came and hooked up our cable and internet. YAY! I now have digital cable & cable internet. The great thing is the internet is faster than my DSL connection AND it costs less money a month for cable tv and internet than my DSL was. Rest of the week not much happened.
On Sat. morning I went out to replace the radiator and all the hoses in the Exploder when my wife came out and asked if I wanted any help. I said sure so she stayed out and got dirty with me all morning working. It was real fun doing this together. I told her now I'm going to teach you how to change the oil. She said great. After we finished the truck we ate lunch and sat down to use the on demand service from cable. We watched the 1963 version of The Haunting. It was a real good movie. It would have been better if I didn't have to cook dinner halfway through but still a good movie. The ending made no sense to me because I had to leave to cook and missed the middle. Plus it didn't follow the same plot line of The Haunting that was released a few years ago. I liked the effects in that version.
Then there is yesterday. I took the kids Trick or Treating while my wife worked at the grocery store. IT was real fun. The oldest was dressed as 'Death'. He had on black pants, black turtle neck, and a skull mask that bleeds when you squeeze the heart. He had some little 3 year olds crying. He scared the crap out of some adults. He had a guy video tape the blood running down his face. His night was great. The youngest was a ninja turtle.
So there's the up date. I need to give the computer over to my wife so I'll post more later.
On to other things. It has been a while since I posted so I'll catch you up on the stuff I can remember from last week. First we had a birthday party for our youngest. He is now 5. That was on Tue. Also on Tue. we got our $27,000.00 from the house deposited in our checking account. So I was still sick on Wed. and stayed home from work. We ended up paying off all of our credit cards, my student loan, and my wifes Exploder. Then we went to the auto parts store and ordered parts for the same vehicle. When we got home the cable guy came and hooked up our cable and internet. YAY! I now have digital cable & cable internet. The great thing is the internet is faster than my DSL connection AND it costs less money a month for cable tv and internet than my DSL was. Rest of the week not much happened.
On Sat. morning I went out to replace the radiator and all the hoses in the Exploder when my wife came out and asked if I wanted any help. I said sure so she stayed out and got dirty with me all morning working. It was real fun doing this together. I told her now I'm going to teach you how to change the oil. She said great. After we finished the truck we ate lunch and sat down to use the on demand service from cable. We watched the 1963 version of The Haunting. It was a real good movie. It would have been better if I didn't have to cook dinner halfway through but still a good movie. The ending made no sense to me because I had to leave to cook and missed the middle. Plus it didn't follow the same plot line of The Haunting that was released a few years ago. I liked the effects in that version.
Then there is yesterday. I took the kids Trick or Treating while my wife worked at the grocery store. IT was real fun. The oldest was dressed as 'Death'. He had on black pants, black turtle neck, and a skull mask that bleeds when you squeeze the heart. He had some little 3 year olds crying. He scared the crap out of some adults. He had a guy video tape the blood running down his face. His night was great. The youngest was a ninja turtle.
So there's the up date. I need to give the computer over to my wife so I'll post more later.
Saturday, October 29, 2005
The bad week had a great ending!
Just letting everyone know I'm still here. Things are going pretty good right now. I just came out of bed. ;) The kids are still sleeping so It was a WONDERFUL morning. I'm over my flu now. Well I've got an Explorer to put parts on so I'll let everyone in on the rest of the week when I get some time tonight.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Off to a bad week
Well not trying to be negative but this is starting to be a terrible week. I woke up this morning sick. By the time I got off work (late) I couldn't breathe or swallow. My head is so plugged up right now. I'm going to drink some tea, take some Nyquil and go to bed soon. I just have some things to mention before I take the Nyquil.
First is that the weekend wasn't the greatest here. A police officer was hit by a car full of teenagers on Fri. night. The kids were coming home from a football game and passed on a double yellow line, going head on with one of our local officers on his way home from work. One of the kids died at the scene. The other 3 were airlifted to a hospital. The officer was flown to a hospital where he was pronounced brain dead on Sat. night, and he died yesterday. It was his 26th birthday when he died. To make it worse he got married 3 weeks ago and just returned to work.
We only have a force of 23 officers including chief. We just lost one of them. We are in a small town so it hit the town hard.
On to my wife. She had her meeting with the store owner today. He said that he could have pressed charges against me for yelling at hot bitch over the phone the other day. Here's the thing though- I was not yelling. My voice was raised but I was not yelling. The other thing is that I was not even talking to hot bitch. I was talking to my wife. But the owner said they are not pressing charges (if they want to fine I don't give a shit anyways. They won't get anywhere with it. We could go back and sue the store for sexual harassment over the "happy ending" incident.) They are putting her back on the schedule. Her boss told her to come back to work tonight. She goes in at 4:30 and is back home by 4:45. They said they don't need her tonight and she needs to start next week when the new schedule comes out. This place is really making me mad.
Lastly is something that has been going on for some time now. I mentioned it to my wife the other night and she said she noticed it but didn't want to say anything. I seem to be getting bored very easy anymore. Nothing seems to be getting my interest up lately. That is part of the reason "I have not been posting lately. I still check out all the blogs in my favorites but thats it. I used to spend hours online. Now it just bores me. TV bores me. There's no good books to read any more. I can't wait till Jean M. Auel gets her next book published. But who knows when that will be.
Well it's time to get medicated. :)
First is that the weekend wasn't the greatest here. A police officer was hit by a car full of teenagers on Fri. night. The kids were coming home from a football game and passed on a double yellow line, going head on with one of our local officers on his way home from work. One of the kids died at the scene. The other 3 were airlifted to a hospital. The officer was flown to a hospital where he was pronounced brain dead on Sat. night, and he died yesterday. It was his 26th birthday when he died. To make it worse he got married 3 weeks ago and just returned to work.
We only have a force of 23 officers including chief. We just lost one of them. We are in a small town so it hit the town hard.
On to my wife. She had her meeting with the store owner today. He said that he could have pressed charges against me for yelling at hot bitch over the phone the other day. Here's the thing though- I was not yelling. My voice was raised but I was not yelling. The other thing is that I was not even talking to hot bitch. I was talking to my wife. But the owner said they are not pressing charges (if they want to fine I don't give a shit anyways. They won't get anywhere with it. We could go back and sue the store for sexual harassment over the "happy ending" incident.) They are putting her back on the schedule. Her boss told her to come back to work tonight. She goes in at 4:30 and is back home by 4:45. They said they don't need her tonight and she needs to start next week when the new schedule comes out. This place is really making me mad.
Lastly is something that has been going on for some time now. I mentioned it to my wife the other night and she said she noticed it but didn't want to say anything. I seem to be getting bored very easy anymore. Nothing seems to be getting my interest up lately. That is part of the reason "I have not been posting lately. I still check out all the blogs in my favorites but thats it. I used to spend hours online. Now it just bores me. TV bores me. There's no good books to read any more. I can't wait till Jean M. Auel gets her next book published. But who knows when that will be.
Well it's time to get medicated. :)
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Un-happy anniversary.
Well exactly one year ago today my wife told me that she wanted to leave me. But since then things are doing better so I'll try to let the past be the past.
As far as the ticking time bomb I posted about in my last post it has stopped ticking. I'm not sure why but it has. I'm pretty confident that we can afford the house payments now. My wife is excited about the upcoming interview also. We believe that she will be getting this job. Here's to hoping.
I really don't have much else to write about so this is going to be it for today. I made up for it on Thu. night though when I made 2 posts in 1 day. So good night. I'm going to cook a late dinner.
As far as the ticking time bomb I posted about in my last post it has stopped ticking. I'm not sure why but it has. I'm pretty confident that we can afford the house payments now. My wife is excited about the upcoming interview also. We believe that she will be getting this job. Here's to hoping.
I really don't have much else to write about so this is going to be it for today. I made up for it on Thu. night though when I made 2 posts in 1 day. So good night. I'm going to cook a late dinner.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
In response to a comment from the other day
Wow. I guess I hit a sweet spot or something on the post 'The most beautiful girl in the world'. I got quite a few comments. VH gave me a comment that said "we would love to hear about the great things you and your wife do...your blog doesn't have to be about the fighting. " I would love to post all of the great things we do. But there isn't much that we do that is a "great" thing. At this moment our lives revolve around our boys. We don't do anything really unless it involves our boys. When we do things with them like when we went to Tahoe I posted about it. If we ever get another weekend alone together I will post about that too. I try not to post that all we do is argue. Here is the main reasons that keep me from posting the good things we do. We don't do much together. Here is our typical day:
6:00 am alarm goes off wife gets out of bed and gets in shower (sometimes this happens at 6:20 depending on snooze button.)
6:36 am I get out of bed, get dressed, make my lunch and leave for work by 6:55. I give my wife a hug and kiss before I leave as she is getting dressed.
6:57am I arrive at work.
3:30 pm I get off work and come home.
3:32 pm I walk in the door. As soon as I get home my wife gets back in the shower to get ready for work.
4:20 pm Wife walks out the door for work.
5:00 pm I start cooking dinner.
~6:00 or 6:30 kids and I eat, and do dishes.
7:30 get shower and put kids in bed by 8:00.
8:oo to 9:30 I watch tv and do most of my blogging.
9:45 My wife comes home from work and by 10:00 we are in bed.
That is our life Mon. to Fri. If she is not at work she is doing a massage if we are lucky. (speaking of which it has been over a month since my last massage :-(. ) Sometimes she don't get home from work till 11:00 because she has a massage appointment at her friends house. They trade babysitting for massages sometimes. The reason that we have our schedules this way is so that one of us will be at home with our boys at all times. We don't want someone else to raise them for us. Nothing against people who work and leave their kids with sitters. My parents did that with my sister and I. It is just a choice that we made when we had kids. Even though that may be the cause of most of our financial problems. Although we believe we would be worse off if my wife was working full time and the kids were at a sitter. Most of her checks would then be paying for a sitter instead of household income.
On weekends we usually sleep in till around 9:00. Then we get up and do housework. That is for Sat. On Sun. we sleep till around 8:30 (More truthfully I wake up earlier on a weekend than during the week. I just lay there holding my wife for a few hours. That is my favorite thing about weekends. Those are the mornings when we usually get our "together" time.) Anyways back to Sun. mornings. I get out of bed and start to cook breakfast while my wife is in the shower. We eat then my wife and kids go to church while I stay home and do laundry and the dishes. When they get home around 12:30 we eat lunch if we are hungry after the big late breakfast. Then we sit around the house asking each other what we want to do the rest of the day, till it's to late to do anything then we eat dinner.
So that is how my average week goes. The thing that truly gets to me is that at this moment in life our lives revolve around our kids. I fear that if we keep this up when the kids move out later in life we will have nothing in common. As it is there are days that we really don't say much to each other besides good morning and good night the way our schedules are.
The other thing is that sometimes I feel that ALL we have in common and the only good thing in our lives is the sex. That hurts me in a way. I know Digger and DH might think I'm crazy but I would be willing to give up on the sex we have just to have a better relationship communication wise. I want so badly to have more than just a physical relationship with my wife.
Well this was supposed to be a short and sweet post, but it got to be longer than I planned. So I'm going to go to bed. Good night.
6:00 am alarm goes off wife gets out of bed and gets in shower (sometimes this happens at 6:20 depending on snooze button.)
6:36 am I get out of bed, get dressed, make my lunch and leave for work by 6:55. I give my wife a hug and kiss before I leave as she is getting dressed.
6:57am I arrive at work.
3:30 pm I get off work and come home.
3:32 pm I walk in the door. As soon as I get home my wife gets back in the shower to get ready for work.
4:20 pm Wife walks out the door for work.
5:00 pm I start cooking dinner.
~6:00 or 6:30 kids and I eat, and do dishes.
7:30 get shower and put kids in bed by 8:00.
8:oo to 9:30 I watch tv and do most of my blogging.
9:45 My wife comes home from work and by 10:00 we are in bed.
That is our life Mon. to Fri. If she is not at work she is doing a massage if we are lucky. (speaking of which it has been over a month since my last massage :-(. ) Sometimes she don't get home from work till 11:00 because she has a massage appointment at her friends house. They trade babysitting for massages sometimes. The reason that we have our schedules this way is so that one of us will be at home with our boys at all times. We don't want someone else to raise them for us. Nothing against people who work and leave their kids with sitters. My parents did that with my sister and I. It is just a choice that we made when we had kids. Even though that may be the cause of most of our financial problems. Although we believe we would be worse off if my wife was working full time and the kids were at a sitter. Most of her checks would then be paying for a sitter instead of household income.
On weekends we usually sleep in till around 9:00. Then we get up and do housework. That is for Sat. On Sun. we sleep till around 8:30 (More truthfully I wake up earlier on a weekend than during the week. I just lay there holding my wife for a few hours. That is my favorite thing about weekends. Those are the mornings when we usually get our "together" time.) Anyways back to Sun. mornings. I get out of bed and start to cook breakfast while my wife is in the shower. We eat then my wife and kids go to church while I stay home and do laundry and the dishes. When they get home around 12:30 we eat lunch if we are hungry after the big late breakfast. Then we sit around the house asking each other what we want to do the rest of the day, till it's to late to do anything then we eat dinner.
So that is how my average week goes. The thing that truly gets to me is that at this moment in life our lives revolve around our kids. I fear that if we keep this up when the kids move out later in life we will have nothing in common. As it is there are days that we really don't say much to each other besides good morning and good night the way our schedules are.
The other thing is that sometimes I feel that ALL we have in common and the only good thing in our lives is the sex. That hurts me in a way. I know Digger and DH might think I'm crazy but I would be willing to give up on the sex we have just to have a better relationship communication wise. I want so badly to have more than just a physical relationship with my wife.
Well this was supposed to be a short and sweet post, but it got to be longer than I planned. So I'm going to go to bed. Good night.
We did it!!!!
Well to start of with I'd like to say that I am now officially a homeowner! My wife and I signed the papers to buy our very first house on Tue. night. We will be receiving our money to pay off all the bills and fix my wife's Explorer by Mon. morning. I'm so happy about being a homeowner. Things didn't start off that well while signing the papers though. The lady we have been dealing with told us that the payments were going to be 1,089.24 a month. That was total payment including taxes and insurance. I thought wow that a lot lower than I expected. Then half way through signing I saw a paper saying that the total payment was going to be 1,309.87. I said hold up here I specifically told you that I can not afford anything over 1,250.00 a month total payment. She says oh I'm sorry I didn't see that. Well isn't that her job to see that stuff? So then I spent the next 30 minutes trying to figure if I can afford to make the higher payment. I can here some of you saying that it's only 59.00 more than you expected. Well that 59.00 is a weeks worth of gas. We are paying 2.75 a gallon for the cheapest station in a 50 mile radius. Most of the stations are more like 2.95 a gallon. Or as high as 3.09 a gallon. Anyways long story short we signed the papers and went out to dinner to celebrate.
Things were not all good though on Tue. Before we left to go to my parents house my wifes work called her up. They said why aren't you at work. She said I'm off tonight. They said no you are on the schedule. So I started in the back ground saying she's not coming in to work we are signing papers tonight. My wife started changing clothes to go to work. I started getting really upset. I told her tell the store go screw themselves buying the house is more important. My wife said without the job there is no house. I said yes there is. I made sure that I could buy the house without you when you were talking about leaving me. I made sure that I could afford the payments on my salary alone so there is a house without that F'ing store. I can't remember what else was said. But she ended up not going to work. That store is getting on my last nerves right now. They changed her dam schedule AFTER it was posted WITHOUT consulting her. So that job can go get fucked.
When we got home from the paper signing there was a message on my machine from a students dad wanting to talk to me about my son and his son in school. He is also my leadworkers son-in-law. And that led to some big problems. But this site is NOT about my kids. I'm just telling you this to give insight on my mood the last 3 days.
Then yesterday she gets a call from my Leadworkers wife (from now on to be called the queen bitch) saying don't bother coming to work the rest of the week. The store's owners son wants to meet with you on Mon. morning. Apparently it was queen bitches daughter (now referred to as hot bitch) on the phone calling my wife to come to work. So hot bitch told queen bitch that
I was yelling at her on the phone. I was not yelling at all. I was not even referring to hot bitch. I was referring to the store in general. So now that we signed the papers on Tue. my wife might be losing her job next Mon. I'm over here worrying if we can make the payments now. When I figured making the payments without my wifes income I was also figuring on not buying food for 4 people to as this was planning for if she left me.
So she told me all of this when I came home from work yesterday. She was asking me how are we going to make it if she loses her job. And then started saying things I couldn't understand through the crying. I told her that you are always telling me that God has a plan for us all. We don't know what his plans are until it is time for us to know. So maybe this is in God's plans and you were meant to lose your job now. Just give it time things will work out. We have money in the savings account (for the first time since we got married) and it is enough to get us by for a few months until the massage business picks up more. In the mean time you can study for the National Exam to get licensed throughout the US. We have enough in savings to pay for the test too so don't worry.
Now here's the hard part- convincing myself. I'm trying to be the strong one here but I'm just as scared as she is. I also feel like a hypocrite for preaching to her but it seemed to help for a while. Then she really started crying saying she misses her mom and wants her back. The good part about that (I feel bad for saying good part here) is that she came to me to have me hold her and comfort her. I"t makes it a lot easier to have her cry when I know it's not because of me and she wants me to hold her. (Did I mention in an earlier post that my wife's mom died 2 years ago?) And that was yesterday. We went out to dinner again. Wow 3 times in a week that's a record for us.
So now I feel like I am a time bomb waiting to explode. With all the bad things and good things and stress. I really need to find a release. Duck season opens on Sat. and that usually is my release but this year I'm just not looking forward to duck hunting. Oh my dad told me yesterday that he is selling all of his duck hunting stuff at his garage sale this weekend and that hurts me too. He said he's not sure if he will hunt much this year or next year because of all the stuff he has planned before he retires in March. God I want a cigarette. And I found 5 of them in my garage a few days ago. They are sitting on my bench calling me but I'm trying to ignore them. I did talk to someone last night and that did help to talk to someone on the outside. I'd like to say Than You for being there for me!
Things were not all good though on Tue. Before we left to go to my parents house my wifes work called her up. They said why aren't you at work. She said I'm off tonight. They said no you are on the schedule. So I started in the back ground saying she's not coming in to work we are signing papers tonight. My wife started changing clothes to go to work. I started getting really upset. I told her tell the store go screw themselves buying the house is more important. My wife said without the job there is no house. I said yes there is. I made sure that I could buy the house without you when you were talking about leaving me. I made sure that I could afford the payments on my salary alone so there is a house without that F'ing store. I can't remember what else was said. But she ended up not going to work. That store is getting on my last nerves right now. They changed her dam schedule AFTER it was posted WITHOUT consulting her. So that job can go get fucked.
When we got home from the paper signing there was a message on my machine from a students dad wanting to talk to me about my son and his son in school. He is also my leadworkers son-in-law. And that led to some big problems. But this site is NOT about my kids. I'm just telling you this to give insight on my mood the last 3 days.
Then yesterday she gets a call from my Leadworkers wife (from now on to be called the queen bitch) saying don't bother coming to work the rest of the week. The store's owners son wants to meet with you on Mon. morning. Apparently it was queen bitches daughter (now referred to as hot bitch) on the phone calling my wife to come to work. So hot bitch told queen bitch that
I was yelling at her on the phone. I was not yelling at all. I was not even referring to hot bitch. I was referring to the store in general. So now that we signed the papers on Tue. my wife might be losing her job next Mon. I'm over here worrying if we can make the payments now. When I figured making the payments without my wifes income I was also figuring on not buying food for 4 people to as this was planning for if she left me.
So she told me all of this when I came home from work yesterday. She was asking me how are we going to make it if she loses her job. And then started saying things I couldn't understand through the crying. I told her that you are always telling me that God has a plan for us all. We don't know what his plans are until it is time for us to know. So maybe this is in God's plans and you were meant to lose your job now. Just give it time things will work out. We have money in the savings account (for the first time since we got married) and it is enough to get us by for a few months until the massage business picks up more. In the mean time you can study for the National Exam to get licensed throughout the US. We have enough in savings to pay for the test too so don't worry.
Now here's the hard part- convincing myself. I'm trying to be the strong one here but I'm just as scared as she is. I also feel like a hypocrite for preaching to her but it seemed to help for a while. Then she really started crying saying she misses her mom and wants her back. The good part about that (I feel bad for saying good part here) is that she came to me to have me hold her and comfort her. I"t makes it a lot easier to have her cry when I know it's not because of me and she wants me to hold her. (Did I mention in an earlier post that my wife's mom died 2 years ago?) And that was yesterday. We went out to dinner again. Wow 3 times in a week that's a record for us.
So now I feel like I am a time bomb waiting to explode. With all the bad things and good things and stress. I really need to find a release. Duck season opens on Sat. and that usually is my release but this year I'm just not looking forward to duck hunting. Oh my dad told me yesterday that he is selling all of his duck hunting stuff at his garage sale this weekend and that hurts me too. He said he's not sure if he will hunt much this year or next year because of all the stuff he has planned before he retires in March. God I want a cigarette. And I found 5 of them in my garage a few days ago. They are sitting on my bench calling me but I'm trying to ignore them. I did talk to someone last night and that did help to talk to someone on the outside. I'd like to say Than You for being there for me!
Sunday, October 16, 2005
The most beautiful girl in the world
Have any of you ever heard the song "The most beautiful girl in the world"? After the kids went to bed tonight I decided to help my wife with the dishes. So while we are doing dishes I grabbed her from behind and started to sing that song. Well what do you know. It pissed her off. She got mad at me saying that she is NOT the most beautiful girl in the world. And she wants to know why I keep making up these stupid names for her. For the record I do not make up stupid names for her. I call her pretty, sexy woman, beautiful, or anything that would indicate that she is beautiful.
I just don't get it. I'm not lying when I tell her this stuff. That is the way that I truly feel about her. There are reasons that I feel that way too. Everything about her is beautiful. Her lips, her eyes, her stomach (that is what I love the most about her. Especially her belly button ring. That is a huge turn on for me a pierced navel). I also love the way that she wears absolutely no make up. With all the women on earth that she thinks looks better than her you aren't seeing the real them. You are seeing the made up them. With my wife you are seeing the real her. I'm not trying to say anything bad about those women who do wear make up. It's just not my thing.
I know it's not much of a post but to tell you the truth Now that my wife and I aren't fighting all the time anymore there just isn't much to talk about. I really want to keep my kids out of this Blog. So that doesn't leave much else to write about. I'm not going to take the site down as I like to post here. I just need to try to find a new direction to take this. Or just not try to post such long posts.
I just don't get it. I'm not lying when I tell her this stuff. That is the way that I truly feel about her. There are reasons that I feel that way too. Everything about her is beautiful. Her lips, her eyes, her stomach (that is what I love the most about her. Especially her belly button ring. That is a huge turn on for me a pierced navel). I also love the way that she wears absolutely no make up. With all the women on earth that she thinks looks better than her you aren't seeing the real them. You are seeing the made up them. With my wife you are seeing the real her. I'm not trying to say anything bad about those women who do wear make up. It's just not my thing.
I know it's not much of a post but to tell you the truth Now that my wife and I aren't fighting all the time anymore there just isn't much to talk about. I really want to keep my kids out of this Blog. So that doesn't leave much else to write about. I'm not going to take the site down as I like to post here. I just need to try to find a new direction to take this. Or just not try to post such long posts.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Yesterdays Roller Coaster Ride
Yesterday was full of emotional ups and downs. I started off ok. Then my Overtime check came in. With 5 hours I hadn't counted on. Things were looking up. Then my wife called me around 10 and said she might get fired. Uh-Oh. Things are going down. As the conversation went on things got worse. I'd like to say that it's a good thing my wife don't have my temper or she would definitely not have a job. Her boss screwed up her schedule when I was on vacation. She requested to work Mon. Wed. and Fri. from 12:30 to 6:00. She had a sitter arranged for the kids from that time. Instead they schedule her for her regular hours of 4:30 to 9:30. Not a big deal we still had a sitter. Then on Sat. they called her and told her they need her to work for someone who called in sick due to Homecoming. So she said ok and worked from 1:00 to 9:30 on her day off. My mom watched the kids. (side note: The dam kid new about Homecoming MONTHS ago. He did NOT request it off. Instead he calls in sick so he can go to the dance. I would have fired his High School lazy ASS!!!!(There goes my temper again)).
Then the problem started. They put her to work in the days this week. Mon. was ok I was home from work as it was a state holiday. Then her relief person comes in and has a dislocated shoulder. So they ask her to work till closing time. She says fine. She worked 12:30 to 9:30. Then they schedule her to work on Tue. She NEVER works on Tue. So that is the day I call in sick. She works from 12:30 to 6:00. Then had 2 massages at 6:30.
So now that brings us to yesterday. She calls up and tells them that she don't have a babysitter for the kids. They want her to work from 12:30 to 6:00. She has 3 supervisors say thats ok. You can come in from 4:30 to 9:30 like normal. But no! My bosses wife says "I already have a closer. If you can't come in at 12:30 to 6:00 we will have to fire you." After all the shit she did for them. She has worked there for 4 years and only called in sick 2 times, and both times had a Dr. note. EVERY time they ask her to come in on a day off she does. She has bent over backwards for this dam store. So when she called and told me what they said I instantly went into attack mode. (I only have 2 modes with my temper. It's either ON or OFF. Thats why we have had problems in our marriage.) I told her to tell her boss to go Fuck herself (in front of MY boss as he was standing next to me and at first we were on speaker phone). They screwed up the schedule. You don't need to work for them anymore. Tell her and everyone else there to go fuck themselves. In fact I'll go and tell them myself (I would have to. At that point I didn't care.). She said no she will try to find a babysitter first. So she calls back 30 minutes later and says she has a babysitter for the boys and by-the-way they want her to work the same schedule today. So that means babysitter this afternoon too.
That is the thing that really pisses me off. We work our schedules so that both of us can work and still have at least one of us at home with the boys all the time. So now we have to pay for a G%^ D%^&M babysitter. It cost us $50.00 for the past 2 days of babysitting. She only made $67.00 working both days. Now don't get me wrong here. I'm not trying to put down the money that my wife makes. If it weren't for the money she makes we would be bouncing checks every month. It is just that when she makes 67 bucks (pre tax) and we have to pay 50 bucks for childcare we lose money, so what is the point of her working? But at least she still has her job. Good thing she thinks before she acts. I really need to learn how to do that.
So things are looking better her work thing is figured out. I'm now just stewing over it. When I came back to the yard at the end of the day things were EXCELLENT! We received checks that the union told us we would get a year ago but never did. We thought it was the union blowing smoke up our asses. Then it came. 1 years worth of back pay for the money the state was taking out of our checks for medical. I got 1100 yesterday. Of course Uncle Sam and the Governator took there fair share. I took home $800. That is on top of the OT check from the morning. So I was on cloud 9 so to speak. I called my wife at work and told her about the money and asked her if she wanted to go out to dinner. She said it sounds ok, we'll figure out where when I get home this evening. Things were really good now.
When she got home last night the boys and I were all dressed and ready to go. She still needed a shower so the youngest and I went to the store to buy some flowers for her. We got 2 bunches of flowers and a card for her and gave them to her when she got out of the shower. Then things went down hill again.
My wife was happy about the flowers, but I could tell something was wrong. So I asked her about it. She didn't feel like going out because there was too much to do at home. We went back and forth for a few minutes and I said if you want to go out with the boys and me come out when you get dressed, I'll be on the computer. I came to the living room and felt like breaking down but couldn't. My stomach was all knotted up, My throat was tight and I could feel the moment of needing to cry but it never came.
She did come out and we went to a nice restaurant in town. It was actually a nice evening. Our youngest actually behaved himself. No screaming, running, climbing on tables etc. (Yes my son is the one that all the other people complain about.) Hence the reason that we DO NOT go out to dinner very often. In fact the last time was when we were in Tahoe. The time before that was about a year ago. But last night he was great. Until dinner was done. Then he wanted to go see the water. So we missed out on dessert so he could see the water on the balcony of the restaurant. The dinner was nice. I actually ordered drinks for myself and a virgin daquerie for my wife, appetizer, and didn't worry about how much the food cost. I am never like that. We always drink water cause it's free, and never get appetizers. We went home after dinner and went to bed as it was late. That was it.
This morning when I woke up my wife was in the shower so I stayed in bed till she got out. She came over and sat next to me as she finished drying off. I was in my normal physical state when she sat there naked so I sat on the edge of the bed and pulled her over to sit on my lap facing me. She said you're going to be late and I just got out of the shower. I said I don't want to make love to you. I just want to feel you. So she lowered herself onto me and we just sat there for a few minutes not moving and just holding each other. It was .......well...... wonderful! Just feeling her without making love. I got up and went to work. This was the best work day I've had in a long time.
My wife will kill me if she reads this post.
Then the problem started. They put her to work in the days this week. Mon. was ok I was home from work as it was a state holiday. Then her relief person comes in and has a dislocated shoulder. So they ask her to work till closing time. She says fine. She worked 12:30 to 9:30. Then they schedule her to work on Tue. She NEVER works on Tue. So that is the day I call in sick. She works from 12:30 to 6:00. Then had 2 massages at 6:30.
So now that brings us to yesterday. She calls up and tells them that she don't have a babysitter for the kids. They want her to work from 12:30 to 6:00. She has 3 supervisors say thats ok. You can come in from 4:30 to 9:30 like normal. But no! My bosses wife says "I already have a closer. If you can't come in at 12:30 to 6:00 we will have to fire you." After all the shit she did for them. She has worked there for 4 years and only called in sick 2 times, and both times had a Dr. note. EVERY time they ask her to come in on a day off she does. She has bent over backwards for this dam store. So when she called and told me what they said I instantly went into attack mode. (I only have 2 modes with my temper. It's either ON or OFF. Thats why we have had problems in our marriage.) I told her to tell her boss to go Fuck herself (in front of MY boss as he was standing next to me and at first we were on speaker phone). They screwed up the schedule. You don't need to work for them anymore. Tell her and everyone else there to go fuck themselves. In fact I'll go and tell them myself (I would have to. At that point I didn't care.). She said no she will try to find a babysitter first. So she calls back 30 minutes later and says she has a babysitter for the boys and by-the-way they want her to work the same schedule today. So that means babysitter this afternoon too.
That is the thing that really pisses me off. We work our schedules so that both of us can work and still have at least one of us at home with the boys all the time. So now we have to pay for a G%^ D%^&M babysitter. It cost us $50.00 for the past 2 days of babysitting. She only made $67.00 working both days. Now don't get me wrong here. I'm not trying to put down the money that my wife makes. If it weren't for the money she makes we would be bouncing checks every month. It is just that when she makes 67 bucks (pre tax) and we have to pay 50 bucks for childcare we lose money, so what is the point of her working? But at least she still has her job. Good thing she thinks before she acts. I really need to learn how to do that.
So things are looking better her work thing is figured out. I'm now just stewing over it. When I came back to the yard at the end of the day things were EXCELLENT! We received checks that the union told us we would get a year ago but never did. We thought it was the union blowing smoke up our asses. Then it came. 1 years worth of back pay for the money the state was taking out of our checks for medical. I got 1100 yesterday. Of course Uncle Sam and the Governator took there fair share. I took home $800. That is on top of the OT check from the morning. So I was on cloud 9 so to speak. I called my wife at work and told her about the money and asked her if she wanted to go out to dinner. She said it sounds ok, we'll figure out where when I get home this evening. Things were really good now.
When she got home last night the boys and I were all dressed and ready to go. She still needed a shower so the youngest and I went to the store to buy some flowers for her. We got 2 bunches of flowers and a card for her and gave them to her when she got out of the shower. Then things went down hill again.
My wife was happy about the flowers, but I could tell something was wrong. So I asked her about it. She didn't feel like going out because there was too much to do at home. We went back and forth for a few minutes and I said if you want to go out with the boys and me come out when you get dressed, I'll be on the computer. I came to the living room and felt like breaking down but couldn't. My stomach was all knotted up, My throat was tight and I could feel the moment of needing to cry but it never came.
She did come out and we went to a nice restaurant in town. It was actually a nice evening. Our youngest actually behaved himself. No screaming, running, climbing on tables etc. (Yes my son is the one that all the other people complain about.) Hence the reason that we DO NOT go out to dinner very often. In fact the last time was when we were in Tahoe. The time before that was about a year ago. But last night he was great. Until dinner was done. Then he wanted to go see the water. So we missed out on dessert so he could see the water on the balcony of the restaurant. The dinner was nice. I actually ordered drinks for myself and a virgin daquerie for my wife, appetizer, and didn't worry about how much the food cost. I am never like that. We always drink water cause it's free, and never get appetizers. We went home after dinner and went to bed as it was late. That was it.
This morning when I woke up my wife was in the shower so I stayed in bed till she got out. She came over and sat next to me as she finished drying off. I was in my normal physical state when she sat there naked so I sat on the edge of the bed and pulled her over to sit on my lap facing me. She said you're going to be late and I just got out of the shower. I said I don't want to make love to you. I just want to feel you. So she lowered herself onto me and we just sat there for a few minutes not moving and just holding each other. It was .......well...... wonderful! Just feeling her without making love. I got up and went to work. This was the best work day I've had in a long time.
My wife will kill me if she reads this post.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
She's in heat!
No not my wife. What are you people thinking? My wifes cat. She's about 7 months old and came into heat when I was gone. She now won't let me out of her sight. She follows me every where and when I stop moving she is rubbing up against me and sticking her ass in the air. If only my wife would give me that kind of attention. ;) My wife says that I am making things worse. I am constantly meowing to the cat when she is following me. So I called some vets today. Holy shit! They want between 95 and 130 dollars to get her fixed. It needs to be done but I had no idea it would be that expensive. I wonder if I can do it myself? Just kidding. My wife already got mad at me for suggesting that this morning.
My wife just read over my shoulder and started laughing. She said that will never happen. I said what. She said me giving you that kind of attention. Oh well. A guy can dream.
My wife just read over my shoulder and started laughing. She said that will never happen. I said what. She said me giving you that kind of attention. Oh well. A guy can dream.
Just another day
Well I did it. I called in with the flu this morning. It was actually a good thing too. Apparently the dryer went out when I was gone. It was squeaking really loud. Loud enough for the neighbor to complain about the noise. I took it apart and assumed that the problem was the belt. But you know what they say happens when you assume. So I drove into town to get a new belt. When I got to the appliance store they said that the belt was fine and that the bearings were worn out. I thought ok. You can tell this without even looking at the machine. But I didn't drive 40 miles round trip to come home empty handed. So I bought the parts. $50.00 When I came home I took the dryer apart even more. Well what do you know. The bearings were shot. I put it back together and no squeak. I'm just a regular repair man now. If it's broke I can fix anything! Except the problems with that dam Exploder.
Other than that the day was pretty dam boring. My wife worked and then after work she had 2 massages. She got home about 30 minutes ago. We are still waiting to sign papers on the house. I'm getting tired of waiting. We were supposed to sign the papers the day I came home from vacation. Now we have to wait till Fri. I want to be a home owner.
Other than that the day was pretty dam boring. My wife worked and then after work she had 2 massages. She got home about 30 minutes ago. We are still waiting to sign papers on the house. I'm getting tired of waiting. We were supposed to sign the papers the day I came home from vacation. Now we have to wait till Fri. I want to be a home owner.
Monday, October 10, 2005
I'm back!
Well I finally came home yesterday. It was a good vacation. But it was also a long vacation. I couldn't wait to get back home. My dad and I hunted deer from Sun. morning till Fri. morning. We saw 1 buck the whole trip on the first hunt day. It just finished snowing on the mountain next to us so I was taking pictures of the first snow. We drove 50 yards and there was a forked horn buck standing 40 feet from the truck. By the time I recognized it as a legal deer he jumped over the brush to never be seen again. We did see on average 15 does a day. Most of them we could set our watches by them. They were in the same place at the same time every day. It was cold on the mountain we were hunting for the first few days. We were waking up and it was 36 degrees in the tent. By Tue. it was warming up to being 42 when we woke up. We went into town on Tue. to take showers. It cost $5.00 for the shower but it was the best 5 bucks I ever spent.
On Fri. we drove over to Tule Lake for the opener of goose season. The first goose hunt of the season was simply amazing. My dad got a bird with the first shot of the season. That's the first time I've ever seen him do that. He got a Speckle Belly. He also got the next bird a Canada goose. That thing was HUGE! So he limited out on dark geese in 1 hour. While me I missed on my first 3 shots of the day. Finally I got my bird. I shot my first Canadian Honker. I've waited my whole life to get one of those birds. That one bird will feed my family at least 2 meals. Plus my dad gave me his birds too. That was it for the day. We left with 2 birds. We passed on a lot of ducks but I didn't travel 380 miles for ducks. I can shoot ducks all season long here on the delta. But we don't get many Honkers here. Sun. we only hunted for 1.5 hours and we packed up. We had been gone for along time and had a 7 hour drive to get home.
The trip was great as I've already said. The only part that I wasn't to crazy about was listening to counrty music the whole time. But now as I'm typing I've got the radio on to country music and my wife isn't even home. Some of the songs are really good at explaining things I want to say. Others are good at explaining my wifes point of view. There was even one song that made me get to the point where I was ready to cry. Don't know who sings it but it is about a girl who has cancer and loses her hair before prom and her date shaved his head. It's called some thing like 'Sabath is scared today' or something like that. If I can find the video's to some of them I might post them on the site. Not sure yet though.
So I got to my house at 6 last night. My wife had dinner ready when I got home. God I love that woman. I unpacked after dinner showed the kids the pictures I took while on the trip and went to bed about 10:30. Of course we didn't get to sleep till after 1 in the morning. We had the most amazing session of making love that we have had in a long time. The best thing was that even after not touching each other in 9 days we went real slow. When we finally released I couldn't tell you when I came that hard before. Except possibly when I came home from Basic Training.
This morning she let me sleep till 9, and when I woke up she had gone to the store and bought some donughts for breakfast and gave me a glass of OJ. She is even asking me to stay home from work tomorrow. So I think that I feel a case of the flu coming on. *cough cough*. Other than that nothing much is happening. It's good to be home. Just wish the kids would stop yelling at each other.
My wife said she didn't really miss me to much. She says she even sleeps better without me. I guess it is a lot quieter without me snoring. Although I don't think I could be worse than my dad. WOW! In a tent thats just to much. I don't know how my mom does it. Well whether she missed me or not if she wants me home tommorow I won't let her down. She wants me home 2 days in a row. It's amazing.
On Fri. we drove over to Tule Lake for the opener of goose season. The first goose hunt of the season was simply amazing. My dad got a bird with the first shot of the season. That's the first time I've ever seen him do that. He got a Speckle Belly. He also got the next bird a Canada goose. That thing was HUGE! So he limited out on dark geese in 1 hour. While me I missed on my first 3 shots of the day. Finally I got my bird. I shot my first Canadian Honker. I've waited my whole life to get one of those birds. That one bird will feed my family at least 2 meals. Plus my dad gave me his birds too. That was it for the day. We left with 2 birds. We passed on a lot of ducks but I didn't travel 380 miles for ducks. I can shoot ducks all season long here on the delta. But we don't get many Honkers here. Sun. we only hunted for 1.5 hours and we packed up. We had been gone for along time and had a 7 hour drive to get home.
The trip was great as I've already said. The only part that I wasn't to crazy about was listening to counrty music the whole time. But now as I'm typing I've got the radio on to country music and my wife isn't even home. Some of the songs are really good at explaining things I want to say. Others are good at explaining my wifes point of view. There was even one song that made me get to the point where I was ready to cry. Don't know who sings it but it is about a girl who has cancer and loses her hair before prom and her date shaved his head. It's called some thing like 'Sabath is scared today' or something like that. If I can find the video's to some of them I might post them on the site. Not sure yet though.
So I got to my house at 6 last night. My wife had dinner ready when I got home. God I love that woman. I unpacked after dinner showed the kids the pictures I took while on the trip and went to bed about 10:30. Of course we didn't get to sleep till after 1 in the morning. We had the most amazing session of making love that we have had in a long time. The best thing was that even after not touching each other in 9 days we went real slow. When we finally released I couldn't tell you when I came that hard before. Except possibly when I came home from Basic Training.
This morning she let me sleep till 9, and when I woke up she had gone to the store and bought some donughts for breakfast and gave me a glass of OJ. She is even asking me to stay home from work tomorrow. So I think that I feel a case of the flu coming on. *cough cough*. Other than that nothing much is happening. It's good to be home. Just wish the kids would stop yelling at each other.
My wife said she didn't really miss me to much. She says she even sleeps better without me. I guess it is a lot quieter without me snoring. Although I don't think I could be worse than my dad. WOW! In a tent thats just to much. I don't know how my mom does it. Well whether she missed me or not if she wants me home tommorow I won't let her down. She wants me home 2 days in a row. It's amazing.
Friday, September 30, 2005
Farewell! :)
Well it is time to bid you all farewell. At least for the next 8 days. I am leaving in the morning for my trip with my dad. Just got the final things packed. I will not be back until Oct. 9th. My wife can not wait till I leave. She says that she will be able to sleep much better without me here snoring. I guess I need to give my CPAP machine another try when I return. I'm so excited to leave and be alone in the wilderness. We will be hunting about 1.5 hours away from civilization on the Oregon border. The only down side is the 13 hour drive there. That and I don't know if I can go 8 days without checking email and my online reading. See you in 8 days!
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Unsolicited advice
Digger made a few comments on his site about my financial situation. Just thought I'd share my response to him. It may help somone. Here is the original post from Digger on debt and here is my response
Wow you said a lot there. You pretty much have it right about what we are doing. Here's the whole plan.
My parents own the house we are buying. We have been living in it for 5 years. The house appraises for 389k. We are buying it for 270k. My parents are taking 100k for themselves. That is the price we are buying it from my parents for. Because we are buying the houde with 120k in equity my wife and I are getting 25k back at the close of escrow. We are using that money to pay off our credit card, my student loan, and my wifes Exploder. We will have approx. 3k left over. We were going to use that to do some needed repairs to the house. Now we are going to use that left over cash to repair the Exploder and hope that it lasts us another 2 years. Then we will probably be buying a coworkers mini van to use as a backup incase the Exploder explodes.
Now the reason we are paying all these things off with the equity in the house is because we can not afford the payments if we still have those bills. It really has nothing to do with taxes.
Now for the details of how we are buying the house. Just incase someone out there is in the same situation. We will be actully refinancing the house. My parents are refinancing the house and putting my wife and I on the deed. In a year from now we will refinance again and take my parents off the deed. Then to keep from paying a huge gift tax on the house for my wife and my parts, and on my parents part for the 100k, we will fill out a special tax form that says that the house will be coming off of my inheritance. Therefore making it taxfree. We are getting a portion of my inheritance before my parents die. This info came from a tax person in S.F. EACH parent can give EACH child a tax free inheritance of 3 mil. The house will just come off of my 3mil.
To me this seems to be the best way to do this given our financial situation. Untill the Governator decides to give state workers their first cost of living raise in over 9 years.
CH
If you can't tell I'm in no way a fan Arnold. Can't stand him. He's trying to cut my wages and give state workers 5 days off per year UNPAID! Fuck you governator!
Wow you said a lot there. You pretty much have it right about what we are doing. Here's the whole plan.
My parents own the house we are buying. We have been living in it for 5 years. The house appraises for 389k. We are buying it for 270k. My parents are taking 100k for themselves. That is the price we are buying it from my parents for. Because we are buying the houde with 120k in equity my wife and I are getting 25k back at the close of escrow. We are using that money to pay off our credit card, my student loan, and my wifes Exploder. We will have approx. 3k left over. We were going to use that to do some needed repairs to the house. Now we are going to use that left over cash to repair the Exploder and hope that it lasts us another 2 years. Then we will probably be buying a coworkers mini van to use as a backup incase the Exploder explodes.
Now the reason we are paying all these things off with the equity in the house is because we can not afford the payments if we still have those bills. It really has nothing to do with taxes.
Now for the details of how we are buying the house. Just incase someone out there is in the same situation. We will be actully refinancing the house. My parents are refinancing the house and putting my wife and I on the deed. In a year from now we will refinance again and take my parents off the deed. Then to keep from paying a huge gift tax on the house for my wife and my parts, and on my parents part for the 100k, we will fill out a special tax form that says that the house will be coming off of my inheritance. Therefore making it taxfree. We are getting a portion of my inheritance before my parents die. This info came from a tax person in S.F. EACH parent can give EACH child a tax free inheritance of 3 mil. The house will just come off of my 3mil.
To me this seems to be the best way to do this given our financial situation. Untill the Governator decides to give state workers their first cost of living raise in over 9 years.
CH
If you can't tell I'm in no way a fan Arnold. Can't stand him. He's trying to cut my wages and give state workers 5 days off per year UNPAID! Fuck you governator!
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
And it's a new day
So after I was done posting last night I gave my wife a hot bath. Lit some candles, and let her soak for awhile. While she was soaking I put a towel in the dryer to heat it up. I went back to the bathroom and washed my wife off and let her soak more while I got the towel from the garage. I dried her off and laid her in bed and gave her a back massage. She was so emotionally drained from the day. We both were. So we went to sleep just holding each other. I love moments like that.
So today I was at work and a guy I work with says his kid that is getting divorced is selling a mini van for 1500. Talked to my wife about it and she got mad at me because 1) its a Ford and she hates Ford (her uncle retired from Chevy, mine retired from Ford.) & 2) she hates mini vans. Again I told her we are not in a position to be picky. She started yelling at me so I hung up on her. I sent her a text to call me when she's wants to talk not yell. She called back 5 minutes later and she still was not happy but at least she was not yelling. Side note here for years I have yelled at her for things like she is yelling at me for. I'm trying to get to a point now where we can talk to each other without turning things into a yelling and pissing match. God I hate the things I've done to her in the past. So when I came home after work she was singing a different tune. She said that she would be willing to look at the mini van because of what a friend told her. Her friend said she had a dream 2 months ago that my wife would be driving a mini van soon. Not that I believe in that sort of thing but it made my wife happy about at least looking at it so I'll go for it.
It's not like I am going to buy the van anyways. I'm just going to look at it. I'm thinking now that I might fix the Explorer for the 1500, and hope we can make it last for the next 18 months or so till we can be picky about what we drive. Also if we have money left over buy the mini van to keep as a back up vehicle if something happens to the Eploder.
I just hope that I'm making the right decision to fix this car instead of get rid of it. I don't like the idea of paying it off for 6000 then trade it in for 2500 or less. Thats just to much of a loss. Though its not like we haven't already lost enough money to this P.O.S. I can't wait for Sat. morning to go on vacation.
So today I was at work and a guy I work with says his kid that is getting divorced is selling a mini van for 1500. Talked to my wife about it and she got mad at me because 1) its a Ford and she hates Ford (her uncle retired from Chevy, mine retired from Ford.) & 2) she hates mini vans. Again I told her we are not in a position to be picky. She started yelling at me so I hung up on her. I sent her a text to call me when she's wants to talk not yell. She called back 5 minutes later and she still was not happy but at least she was not yelling. Side note here for years I have yelled at her for things like she is yelling at me for. I'm trying to get to a point now where we can talk to each other without turning things into a yelling and pissing match. God I hate the things I've done to her in the past. So when I came home after work she was singing a different tune. She said that she would be willing to look at the mini van because of what a friend told her. Her friend said she had a dream 2 months ago that my wife would be driving a mini van soon. Not that I believe in that sort of thing but it made my wife happy about at least looking at it so I'll go for it.
It's not like I am going to buy the van anyways. I'm just going to look at it. I'm thinking now that I might fix the Explorer for the 1500, and hope we can make it last for the next 18 months or so till we can be picky about what we drive. Also if we have money left over buy the mini van to keep as a back up vehicle if something happens to the Eploder.
I just hope that I'm making the right decision to fix this car instead of get rid of it. I don't like the idea of paying it off for 6000 then trade it in for 2500 or less. Thats just to much of a loss. Though its not like we haven't already lost enough money to this P.O.S. I can't wait for Sat. morning to go on vacation.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
The shit keeps piling up
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Be forewarned that I am very pissed at the moment so there will be an overabundance of "F" bombs in this post. If this type of language offends you I'll pretend to be sorry. But right now I'm in to bad of a mood to give a Fuck!!!!!
So this turned out to be a really fucked up day. When I changed the oil in my wifes Explorer on Sun. I noticed antifreeze all over the underside of the engine. I thought well ok, it's probably just a worn out freeze plug. So I had my wife take her truck to the shop this morning. She calls me up crying so bad that I can barely understand what she is saying. It turns out that what I thought was a minor problem turned into a major fucking money dump. It has a blown head gasket, a hole in the radiator, and a pinhole leak in 2 different radiator hoses.
(Will this fucking day ever end. I started this at about 6pm. It is now 8pm. I stopped for dinner and dishes. It just keeps going just like the Energizer Bunny.)
So I get the info from her and ask how much it will cost. She says she will call back when they get an estimate. Now I'm going to say this now- I trust my mechanic very much. We have been going to him for almost 4 years now. He is a good guy and has been trying to get us to sell this vehicle for 3 years now. He treats us very good. He gives us all the parts we buy at his cost. No mark up. If a job takes 6 hours to do he only charges 3.5-4 hours. Every time I go to him I bring him a 36 pack of beer when the job is done. He has even offered to take me fishing on his boat. (he should do that I helped him buy the boat with all the business I send him through my cars and friends that I send his way).
Anyways she calls me back 45 minutes later and I can't understand a single word she is saying. Finally she just tells me to go to the shop after work. That gets me all worked up. Not angry but worried. So by the time I came back to my yard at lunch time I was not in a good mood. So my Leadworker starts telling me stuff that my supervisor has said during the day before he left early to go home. He really got me pissed. I had an idea yesterday and my boss turned it down for no reason. It would have made our job easier. He said no. So today he tells us to do what I suggested yesterday but in a different way. I wanted to take some stuff out of a dump truck by dumping it into the bucket of a front end loader. Then dump the bucket into the dumpster. He said NO! Today he tells us to take the stuff from the dumptruck and put it into the dumpster by using shovels. It will save time he says. Oh My Fucking God! My way would have taken 3 minutes tops. He wants us to shovel this stuff out by hand. Taking roughly 30 minutes. I told my leadworker that my boss was smoking crack and he needed to go fuck himself. To which he replied you can't say stuff like that around me (Because technically he needs to report me for it as workplace violence. Not because he agrees with the boss which he don't). I said watch me J____ is on crack and needs to go fuck himself. Nothing came out of it. The job did not get done as my leadworker made up another job for us instead.
So I got off work and went to the shop. I was told that I really need to sell that vehicle now. As a rough estimate it will cost between 1500 and 2000. That is without reworking the heads. If they are warped it will go up more. I just love how dependent we have become on cars now.
After leaving the shop I come home and my wife is apologizing to me like she did something wrong. (she still is and I don't know why). I told her its not her fault. The truck is just a piece of shit. We bought it in July of 2001. In Dec we put a new tranny in it for 3000. 1 year later the heater core goes out. 700. 6 months later the head gasket goes out. 900. 1 year later the other tranny goes out. Another 3000. Then last summer we had starting problems the whole summer. The shop worked on it all summer but could not find the problem. Didn't charge us for any of the work. the whole summer until they were sure it was fixed. Finally they found the problem. The Anti-theft relay was bad. It would cost 700 to replace it or they would bypass it for a case of beer. They were trying to diagnose the problem for over 80 hours and only charged me a case of beer. The problem would go away as soon as we would get it to the shop. And stay away for 2 weeks at a time. Finally the shop would start coming to us where ever we were broke down at. That's how they found the problem.
Any how I went to the chevy dealer in town to talk to them. Unfortunately my wife talked to a friend that works there and told them the problem with the vehicle. Good Bye trade in. So I'm went to the Dodge dealer and talked to him. I went out with the sole purpose of getting options. Nothing more. I came home talked to my wife and she got pissed at me because she hates Dodge. I told her that we are NOT in a position to be picky. We need to take what we can get. They have a Neon that is 1 year old with 10k miles on it that we might be able to afford. But I was just getting options. She then got upset with me about the fact that she only wants to look at Chevy's or Saturns. Again I told her that we aren't in a position to be choosey. She went on more about the issue so I told her I needed to walk away. We were both getting angry and I didn't want to fight. So I went to my comfort zone. The Blogs.
After dinner we talked a little more but the kids kept interrupting. She is still crying and is very upset. I'm feeling like failure for not being able to keep us in a situation where we have a decent car. To top it all off we can't afford to fix the car. And we can't afford to buy a new one. The Explorer will be paid off as soon as we sign papers on the house. (that's another thing. I called the lady we have been dealing with today to see how the loan is coming along. She said that the lending company is behind on the paper work and it will be at least another week. It has already been 2 weeks since the lender received the papers from us. So my dad wants me to call the lady and get the appraisal from her and tell her that if we don't have papers to sign by Fri. night we will find someone else. I feel wrong for doing that so I haven't done it yet.) Back to the car. We will be paying it off when we buy the house. When we close escrow my wife and I will receive a check for 25000 to pay off student loans, credit cards, and the Explorer. With maybe 1000 left over. We are paying all this off just so we can manage to make the house payments. Where did I go wrong? Actually I think I have a problem that I read about on Space of Dysfunction. We tried to keep up with the Jones's and we have been living outside our means for years and it is starting to bite us in the ass now.
So that is my fucked up day. I'm still pissed at the way things are going in life. I'm waiting for my wife to get our youngest to sleep and I'm going to put her in the bath tub. And taking some advice from Venting Houswife I'm going to put some candles around the tub, let my wife soak for a while then I'm going to wash her off and got to bed. Unfortunately we have no bubble bath for her soak in. I just want this day to end.
Be forewarned that I am very pissed at the moment so there will be an overabundance of "F" bombs in this post. If this type of language offends you I'll pretend to be sorry. But right now I'm in to bad of a mood to give a Fuck!!!!!
So this turned out to be a really fucked up day. When I changed the oil in my wifes Explorer on Sun. I noticed antifreeze all over the underside of the engine. I thought well ok, it's probably just a worn out freeze plug. So I had my wife take her truck to the shop this morning. She calls me up crying so bad that I can barely understand what she is saying. It turns out that what I thought was a minor problem turned into a major fucking money dump. It has a blown head gasket, a hole in the radiator, and a pinhole leak in 2 different radiator hoses.
(Will this fucking day ever end. I started this at about 6pm. It is now 8pm. I stopped for dinner and dishes. It just keeps going just like the Energizer Bunny.)
So I get the info from her and ask how much it will cost. She says she will call back when they get an estimate. Now I'm going to say this now- I trust my mechanic very much. We have been going to him for almost 4 years now. He is a good guy and has been trying to get us to sell this vehicle for 3 years now. He treats us very good. He gives us all the parts we buy at his cost. No mark up. If a job takes 6 hours to do he only charges 3.5-4 hours. Every time I go to him I bring him a 36 pack of beer when the job is done. He has even offered to take me fishing on his boat. (he should do that I helped him buy the boat with all the business I send him through my cars and friends that I send his way).
Anyways she calls me back 45 minutes later and I can't understand a single word she is saying. Finally she just tells me to go to the shop after work. That gets me all worked up. Not angry but worried. So by the time I came back to my yard at lunch time I was not in a good mood. So my Leadworker starts telling me stuff that my supervisor has said during the day before he left early to go home. He really got me pissed. I had an idea yesterday and my boss turned it down for no reason. It would have made our job easier. He said no. So today he tells us to do what I suggested yesterday but in a different way. I wanted to take some stuff out of a dump truck by dumping it into the bucket of a front end loader. Then dump the bucket into the dumpster. He said NO! Today he tells us to take the stuff from the dumptruck and put it into the dumpster by using shovels. It will save time he says. Oh My Fucking God! My way would have taken 3 minutes tops. He wants us to shovel this stuff out by hand. Taking roughly 30 minutes. I told my leadworker that my boss was smoking crack and he needed to go fuck himself. To which he replied you can't say stuff like that around me (Because technically he needs to report me for it as workplace violence. Not because he agrees with the boss which he don't). I said watch me J____ is on crack and needs to go fuck himself. Nothing came out of it. The job did not get done as my leadworker made up another job for us instead.
So I got off work and went to the shop. I was told that I really need to sell that vehicle now. As a rough estimate it will cost between 1500 and 2000. That is without reworking the heads. If they are warped it will go up more. I just love how dependent we have become on cars now.
After leaving the shop I come home and my wife is apologizing to me like she did something wrong. (she still is and I don't know why). I told her its not her fault. The truck is just a piece of shit. We bought it in July of 2001. In Dec we put a new tranny in it for 3000. 1 year later the heater core goes out. 700. 6 months later the head gasket goes out. 900. 1 year later the other tranny goes out. Another 3000. Then last summer we had starting problems the whole summer. The shop worked on it all summer but could not find the problem. Didn't charge us for any of the work. the whole summer until they were sure it was fixed. Finally they found the problem. The Anti-theft relay was bad. It would cost 700 to replace it or they would bypass it for a case of beer. They were trying to diagnose the problem for over 80 hours and only charged me a case of beer. The problem would go away as soon as we would get it to the shop. And stay away for 2 weeks at a time. Finally the shop would start coming to us where ever we were broke down at. That's how they found the problem.
Any how I went to the chevy dealer in town to talk to them. Unfortunately my wife talked to a friend that works there and told them the problem with the vehicle. Good Bye trade in. So I'm went to the Dodge dealer and talked to him. I went out with the sole purpose of getting options. Nothing more. I came home talked to my wife and she got pissed at me because she hates Dodge. I told her that we are NOT in a position to be picky. We need to take what we can get. They have a Neon that is 1 year old with 10k miles on it that we might be able to afford. But I was just getting options. She then got upset with me about the fact that she only wants to look at Chevy's or Saturns. Again I told her that we aren't in a position to be choosey. She went on more about the issue so I told her I needed to walk away. We were both getting angry and I didn't want to fight. So I went to my comfort zone. The Blogs.
After dinner we talked a little more but the kids kept interrupting. She is still crying and is very upset. I'm feeling like failure for not being able to keep us in a situation where we have a decent car. To top it all off we can't afford to fix the car. And we can't afford to buy a new one. The Explorer will be paid off as soon as we sign papers on the house. (that's another thing. I called the lady we have been dealing with today to see how the loan is coming along. She said that the lending company is behind on the paper work and it will be at least another week. It has already been 2 weeks since the lender received the papers from us. So my dad wants me to call the lady and get the appraisal from her and tell her that if we don't have papers to sign by Fri. night we will find someone else. I feel wrong for doing that so I haven't done it yet.) Back to the car. We will be paying it off when we buy the house. When we close escrow my wife and I will receive a check for 25000 to pay off student loans, credit cards, and the Explorer. With maybe 1000 left over. We are paying all this off just so we can manage to make the house payments. Where did I go wrong? Actually I think I have a problem that I read about on Space of Dysfunction. We tried to keep up with the Jones's and we have been living outside our means for years and it is starting to bite us in the ass now.
So that is my fucked up day. I'm still pissed at the way things are going in life. I'm waiting for my wife to get our youngest to sleep and I'm going to put her in the bath tub. And taking some advice from Venting Houswife I'm going to put some candles around the tub, let my wife soak for a while then I'm going to wash her off and got to bed. Unfortunately we have no bubble bath for her soak in. I just want this day to end.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Not much going on
Well there's not much going on today. We woke up late so that put a damper on the morning. Actually I woke up at 5 but I was enjoying lying next to my wife so I just stayed in bed. She didn't wake up till 8. So I just held her for a couple hours. Then we just laid in bed holding each other. I love weekends! Unfortunately that's all we saw of each other today. I changed her oil and she went to work. She should be home anytime now though.
So what I'm going to do instead is post a recipe. I love to cook. So I figured I could share some of my favorite things to cook. Today's recipe is Better Than Sex Cake. MMMM MMMMM Good!
Ingredients: 1 box German chocolate cake mix
1 can sweetened condensed milk
1 jar Mrs. Smiths butterscotch Caramel sauce
2 Heath Bars
1 container Cool Whip
1 bag Milk Chocolate chips (I prefer Guittard)
Make cake as per directions on box. Bake for 8 minutes and drop chocolate chips into cake. Finish baking remainder of time. When cake is done remove from oven and poke many holes in cake with the end of a wooden spoon. Pour condensed milk over cake being sure to fill all the holes, then place in fridge overnight. Next day pour jar of Mrs. Smiths over cake. Spread Cool Whip over cake. Break heath bars into small pieces and sprinkle over cake. Keep refridgerated. Enjoy.
This cake is really good. It's rich though. Don't tell your significant other that wow this is better than sex. You won't be getting any for a while even if it is a joke. Speaking from experience.
Just posted that because there's really nothing more to post right now and I want to try to post more often with out starting controversy in doing so.
So what I'm going to do instead is post a recipe. I love to cook. So I figured I could share some of my favorite things to cook. Today's recipe is Better Than Sex Cake. MMMM MMMMM Good!
Ingredients: 1 box German chocolate cake mix
1 can sweetened condensed milk
1 jar Mrs. Smiths butterscotch Caramel sauce
2 Heath Bars
1 container Cool Whip
1 bag Milk Chocolate chips (I prefer Guittard)
Make cake as per directions on box. Bake for 8 minutes and drop chocolate chips into cake. Finish baking remainder of time. When cake is done remove from oven and poke many holes in cake with the end of a wooden spoon. Pour condensed milk over cake being sure to fill all the holes, then place in fridge overnight. Next day pour jar of Mrs. Smiths over cake. Spread Cool Whip over cake. Break heath bars into small pieces and sprinkle over cake. Keep refridgerated. Enjoy.
This cake is really good. It's rich though. Don't tell your significant other that wow this is better than sex. You won't be getting any for a while even if it is a joke. Speaking from experience.
Just posted that because there's really nothing more to post right now and I want to try to post more often with out starting controversy in doing so.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Thank You!
A Big Thank You goes out to Frustrated for helping me with the code for video. I just added the video to my page. It is of Evanescence, and the song is My Immortal. (I have a thing for the lead singer of this group Amy Lee. As long as she's not wearing the Goth makeup of all white face.) It use to be the ring tone for my wife when she called my phone. Now it is Broken by Seether featuring Amy Lee. I will use that video in a few days.
We didn't do much today. We woke up late and ate breakfast. After we ate I did the dishes and started to get some of my stuff ready for my trip with my dad next week. I can't wait. After lunch time we went into town (What we call town anyways. It's 20 miles away) and went to the mall. It's been 2 years since I stepped into a mall. I can't believe I used to hang out there for fun just 14 years ago when I was in school. I can't believe how many freaky kids hang out there and that I used to be one of those freaks. We just walked around for awhile. My wife then surprised us by taking us to Cold Stone Creamery. It was my first time there and it was good. We came home and played in the back yard with the kids while I cooked dinner. And that was our day. My wife is reading a bed time story to the kids and then putting them to bed.
Tonight I am going to shave my beard off 6 months early. I usually keep it from mid Aug. to the end of duck season in Jan. This year I can't stand it. The main reason for shaving it is that it seems to get in the way when I go to kiss my wife or take a bite of food. I asked her again what she wanted. She said it's your body do what you want I don't care. So I might even shave off the goatee too. The mustache stays. I think I look like a kid without it. And that's the excitement for the day. Oh we did dance for a few minutes in the kitchen before doing dishes after dinner. I was enjoying it till the kids wanted to stand between us. That ended it for me.
Good Night!
We didn't do much today. We woke up late and ate breakfast. After we ate I did the dishes and started to get some of my stuff ready for my trip with my dad next week. I can't wait. After lunch time we went into town (What we call town anyways. It's 20 miles away) and went to the mall. It's been 2 years since I stepped into a mall. I can't believe I used to hang out there for fun just 14 years ago when I was in school. I can't believe how many freaky kids hang out there and that I used to be one of those freaks. We just walked around for awhile. My wife then surprised us by taking us to Cold Stone Creamery. It was my first time there and it was good. We came home and played in the back yard with the kids while I cooked dinner. And that was our day. My wife is reading a bed time story to the kids and then putting them to bed.
Tonight I am going to shave my beard off 6 months early. I usually keep it from mid Aug. to the end of duck season in Jan. This year I can't stand it. The main reason for shaving it is that it seems to get in the way when I go to kiss my wife or take a bite of food. I asked her again what she wanted. She said it's your body do what you want I don't care. So I might even shave off the goatee too. The mustache stays. I think I look like a kid without it. And that's the excitement for the day. Oh we did dance for a few minutes in the kitchen before doing dishes after dinner. I was enjoying it till the kids wanted to stand between us. That ended it for me.
Good Night!
Friday, September 23, 2005
A question for fellow Bloggers
I was looking at the new format of Frustrated's blog today and liked the way she added the music video. I tried to add one to mine this afternoon. I got the video to appear on the blog but it was way down at the bottom of the page. It also moved everything that was on the right column to the bottom of the page also. How do I get it to appear on the right column just below my profile and keep all the other stuff that is on that column in the place it is now? I would ask her on her site but she blocked comments on that topic.
Thanks in advance for any help! I'll get the hang of this stuff at some point.
Thanks in advance for any help! I'll get the hang of this stuff at some point.
The ups and downs of life
First off I'd like to thank you all for your input on the performance problem last week. Looking back on it I think that I was trying to hard to make it happen to fit it into the time constraints. Besides last night was wonderful. ;) Like Digger said we are in a much better spot than we have been in that department.
Yesterday at work I seemed to be having a good day so I called my wife and asked her to bring our youngest son to my yard so we could go out to lunch. She agreed and picked me up and we went to Mc Donalds. (yeah I'm a real extravagant guy ;p ) It was nice to be able to go out to lunch with my wife and son. We had a good time.
Later that day when I came home from work the kids were at our neighbors house playing with their son. We talked for a little while and the day was still going pretty darn good. We cooked dinner together and after dinner I decided to let my sons go play in the backyard and I helped my wife with the dishes. Thats when the down hit. I was standing behind my wife giving her a hug and talking about how hot I was. So I asked her if she would like me to cut my hair or let it grow back out. She said it was up to me. I said I don't care tell me what you want. Would you like me to trim my beard too or even shave it off? She said it's your body do what you want. My response was I know it's my hair and beard I'm asking because I want to know what you want. I just want to make you happy. At that point she started crying. A lot. Her face got all puffy and tears were srteaming down her face. So instantly I thought that I did something wrong to upset her, and asked what was wrong. She said she didn't know. Nothing was wrong. Me being the idiot male I am kept pushing it asking why she was crying, what did I do or say. She kept saying nothing. So the rest of the night was spent in silence. After the kids went to bed she came to the computer with me and sat on my lap and actually read a few Blogs. She seems to be interested in ~anne's Blog. She started taking control of the mouse and browsed my site for awhile. When we got to the post entitled Am I whipped? she read the part about her "assets" . She says 'Oh great. Now I have assets!' I told her I didn't know what else to say. She then thought that what I meant by being whipped was that she bosses me around. I had her read the whole post and she understood. We went to bed and I asked her again what was wrong and she said she's not really happy, but couldn't explain why. So I just held her and we went to sleep.
Today was a decent day. I came home from work early so that she could go to a job interview at the "retirement" community in town. It's actually one of those Active Adult Communities where you need to be over 55 to live there. Apparently they are looking for a Massage Therapist to work in their gym. She said that the interview went real good and that as of now she is the front runner for the job. So she is in a good mood today and is happy now. So We'll see how she's doing when she comes home from work tonight.
Yesterday at work I seemed to be having a good day so I called my wife and asked her to bring our youngest son to my yard so we could go out to lunch. She agreed and picked me up and we went to Mc Donalds. (yeah I'm a real extravagant guy ;p ) It was nice to be able to go out to lunch with my wife and son. We had a good time.
Later that day when I came home from work the kids were at our neighbors house playing with their son. We talked for a little while and the day was still going pretty darn good. We cooked dinner together and after dinner I decided to let my sons go play in the backyard and I helped my wife with the dishes. Thats when the down hit. I was standing behind my wife giving her a hug and talking about how hot I was. So I asked her if she would like me to cut my hair or let it grow back out. She said it was up to me. I said I don't care tell me what you want. Would you like me to trim my beard too or even shave it off? She said it's your body do what you want. My response was I know it's my hair and beard I'm asking because I want to know what you want. I just want to make you happy. At that point she started crying. A lot. Her face got all puffy and tears were srteaming down her face. So instantly I thought that I did something wrong to upset her, and asked what was wrong. She said she didn't know. Nothing was wrong. Me being the idiot male I am kept pushing it asking why she was crying, what did I do or say. She kept saying nothing. So the rest of the night was spent in silence. After the kids went to bed she came to the computer with me and sat on my lap and actually read a few Blogs. She seems to be interested in ~anne's Blog. She started taking control of the mouse and browsed my site for awhile. When we got to the post entitled Am I whipped? she read the part about her "assets" . She says 'Oh great. Now I have assets!' I told her I didn't know what else to say. She then thought that what I meant by being whipped was that she bosses me around. I had her read the whole post and she understood. We went to bed and I asked her again what was wrong and she said she's not really happy, but couldn't explain why. So I just held her and we went to sleep.
Today was a decent day. I came home from work early so that she could go to a job interview at the "retirement" community in town. It's actually one of those Active Adult Communities where you need to be over 55 to live there. Apparently they are looking for a Massage Therapist to work in their gym. She said that the interview went real good and that as of now she is the front runner for the job. So she is in a good mood today and is happy now. So We'll see how she's doing when she comes home from work tonight.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
The performance problem
I guess I'm going to tell what happened last week. I'm still a little upset about it but so far no repeat problems.
When I came home from work last Thur. I talked to my wife about the payday shopping that we needed to do. She said that all she needed to do was change clothes and she'd be ready. So I followed her to the bedroom to take a shower. When we got to the room I closed the door and started kissing her and pulled her top off. We started kissing each other for awhile when the phone rang. So I went to the phone and answered it. It was for my wife so I gave it to her and continued where we left off before the phone rang. (Hey the other person couldn't see me). When she hung up she was ready to go and so was I. The problem was not getting things hard. We made love for quite some time. The problem came when I couldn't. The soldier came to the battle ready to fight but when he pulled the trigger the bullet didn't go off. There was no climax. After being in the room making love for an hour I could not complete even though she did a few times. So she said that it was ok, we could try again later that night. We decided to take a shower together and that was when the other problem hit. Usually when we take a shower together I get hard at the site of her. But that day I guess after not completing I couldn't get hard with her in the shower with me. That got me really upset and it bothered me the rest of the night.
Later that night after the kids were asleep we started making love again. I almost felt like it was going to happen again. I could get hard but the feeling was not there for me to complete. I finally did complete but it seemed forced from me and not 'natural'. It also took a lot longer than usual. (I guess thats not all to bad but that night it was). Since then we have only made love one time and things were fine. It still bothers me though about that night.
It seems we are changing places in our love making. I used to be the one to finish first and it would take her awhile. But now she climaxes first and I climax later. It's just never had to be 'forced' out till now. So there is the problem I had. Even though I know it's not true it still makes me feel like I'm no longer all the man that I should be.
When I came home from work last Thur. I talked to my wife about the payday shopping that we needed to do. She said that all she needed to do was change clothes and she'd be ready. So I followed her to the bedroom to take a shower. When we got to the room I closed the door and started kissing her and pulled her top off. We started kissing each other for awhile when the phone rang. So I went to the phone and answered it. It was for my wife so I gave it to her and continued where we left off before the phone rang. (Hey the other person couldn't see me). When she hung up she was ready to go and so was I. The problem was not getting things hard. We made love for quite some time. The problem came when I couldn't. The soldier came to the battle ready to fight but when he pulled the trigger the bullet didn't go off. There was no climax. After being in the room making love for an hour I could not complete even though she did a few times. So she said that it was ok, we could try again later that night. We decided to take a shower together and that was when the other problem hit. Usually when we take a shower together I get hard at the site of her. But that day I guess after not completing I couldn't get hard with her in the shower with me. That got me really upset and it bothered me the rest of the night.
Later that night after the kids were asleep we started making love again. I almost felt like it was going to happen again. I could get hard but the feeling was not there for me to complete. I finally did complete but it seemed forced from me and not 'natural'. It also took a lot longer than usual. (I guess thats not all to bad but that night it was). Since then we have only made love one time and things were fine. It still bothers me though about that night.
It seems we are changing places in our love making. I used to be the one to finish first and it would take her awhile. But now she climaxes first and I climax later. It's just never had to be 'forced' out till now. So there is the problem I had. Even though I know it's not true it still makes me feel like I'm no longer all the man that I should be.
A sons Bday and some notes
So yesterday was my sons Bday. He is now 11 years old. We had my parents, sister, and grandma over for some cake and his presents. He had a good time last night. While they were all here we found out my parents are going to put there house up for sale pretty soon and move into my town. My dad is retiring in Dec. and my mom is retiring in Aug. They have already booked a cruise in Aug. to celebrate.
So today by taking an idea I got off another Blog I started to send my wife some sexy text messages today. I was telling her what I wanted to do to her when she got home from work. She never responded to any of them. While I was getting turned on just writing them. So around lunch time she calls me up and asks what I want for dinner. I told her I don't know. Then the subject came around to the text messages and she said light heartedly that they were annoying her because she was busy doing housework. It hurt my feelings so I stopped the messages for awhile. Then I decided to try again anyways. I told her that if she didn't like it slow like I was telling her that I would give it to her real fast and hard like she likes. She replied by saying that I was mean. I was going to talk to her about it when I got home but she was in the shower. So I went online to check my email. Glad I did. This is why I go over the cell bill with a fine tooth comb. It said we went over our minutes by like 150 minutes. I know we did not do that. We have 1000 minutes shared plus free weekends, nights and mobile to mobile. Well I spent 1 hour on the phone with the phone company and got it all straightened out. They charged us for weekends, nights and mobile to mobile. They over charged us 600 minutes that were supposed to be free. Saved me 80 dollars in overages. Thats why I check the cell bill closely.
We have not heard back from my wife's sister. I talked to her about the situation on Mon. and she was very excited about it but no calls yet. So we are still waiting. I'll call her again tomorrow.
So today by taking an idea I got off another Blog I started to send my wife some sexy text messages today. I was telling her what I wanted to do to her when she got home from work. She never responded to any of them. While I was getting turned on just writing them. So around lunch time she calls me up and asks what I want for dinner. I told her I don't know. Then the subject came around to the text messages and she said light heartedly that they were annoying her because she was busy doing housework. It hurt my feelings so I stopped the messages for awhile. Then I decided to try again anyways. I told her that if she didn't like it slow like I was telling her that I would give it to her real fast and hard like she likes. She replied by saying that I was mean. I was going to talk to her about it when I got home but she was in the shower. So I went online to check my email. Glad I did. This is why I go over the cell bill with a fine tooth comb. It said we went over our minutes by like 150 minutes. I know we did not do that. We have 1000 minutes shared plus free weekends, nights and mobile to mobile. Well I spent 1 hour on the phone with the phone company and got it all straightened out. They charged us for weekends, nights and mobile to mobile. They over charged us 600 minutes that were supposed to be free. Saved me 80 dollars in overages. Thats why I check the cell bill closely.
We have not heard back from my wife's sister. I talked to her about the situation on Mon. and she was very excited about it but no calls yet. So we are still waiting. I'll call her again tomorrow.
Monday, September 19, 2005
I'm running out of ideas for titles :(
Well I'm not sure where to begin. It's been a week since I last posted. I have been reading and posting some comments on the Blogs I read though. There have been some good reads out there this past week. ~Anne posted a good question about why do you Blog. I really liked Lizzies answer that was posted on her site. (I forgot how to do links in posts). Lizzie brought up how she feels that she gets to know the people who's blogs she reads and I feel that way to. It also upsets me when someone takes down there Blog do to being 'found' out. I just don't get it. If it being written anonymously why should it matter? It doesn't bother me knowing that someone I know finds this site. But that's just me. (I know it sounds contradictory about that statement knowing that I won't tell my family about what happened with us). But maybe in a way I hope that I get found out so that I won't have to keep this whole thing a secret. Eventhough things are better now. Things aren't as good as I'd like them to be but they are a lot better than they were this time last year.
So anyways Things have been pretty slow in the Confused household. I worked all weekend long. I got 21 hours OT over the weekend plus another 10 M-F. We are finally done with our big paving jobs this year. :)! (I whish Blogger had smilies.) My dad and I are getting ready for our vacation in 2 weeks. My wife has decided not to write a letter to the paper at this time. We figure that if she were to do that she would be giving in to the coward who wrote the original letter. Although it has been a big topic at my work. They want to know if my wife is running a brothel why do I drive vehicles that are falling apart.
Here is the big problem of the week though. My wife went back to the school and signed up for the classes that she wants to take. Which is fine that she wants to go back to school. Here's the problem that we (I) am coming up with. Most of them are little things but I still think about everything. I think that may be part of my problem. I over think things to much. 1) Paying for a babysitter 2)Paying for gas. 3) How will we make the housepayments if she is no longer working at the store (most important) 4)We will never see each other because she will got to school Mon. - Thur. & work Fri. - Sun. This last one is an important one for me on many different ways. In a previous comment an anonymous person asked me why I don't give up hunting so that we can get my wife the things she needs for her business. Well I never answered that person until now. I would give up hunting for this year to support my family. I have done it in the past for 5 years in a row. I can't really do that this year. For my birthday last year my dad spent $1000.00 to get me into his hunting club. If I don't go hunting with him this year all that money will be wasted. He had to do an awful lot to convince my mom to go for that idea. I'm caught in the middle here. The most important person in my life is my wife. My dad is also a huge part of my life even though I'm grown and out of the house. I don't want to let either one of them down. Right now though I need to let one of them down. Sometimes I hate being an adult and making adult decisions. I may have found a cure but won't know for sure till my wifes sister calls me back in a day or 2. I might have my sister-in-law move in with us. She is on probation and needs to check it with her probation officer. Right now she is not allowed to leave the county that she lives in. We are going to see if she can move in here and get a probation officer in this county if she has employment here. She will have 2 jobs. One will be to watch the kids when my wife is at school and I'm at work or out hunting. In return she will get room and board. The other job will hopefully be at the store my wife works at. We are hoping that my wifes boss will hire her sister to take over the shifts that my wife will be opening.
Yes she is on probation but I do trust her. I'm actually more protective of her than my own sister. I know my sister can take care of herself but my sister-in-law needs someone to look out for her. As far as what she's on probation for that's not something that needs airing out. I'll air out my dirty laundry but not hers.
There is something else that has been bothering me about myself. I had some"performance" issues last week but am still trying to find the courage to talk about them. I'd like to be able to write like Venting Housewife or Housewyfe with benefits but I'd like to have my wife read this Blog when she wants. And that would definitely not be kosher with her.
So anyways Things have been pretty slow in the Confused household. I worked all weekend long. I got 21 hours OT over the weekend plus another 10 M-F. We are finally done with our big paving jobs this year. :)! (I whish Blogger had smilies.) My dad and I are getting ready for our vacation in 2 weeks. My wife has decided not to write a letter to the paper at this time. We figure that if she were to do that she would be giving in to the coward who wrote the original letter. Although it has been a big topic at my work. They want to know if my wife is running a brothel why do I drive vehicles that are falling apart.
Here is the big problem of the week though. My wife went back to the school and signed up for the classes that she wants to take. Which is fine that she wants to go back to school. Here's the problem that we (I) am coming up with. Most of them are little things but I still think about everything. I think that may be part of my problem. I over think things to much. 1) Paying for a babysitter 2)Paying for gas. 3) How will we make the housepayments if she is no longer working at the store (most important) 4)We will never see each other because she will got to school Mon. - Thur. & work Fri. - Sun. This last one is an important one for me on many different ways. In a previous comment an anonymous person asked me why I don't give up hunting so that we can get my wife the things she needs for her business. Well I never answered that person until now. I would give up hunting for this year to support my family. I have done it in the past for 5 years in a row. I can't really do that this year. For my birthday last year my dad spent $1000.00 to get me into his hunting club. If I don't go hunting with him this year all that money will be wasted. He had to do an awful lot to convince my mom to go for that idea. I'm caught in the middle here. The most important person in my life is my wife. My dad is also a huge part of my life even though I'm grown and out of the house. I don't want to let either one of them down. Right now though I need to let one of them down. Sometimes I hate being an adult and making adult decisions. I may have found a cure but won't know for sure till my wifes sister calls me back in a day or 2. I might have my sister-in-law move in with us. She is on probation and needs to check it with her probation officer. Right now she is not allowed to leave the county that she lives in. We are going to see if she can move in here and get a probation officer in this county if she has employment here. She will have 2 jobs. One will be to watch the kids when my wife is at school and I'm at work or out hunting. In return she will get room and board. The other job will hopefully be at the store my wife works at. We are hoping that my wifes boss will hire her sister to take over the shifts that my wife will be opening.
Yes she is on probation but I do trust her. I'm actually more protective of her than my own sister. I know my sister can take care of herself but my sister-in-law needs someone to look out for her. As far as what she's on probation for that's not something that needs airing out. I'll air out my dirty laundry but not hers.
There is something else that has been bothering me about myself. I had some"performance" issues last week but am still trying to find the courage to talk about them. I'd like to be able to write like Venting Housewife or Housewyfe with benefits but I'd like to have my wife read this Blog when she wants. And that would definitely not be kosher with her.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
A bad day for my wife
The following letter was sent to the city Chamber of Commerce this week in the town that I live in. This letter was given to my wife today as she went to the Chamber to pay her fees for joining. To give you some info she is a Certified Massage Therapist, went to school for 10 months to become certified, as I've stated before she takes her career very seriously. She has stated that she did not pick this career God picked it for her. It is her calling. She also has a business license with the city. She is not the person that the letter refers to as living in the community the person who's name was deleted), but she is the person offering the back to school special.
My Town Chamber of Commerce:
9/9/2005
I do read your approved ads in the Local Paper weekly and have notice a marked decline in the types of businesses that you are recommending. If they are in your section, I assume that you are sanctioning them, correct?
I did notice a few weeks ago that you started adding massage therapists (parlors) in your sanctioned section. By all appearances you are approving and promoting what is commonly known as a front for prostitution, in most cases. There is only a non-local phone number for this (name deleted) person, so this is obviously a cell phone and absolutely no address? What kind of people and what kind of ads are you condoning! If you doubt what I am saying, please check your own approved ad for this "business" and tell me what the "other services also provided" pertains to. How more suggestive can you get.
. These are the kind of businesses that have-been known to degrade communities and cause the wrong kind of people to be drawn to your town. Does she work out of the local motel room for an hour at a time? How can you accept this kind of "business" in what you want to be a legitimate promotion of local businesses? Do you know if these people have business licenses and are paying the proper taxes and fees which add revenue to the city coffers, or are you just promoting un-licensed businesses just to get your Chamber of Commerce fee?
In the following weeks, you 'have added another massage therapist (parlor), this one trying to get kids in with a very bad taste "back to school special". At least this one has an address!! Why would the (MY Town) Chamber of Commerce promote this type of business since it is known that this kind of business has always attracted the wrong type of people to areas and has degraded the community? So when will you start promoting the complete line of adult entertainment complexes and really make (My Town) look like a seedy community. After all, I have already heard that (My Town) is known as the "Ghetto of (My County) County". By you promoting these ads, you are continuing this reputation.
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We don't have enough police to keep these kind of businesses monitored, especially when they will not even give their addresses. These people should be run out of town and not promoted in your publications. I also believe that this (Name Deleted) person is running her "business" out of her bedroom in a rental house in the (Housing Development) complex. If so, this is a clear violation of the CC&R's. There are no home businesses allowed according to these governing rules. She violates many of the other CC&R's just by looking at her un-maintained rental property. This is another indication of how these kinds of people can easily disappear when they need to. There is no investment in the community, just use and abuse.
If I am wrong, I apologize, but it is obvious that (My Town) and the (Housing Development) development in
particular is rapidly becoming a slum.
Signed:
A very concerned citizen interested in the viability of a prosperous and upstanding community.
CC: Mayors Office
So that was the letter that was mailed to the Chamber. She spoke to the head of the Chamber and that person was very upset about the letter and said she will back my wife and the other party 100%. Both massage Therapists are licensed with the city. My wife took this letter very hard and was almost in tears when she talked to me about it. I didn't know what to say except to hold her until she went to work. She is in the process of writing a letter with the cooperation of the Chamber to be published in the next issue of the paper. (It only comes out once a week.) The thing that will really piss off the letter writer is that in the next issue my wifes add will no longer have an address but instead read "Mobile Massage! We come to you!" As she lost her space in the "Massage Parlor". She is also not using a local phone number but her cell number instead. This person really made my blood boil. Mainly because the person did not have the balls to sign their name. Pussy! I guess that is better though so I can't look up there name and address in the phone book or online. (I love the internet!) So she is now at work and I'm at home fuming.
I'll post more later. I'm going to my Grandma's now.
Monday, September 12, 2005
Great Weekend!
Well we had a dam good weekend. We didn't go anywhere just stayed home but we had some good alone time on Sat. morning. The kids slept in and when they woke up our oldest son made breakfast for himself and his younger brother. Then they watched a movie. This allowed my wife and I to stay in our room till 10:30. The rest of the day was spent doing laundry for me. I took the kids out for awhile so my wife could spend some time taking a nap in the afternoon. She was tired for some reason. :) Later that night after the kids went to bed she actually came over to the couch and sat on my lap to watch a movie with me. It was great. We spent about 2 hours on the couch just cuddling and holding each other. ( I love to just sit and hold my wife.) On Sun. she went to church and left the kids with me. The youngest got in trouble last week so he had to stay home this week. The oldest wouldn't take a shower so he could go. She then had to go to work for the rest of the day.
So this weekend was not the weekend for me to go with her to church. I told her I will try and go with her next weekend if I don't work. My boss wants us to work 20 hours OT next Sat. & Sun. We did talk about her going back to school. As much as we both want her to go we decided that it could wait till the class is offered again in the spring. That will give us a chance to get comfortable with the house payments. The other thing is she would have to quit her job at the store to get the hours of school in. It was something that she brought up herself. So she is willing to wait till spring and we'll go from there.
Also a Thank You goes out to Digger. He made a comment that my wife had to comment on. She then spent the next 30 minutes looking at my Blog and others without making grunting noises.
Also have I mentioned how much I love my wife? Back in June she ordered my Fathers day present. Well it finally came in the mail today. She got me a custom and numbered goose call. It is #15 of 22. I've been wanting this call for months, and she got it for me. I'm going to have to thank her for it when she gets home from work tonight.
So this weekend was not the weekend for me to go with her to church. I told her I will try and go with her next weekend if I don't work. My boss wants us to work 20 hours OT next Sat. & Sun. We did talk about her going back to school. As much as we both want her to go we decided that it could wait till the class is offered again in the spring. That will give us a chance to get comfortable with the house payments. The other thing is she would have to quit her job at the store to get the hours of school in. It was something that she brought up herself. So she is willing to wait till spring and we'll go from there.
Also a Thank You goes out to Digger. He made a comment that my wife had to comment on. She then spent the next 30 minutes looking at my Blog and others without making grunting noises.
Also have I mentioned how much I love my wife? Back in June she ordered my Fathers day present. Well it finally came in the mail today. She got me a custom and numbered goose call. It is #15 of 22. I've been wanting this call for months, and she got it for me. I'm going to have to thank her for it when she gets home from work tonight.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Wow. My creative juices are not flowing anymore. After yesterdays post giving some history about myself I'm not sure what else to say. There's not much going on in my life anymore to post about. I'm not going to try and start something either. My wife and I are actually in pretty good place right now. We're both sleeping better at night now. Except for the cat waking us up. I got a cat for my wife the night of my last post back in May. She is now very active and wants to play in the middle of the night. Specifically she wants to attack my feet. If it's not that she gets as close to my wifes head as possible and purr loudly. We didn't get a chance to talk today because I was late coming home from work. By the time I got home she was at work already. That's the way our day goes. I get home and she's walking out the door 40 minutes later. She gets home and it's 10 at night and bedtime. We did talk on the phone today and she wants to go back to school again this winter. She needs to get 300 more hours of school and she will be a Holistic Healthcare Practitioner. They will teach her Hot Stone Massage and she will also be able to work on pregnant women. The really good thing is that they have a class that covers the National Massage Therapist Exam. When she takes that test she will no longer be a Certified Massage Therapist. She will be a Licensed Massage Therapist. That means she can work anywhere in the US. We are going to talk about it when she gets home. I'd love for her to go back to school and get her license. We just need to talk about the finances for it. When she went to school the first time it was at night. I could stay at home with the kids while she was at school. This new course is in the afternoons. We need to have a babysitter for 3 hours till I get home. She'll go to school just need to figure things out.
So for now thats all there is. If you have any questions for me about my past go ahead and ask. I'd be glad to answer. I won't tell much about my wifes past except for what I have already given. She has told me that she will NOT be posting anything on this site. She says all she would be able to say are bad things and she don't want to do that.
So for now thats all there is. If you have any questions for me about my past go ahead and ask. I'd be glad to answer. I won't tell much about my wifes past except for what I have already given. She has told me that she will NOT be posting anything on this site. She says all she would be able to say are bad things and she don't want to do that.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Not much going on.
Well there's not to much going on since my last update. I did get the motivation to get the garage cleaned out finally. What a difference. Now I just need to get the workbench and closets straightened out. I even had enough motivation to edge the lawn on Sun. too. I've lived here for 4 years and 11 months and that was the first time the lawn was edged. I had to borrow the edger from my neighbor. Thats definitely on the list of things to get when I'm a homeowner. Along with a lot of other things. So that takes care of Sun. Oh I also got called to work. A drunk driver hit a stop sign on the highway and I had to replace it. Easy 4 hours OT.
On Mon. we went to my parents house for a BBQ. The kids got to meet the new dog. He's really shy of new people. We think he was abused in his last home. This is the 3rd home he's been in in the last month. He's about 13 months old. After about 4 hours he finally opened up and started to play with the kids. He would chase them for a while then they would chase him. While I was down there I went through some old photos from before I was born to when I was about 10. It's amazing how much we all have changed since then. I decided to take on a new project now. I'm going to scan all of my parents photos onto the computer. If I can figure it out I'll try to make a slide show of them on a DVD. Side note : If anyone knows of a place to convert old 35mm slides to disk and convert 8mm movies to disk could you let me know please. My parents have a bunch of slides and movies from when my sister and I were kids.
My wife and I are doing pretty good at the moment. We're not really doing much hence the loss of things to say.
So here's a little about myself. I'm 31 years old, 5'11" tall, and am overweight. I weigh about 280. My whole family is big. My kids luckily got my wifes metabolism. They eat and don't gain weight. I graduated High School in '92 at the bottom of my class. Barely even graduated. Funny when I went back to school in '95 I got a high GPA. Graduated with my AA degree in '97 with a 3.4 GPA. I never had a girlfriend in high school. Never even went on dates. Didn't do drugs or drink in school either. When I graduated thats when all that changed. I got high the first time in Oct. of '92 and loved it. I smoked pot every day a couple times a day till I met my wife in July of '93. I loved to smoke weed. Started drinking too. Not a lot but enough. Then I got my first gf in Feb. of '93. It was a weird relationship to say the least. All we had in common was sex, drugs and ............ I guess that was it. She was a wild girl. She would do anything anywhere. Didn't matter who was watching either. I broke up with her a month later. Then there was my second gf in May same year. All we had in common was well........ see previous gf. But she messed with me. I never did meth/crank till I met her. Did that wasn't to crazy about it but did it to be with her. The only good thing about crank was the sex. We would go for hours. Then I made the 2 biggest mistakes of my life. 1) got her pregnant. 2)Introduced my sister to crank (she loved it and did it from '93 till '02/03. along with much worse drugs). This gf got pregnant, decided she did not want my baby (found out after we broke up) and did an 8 ball at once to kill the baby. I never saw her again and never touched crank again either. She messed me up big time. So then in July I met my future wife. We met on July 30, 1993. We started dating on Sept. 5, 1993. After we started dating getting high was no fun anymore. Since Sept. 1993 I've got high about 6-7 times. Thats when the problems started with my sister and wife. Those problems lasted until about 2 years ago when my sister graduated from rehab. My wife never did any drugs so I stopped when we started dating. Thus I didn't hang out with the same people. Those people (sister) didn't like that. Wife didn't like sisters influence on me. I was in the middle as I loved them both. So then came Nov. 25, 1993 Thanksgiving day. That was the day I asked her to marry me. She said yes. That weekend I got kicked out of my parents house because she spent the night in my room. Even though we did not have sex. She had the flu, I slept on the floor she slept in my bed. So I moved into her moms house. On Feb. 1, 1994 we found out we were pregnant. I was so happy and so was my wife/fiance'. That was 12 days before I turned 20. We got married in March of '94. 11 Days after our wedding I went to Al. for basic training in the Army.
So that is the beginning of our relationship. From time we met to date of marriage was 8 months. I still to this day don't regret any of our time together. There are some parts of my past I'm not proud of ie. second girlfriend, the drugs, and introducing my sister to Meth/crank (but hind site if it wasn't me it would have been someone else). But that is my life. It made me who I am today. If I can help someone with my mistakes then it wasn't a total failure. Thats the way my sister sees it now too. She has been sober for 33 months now. She is a sponsor to people in AA and NA. She went from a person that I didn't want to talk to or be around my kids to one of the strongest people I know. I'm very proud of her and still love my little sister.
Till next time.
On Mon. we went to my parents house for a BBQ. The kids got to meet the new dog. He's really shy of new people. We think he was abused in his last home. This is the 3rd home he's been in in the last month. He's about 13 months old. After about 4 hours he finally opened up and started to play with the kids. He would chase them for a while then they would chase him. While I was down there I went through some old photos from before I was born to when I was about 10. It's amazing how much we all have changed since then. I decided to take on a new project now. I'm going to scan all of my parents photos onto the computer. If I can figure it out I'll try to make a slide show of them on a DVD. Side note : If anyone knows of a place to convert old 35mm slides to disk and convert 8mm movies to disk could you let me know please. My parents have a bunch of slides and movies from when my sister and I were kids.
My wife and I are doing pretty good at the moment. We're not really doing much hence the loss of things to say.
So here's a little about myself. I'm 31 years old, 5'11" tall, and am overweight. I weigh about 280. My whole family is big. My kids luckily got my wifes metabolism. They eat and don't gain weight. I graduated High School in '92 at the bottom of my class. Barely even graduated. Funny when I went back to school in '95 I got a high GPA. Graduated with my AA degree in '97 with a 3.4 GPA. I never had a girlfriend in high school. Never even went on dates. Didn't do drugs or drink in school either. When I graduated thats when all that changed. I got high the first time in Oct. of '92 and loved it. I smoked pot every day a couple times a day till I met my wife in July of '93. I loved to smoke weed. Started drinking too. Not a lot but enough. Then I got my first gf in Feb. of '93. It was a weird relationship to say the least. All we had in common was sex, drugs and ............ I guess that was it. She was a wild girl. She would do anything anywhere. Didn't matter who was watching either. I broke up with her a month later. Then there was my second gf in May same year. All we had in common was well........ see previous gf. But she messed with me. I never did meth/crank till I met her. Did that wasn't to crazy about it but did it to be with her. The only good thing about crank was the sex. We would go for hours. Then I made the 2 biggest mistakes of my life. 1) got her pregnant. 2)Introduced my sister to crank (she loved it and did it from '93 till '02/03. along with much worse drugs). This gf got pregnant, decided she did not want my baby (found out after we broke up) and did an 8 ball at once to kill the baby. I never saw her again and never touched crank again either. She messed me up big time. So then in July I met my future wife. We met on July 30, 1993. We started dating on Sept. 5, 1993. After we started dating getting high was no fun anymore. Since Sept. 1993 I've got high about 6-7 times. Thats when the problems started with my sister and wife. Those problems lasted until about 2 years ago when my sister graduated from rehab. My wife never did any drugs so I stopped when we started dating. Thus I didn't hang out with the same people. Those people (sister) didn't like that. Wife didn't like sisters influence on me. I was in the middle as I loved them both. So then came Nov. 25, 1993 Thanksgiving day. That was the day I asked her to marry me. She said yes. That weekend I got kicked out of my parents house because she spent the night in my room. Even though we did not have sex. She had the flu, I slept on the floor she slept in my bed. So I moved into her moms house. On Feb. 1, 1994 we found out we were pregnant. I was so happy and so was my wife/fiance'. That was 12 days before I turned 20. We got married in March of '94. 11 Days after our wedding I went to Al. for basic training in the Army.
So that is the beginning of our relationship. From time we met to date of marriage was 8 months. I still to this day don't regret any of our time together. There are some parts of my past I'm not proud of ie. second girlfriend, the drugs, and introducing my sister to Meth/crank (but hind site if it wasn't me it would have been someone else). But that is my life. It made me who I am today. If I can help someone with my mistakes then it wasn't a total failure. Thats the way my sister sees it now too. She has been sober for 33 months now. She is a sponsor to people in AA and NA. She went from a person that I didn't want to talk to or be around my kids to one of the strongest people I know. I'm very proud of her and still love my little sister.
Till next time.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
The new Layout
Well for some odd reason I decided to change the layout of my site tonight. I'll never do that again. When I did this it cleared all the changes that I had made to my site. I had to renter all the Sites I frequent. Not that big of a deal but time consuming. The bad thing is that I can't get my site meter running again. Other than that I like the way it looks. Not much else to report on now though. I spent the day with my dad today. We went to get him a new dog. He put his last one to sleep about a month ago. He had cancer. So we got him a new German Shorthair from a lady that does rescue work on Pointing Breeds of dogs. He's a year old and is already birdy. Once he gets used to his new surroundings the fun begins in training our newest hunting partner. I'm now looking forward to the upcoming season a little bit now. Yippee! Another good thing is that I'm getting my first massage in about 2 months tonight when the kids got to bed. It is nice being married to a Massage Therapist.;)
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Now that I'm off my Soap Box
Well that was a refreshing rant. So anyways I was talking to my wife today about maybe seeing if she would be willing to write some on my Blog. See if she would want to tell her side of the story. I really think that people need to hear both sides of a story to get the whole picture. She seemed turned off by the idea. She knows that I write here and that I look at other peoples Blogs but she don't like the idea. She don't see why I feel the need to look at some one else's entries or even why people would write down there thoughts for the whole world to see. My hope is that maybe if enough people who read my site will like the idea of her telling her side or at least have some questions for her that she could answer that she would at least try. So what do you think? Should I try to get her to write here?
On to other things. In reading M's Blog The Tale of My Discreet Affair I decided to take some of her ideas. She has decided to set goals for her site and I have decided to try for the same thing. I'm not going to set as many goals as she has but I want to get some things accomplished here. So here are some of my goals (more might come later).
On to other things. In reading M's Blog The Tale of My Discreet Affair I decided to take some of her ideas. She has decided to set goals for her site and I have decided to try for the same thing. I'm not going to set as many goals as she has but I want to get some things accomplished here. So here are some of my goals (more might come later).
- Try to get my wife to tell her side of the story or give some opinions. At the very least I'd like he to answer any questions. I know this might not be the best thing for me but it would help paint the whole picture. I have been a total ass in my life and am willing to take responsibility for that now.
- I want to try to post some more positive things about our life in general. There are times when we are completely happy. I want to start sharing those times here. It might help me to change my outlook on life in general.
- I'd like to get some more comments but that is not a big deal to me. Well maybe wrong wording. I'd like to try and get some more input from the people who stop by and read my ramblings.
- This last one is more of a request than a goal. I'd like to see if the readers have any questions for my wife that she might be able (willing) to answer.
- I'd like to learn how some of the other people on the Blog sites are doing some of their things. Like I found out how to put links on my site to other sites. But how do some of the sites put asterisk by the blogs that have been recently updated. Or how do you get the link top appear that says other sites that link here. Their are more but can't remember them at the moment.
So those are my goals for now. I have some personal goals but those are personal. The biggest is to STOP the cravings for a dam cigarette. It's been a month now and the cravings won't go away. I've quit before for years at a time but this time the cravings won't stop. They are the worst after I eat a meal.
I talked to my wife yesterday about her being upset at me when I tell her she is beautiful. She says it's because she don't feel that way. But she did say that is ok for me to call her my pretty wife. So at least that is a positive thing. So for now that's all to say. I'm getting tired so good night.
The state of the world
This evening my 10 year old son had a homework assignment to watch the evening news. I pretty much don't watch the news at all. But for the sake of homework I did tonight. I was disgusted by what I saw. Thus reinforcing why I don't watch the news. They were showing coverage of New Orleans. Looters have taken over the city and people are shooting at rescue helicopters. What the fuck are these people thinking? The National Guard is now needing to do police action instead of rescue operations AND rescue volunteers and ambulance companies are saying they can't help people until they get more security for them. Then there are reports that they are having more problems in the Superdome which is being setup as a shelter. There are shootings, rapes and thievery going on in there. This is NOT the time for these actions to be going on. People need to be pulling together to help one another out. Or is that just my idealistic mind talking? It's one thing if a city wants to destroy itself by looting after their team wins the World Series or whatever. In that case I say fence off the 'war zone' and let nature take it's course. But how can you do this here?
I guess that's it for this topic. I just needed to go on my soapbox for awhile. Thanks for letting me vent.
I guess that's it for this topic. I just needed to go on my soapbox for awhile. Thanks for letting me vent.
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