I'm running out of ideas for titles :(

Well I'm not sure where to begin. It's been a week since I last posted. I have been reading and posting some comments on the Blogs I read though. There have been some good reads out there this past week. ~Anne posted a good question about why do you Blog. I really liked Lizzies answer that was posted on her site. (I forgot how to do links in posts). Lizzie brought up how she feels that she gets to know the people who's blogs she reads and I feel that way to. It also upsets me when someone takes down there Blog do to being 'found' out. I just don't get it. If it being written anonymously why should it matter? It doesn't bother me knowing that someone I know finds this site. But that's just me. (I know it sounds contradictory about that statement knowing that I won't tell my family about what happened with us). But maybe in a way I hope that I get found out so that I won't have to keep this whole thing a secret. Eventhough things are better now. Things aren't as good as I'd like them to be but they are a lot better than they were this time last year.
So anyways Things have been pretty slow in the Confused household. I worked all weekend long. I got 21 hours OT over the weekend plus another 10 M-F. We are finally done with our big paving jobs this year. :)! (I whish Blogger had smilies.) My dad and I are getting ready for our vacation in 2 weeks. My wife has decided not to write a letter to the paper at this time. We figure that if she were to do that she would be giving in to the coward who wrote the original letter. Although it has been a big topic at my work. They want to know if my wife is running a brothel why do I drive vehicles that are falling apart.
Here is the big problem of the week though. My wife went back to the school and signed up for the classes that she wants to take. Which is fine that she wants to go back to school. Here's the problem that we (I) am coming up with. Most of them are little things but I still think about everything. I think that may be part of my problem. I over think things to much. 1) Paying for a babysitter 2)Paying for gas. 3) How will we make the housepayments if she is no longer working at the store (most important) 4)We will never see each other because she will got to school Mon. - Thur. & work Fri. - Sun. This last one is an important one for me on many different ways. In a previous comment an anonymous person asked me why I don't give up hunting so that we can get my wife the things she needs for her business. Well I never answered that person until now. I would give up hunting for this year to support my family. I have done it in the past for 5 years in a row. I can't really do that this year. For my birthday last year my dad spent $1000.00 to get me into his hunting club. If I don't go hunting with him this year all that money will be wasted. He had to do an awful lot to convince my mom to go for that idea. I'm caught in the middle here. The most important person in my life is my wife. My dad is also a huge part of my life even though I'm grown and out of the house. I don't want to let either one of them down. Right now though I need to let one of them down. Sometimes I hate being an adult and making adult decisions. I may have found a cure but won't know for sure till my wifes sister calls me back in a day or 2. I might have my sister-in-law move in with us. She is on probation and needs to check it with her probation officer. Right now she is not allowed to leave the county that she lives in. We are going to see if she can move in here and get a probation officer in this county if she has employment here. She will have 2 jobs. One will be to watch the kids when my wife is at school and I'm at work or out hunting. In return she will get room and board. The other job will hopefully be at the store my wife works at. We are hoping that my wifes boss will hire her sister to take over the shifts that my wife will be opening.
Yes she is on probation but I do trust her. I'm actually more protective of her than my own sister. I know my sister can take care of herself but my sister-in-law needs someone to look out for her. As far as what she's on probation for that's not something that needs airing out. I'll air out my dirty laundry but not hers.

There is something else that has been bothering me about myself. I had some"performance" issues last week but am still trying to find the courage to talk about them. I'd like to be able to write like Venting Housewife or Housewyfe with benefits but I'd like to have my wife read this Blog when she wants. And that would definitely not be kosher with her.