Hey out there! Do any of you still remember me? I'm CH. I know that I've been lacking lately. That might be an understatement actually. I don't know what it is but I just haven't been able to get the gumption up to post on here as of late. I'm torn. Don't know what to do. Don't know what would make me happier. I've thought a lot recently about shutting down. Then every time I think that I also think that it would be a waste to do so.I have 3 years of my life documented here. I don't want to just give up on it. I'll probably just not post as often. Who knows.
So anyways not much has been going on here in the last few weeks since I last posted. I've been making cookies for Christmas again. I'm on my fifth double batch so far. Still have at least 2-3 more double batches to go. As usual I'm going over board on the cookies again. But we go through a lot. 2 Christmas parties, give some away to our neighbors on Christmas day, then there is the ones we'll take to my parents on Christmas day. So we go through a lot too. It's not like I eat them all to myself. That gets saved for the Cordial Cherries. Those are all MINE!
Hunting has been pretty slow lately. I haven't had many opportunities to go. Although 2 weeks ago I got the chance to go on the best pheasant hunt of my life. It was truly amazing. It was like watching a show on the Outdoor Chanel that was taped in South Dakota. Truly a once in a lifetime hunt for someone from Ca.
Jr. has been keeping us busy with his 4H stuff. He is showing a goat this year. Plus the chili cook off that he has signed up for next month. He's also signed up for the rocketry club as well. So we're pretty busy with that.
Youngest is doing alright. At least he is when I'm around. School has been pretty good for him. Home has been getting a little better. At least we are moving ahead in the right direction.
Summer has started babysitting to make some extra money. She's also going back to school starting next week. I think that she has pretty much given up on massage. She did give it a fair try though. We just need more income coming in. Half of her check is going into the gas tank now. Plus her employer has stopped paying standby time. So if she is not giving massages she's not getting paid. They are really slow lately too so sometimes she's there for 6 hours and only does 1 massage. That's a lot of time to be sitting around and not be getting paid.
As for me my schedule/shift has started taking it's toll on me. Right now I'm just hoping that we can get a second lead worker on the crew. Soon. I love the work aspect of the shift still, but I'm getting tired of not seeing the family. I get to see the kids for about 20 minutes in the morning and half an hour for dinner. Summer and I see each other at dinner and thats about it. Unless she comes home from work early. Which isn't often. Plus she works on my days off and I work on hers. We get to a point where we are doing really well together and we can't see each other. So here's to hoping we get a second lead so that I can go back to days. Or at the very least go on a rotating shift which is what my boss wants. If we get two leads he wants to rotate us every two months so we get the experience of the whole job. not just one part. Right now I'm great at the paperwork aspect. But when it comes to the maintenance aspect I suck. I don't deal with that on my shift.
I am taking some time off soon though so that's going to be nice. SR is going to be taking some time off as well at the same time so we can spend time together. I'm working day shift on the 23rd and 24th so I can attend the work Christmas party. Then I don't go back to work until the 2nd of Jan. I'll be off for 8 days and only use 4 days of vacation. Gotta know how to work the system. :D
Hopefully I'll be back in a week or so. We'll see.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Do I look mad?
I really need to do something about all the gray hairs in my beard.
For some reason my youngest thinks I look mad in this photo. How can I be mad? I'm out duck hunting! Life don't get better than that. Well unless you wake up to an amazingly sexy wife the next day that is feeling kinda amorous. :D
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
And this my friends is just one in a long list of reasons why I hate the dentist.Dentist loses drill bit in patients nasal cavity. I know the possibility of this happening to me are very slim to none, but I'm sure thats what this poor woman thought too.
Friday, November 02, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
growing up in the 80's (edited)
I'm terribly sorry about how this turned out. It was supposed to have pictures to go along with all of these but they won't show up for some reason. so I am taking them off of the post so it won't take up a lot of empty space. The pictures would have helped a lot for the younger crowd RS and Therese. Especially for the garbage Pail Kids. Man I LOVED those.
You Know You Grew Up In the 80's if:
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.
2. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton
3. You know that 'WOAH' comes from Joey on Blossom
4. If you ever watched 'Fraggle Rock'
5. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
6. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
7. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. One of the greatest computer games EVER!
8. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
9. You played the game 'MASH'(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
10. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it. I totally rocked the stonewashed look. Had two jean jackets. 1 stonewashed and the other was washed in bleach.
11. You know the profound meaning of ' WAX ON , WAX OFF'
12. You wanted to be a Goonie.
13. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)
14. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.
15. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
16. You took lunch boxes to school...and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard.
17. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
18. You still get the urge to say 'NOT' after every sentence.
19. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
21. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.
22. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying 'I know you are, but what am I?'
23. You remember 'I've fallen and I can't get up'
24. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
25. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
26. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.
27. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.
28. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot. She was hot! I had the biggest crush on her when I was in Jr. High. I would have given my left nut to be with her.
29. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
30. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool...and don't even flinch when people refer to them as 'NKOTB' I won't comment on this one.
31. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on 'Saved By The Bell,' The ORIGINAL class.
32. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
33. You just sang those words to yourself.
34. You still sing 'We are the World'
35. You tight rolled your jeans. We didn't tight roll our jeans like pictured here. Instead we used safety pins to get the jeans tight around the ankles and have a crease go up your leg.
36. You owned a bannana clip.
37. You remember 'Where's the Beef?'
38. You used to (and probably still do)
say 'What you talkin' 'bout Willis?'
39. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head, aren't you!
You Know You Grew Up In the 80's if:
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.
2. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton
3. You know that 'WOAH' comes from Joey on Blossom
4. If you ever watched 'Fraggle Rock'
5. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
6. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
7. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. One of the greatest computer games EVER!
8. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
9. You played the game 'MASH'(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
10. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it. I totally rocked the stonewashed look. Had two jean jackets. 1 stonewashed and the other was washed in bleach.
11. You know the profound meaning of ' WAX ON , WAX OFF'
12. You wanted to be a Goonie.
13. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)
14. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.
15. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
16. You took lunch boxes to school...and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard.
17. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
18. You still get the urge to say 'NOT' after every sentence.
19. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
21. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.
22. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying 'I know you are, but what am I?'
23. You remember 'I've fallen and I can't get up'
24. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
25. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
26. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.
27. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.
28. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot. She was hot! I had the biggest crush on her when I was in Jr. High. I would have given my left nut to be with her.
29. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
30. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool...and don't even flinch when people refer to them as 'NKOTB' I won't comment on this one.
31. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on 'Saved By The Bell,' The ORIGINAL class.
32. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
33. You just sang those words to yourself.
34. You still sing 'We are the World'
35. You tight rolled your jeans. We didn't tight roll our jeans like pictured here. Instead we used safety pins to get the jeans tight around the ankles and have a crease go up your leg.
36. You owned a bannana clip.
37. You remember 'Where's the Beef?'
38. You used to (and probably still do)
say 'What you talkin' 'bout Willis?'
39. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head, aren't you!
Saturday, October 27, 2007
I passed!!
That's right folks. Back in Aug. I wrote ever so briefly about taking a promotional test for my job. Well guess what? I PASSED!!! I just got the notice in the mail today. I didn't do as good as I did last year (I was ranked 18) but I still passed (22 this year). So that means that my temporary position that I'm in now will become permanent in the coming months. Pay raise here I come!
So if you don't mind SR has something sexy planned to celebrate. :D
So if you don't mind SR has something sexy planned to celebrate. :D
Friday, October 26, 2007
In the spirit of RS's 'what I learned this week' I decided that I just had to put this one up. Mom gives 4 month old bottle with whiskey.
Honestly I just don't know what to say about this. I've heard of rubbing a little whiskey on a baby's gums when they are teething. But to give them a bottle with whiskey in it completely different. Let's not forget the fact that this is no longer the 50's. There is medicine to use now that wasn't available for teething babies in the "old" days. Just amazing.
Honestly I just don't know what to say about this. I've heard of rubbing a little whiskey on a baby's gums when they are teething. But to give them a bottle with whiskey in it completely different. Let's not forget the fact that this is no longer the 50's. There is medicine to use now that wasn't available for teething babies in the "old" days. Just amazing.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Still around
Well I am still around. Just not nearly as much as I'd like to be. This is really getting pathetic actually. I haven't posted a thing since the 16th!! What the hell is up with that? Is my life really that boreing? Please don't answer that. I already know the answer is yes.The fact is nothing much has been going on that has really been blog worthy. Youngest son turned 7 last Fri. We had his birthday dinner with my parents on Sat. evening. HJe has 2 $20 gift cards for Walmart and you'd think that he has Hilton money now. He's going to buy the entire store out.
Duck season also started on Sat. morning. I didn;t hunt on opening day though. I was getting things ready for that evening. My dad and I did go out on Sun. morning though. We had a good day. Came home with a few birds, took a few pictures and shot some hunting footage. We are both recording our duck hunts this year. I even got to shoot a bird when my dad was taking movies of the decoys. Can'twait to see it. Too bad at was a "real" duck. It's going to take all year if not next season as well to live this down. I'm so ashamed of myself. Below are 2 of the pictures I took on Sun. morning.
Sun. was a hard day to get through towards the end. I didn't get any sleep on Sat. night. My work phone kept ringing every time I tried to fall asleep. People calling in sick or tug boats wanting after hours openings. So finally at about 10:30 I told work not to call me again because I was supposed to get up at 1 in the morning. So that put a stop to that. Then after the last phone call Summer asked me if I "needed some help getting to sleep". That's code for she wants 'The Sex'. So me not being the type of person that turns down a woman in need got to take my sleeping aid. We both went to sleep happy. Then it was up 2 hours later to drive 100 miles each way then back in time to go to work that evening. I LOVE this time of year! DUCK SEASON IS OPEN!!!!!!!!!!
So at the very least this means that I'll be posting my sunrise pictures every week.
Duck season also started on Sat. morning. I didn;t hunt on opening day though. I was getting things ready for that evening. My dad and I did go out on Sun. morning though. We had a good day. Came home with a few birds, took a few pictures and shot some hunting footage. We are both recording our duck hunts this year. I even got to shoot a bird when my dad was taking movies of the decoys. Can'twait to see it. Too bad at was a "real" duck. It's going to take all year if not next season as well to live this down. I'm so ashamed of myself. Below are 2 of the pictures I took on Sun. morning.
Sun. was a hard day to get through towards the end. I didn't get any sleep on Sat. night. My work phone kept ringing every time I tried to fall asleep. People calling in sick or tug boats wanting after hours openings. So finally at about 10:30 I told work not to call me again because I was supposed to get up at 1 in the morning. So that put a stop to that. Then after the last phone call Summer asked me if I "needed some help getting to sleep". That's code for she wants 'The Sex'. So me not being the type of person that turns down a woman in need got to take my sleeping aid. We both went to sleep happy. Then it was up 2 hours later to drive 100 miles each way then back in time to go to work that evening. I LOVE this time of year! DUCK SEASON IS OPEN!!!!!!!!!!
So at the very least this means that I'll be posting my sunrise pictures every week.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Where to start?
Last week at work I was talking to one of the guys that ones a ferry I'm in charge of. He told about a situation that he is going through with his wife. It brought back a lot of memories for me. He and his wife are going through the same thin g that Summer and I did a few years ago. He intercepted a call from a guy that hung up when he answered. So he checked the caller ID. There were a lot of calls from the same person. He checked the caller ID on the upstairs phone and all calls from the guy were deleted. He looked at the cell phone bill and found that in a 1 month period she called the guy over 200 times. All of the calls coincided with the times that he left the house to go to work. He would leave and the first call would be made less than 5 minutes later. Sounds really familiar with what happened with us. The other thing is that our "guy" was a firefighter, and his is a policeman. So he'd done the same thing that I did. Went and looked at all the phone bills for a few months. The amount of calls is unbelievable.So he went a step further than I did and kicked her out of the house. So now he's living in a 5 bedroom home all alone.
Well to say the least it brought back a few memories. I told him about what Summer and I went through and just listened to him. He's not sure if he can trust her again and asked how I was able to trust Summer again. I didn't really have an answer. It just takes time. Our situation wasn't exactly the same, just eerily similar. So yesterday while I was downtown I happened to see his wife out in front of a bar getting touchy feely with a guy at the entrance. I have met his wife a few times and am 99% sure that it was her. So as someone that he has confided in about the situation should I tell him this? Or should I just keep quiet? I'm not sure what to do especially since she's not staying at the house anymore. Any thoughts?
In other news youngest son returned home on Fri. We drove to S.F. to get him and he was happy to be coming home. We had a good time driving home and went to see my parents after dinner. He hadn't seen them in 6 weeks. It was nice to have him home. But nothing really changed. We are just sitting here waiting for them to get the recommendation written up and sent to Kaiser. Then we will go from there to see what the next step is.
Well it's time to try to catch up on some reading. I've been negligent in that aspect as well as the posting aspect.
Last week at work I was talking to one of the guys that ones a ferry I'm in charge of. He told about a situation that he is going through with his wife. It brought back a lot of memories for me. He and his wife are going through the same thin g that Summer and I did a few years ago. He intercepted a call from a guy that hung up when he answered. So he checked the caller ID. There were a lot of calls from the same person. He checked the caller ID on the upstairs phone and all calls from the guy were deleted. He looked at the cell phone bill and found that in a 1 month period she called the guy over 200 times. All of the calls coincided with the times that he left the house to go to work. He would leave and the first call would be made less than 5 minutes later. Sounds really familiar with what happened with us. The other thing is that our "guy" was a firefighter, and his is a policeman. So he'd done the same thing that I did. Went and looked at all the phone bills for a few months. The amount of calls is unbelievable.So he went a step further than I did and kicked her out of the house. So now he's living in a 5 bedroom home all alone.
Well to say the least it brought back a few memories. I told him about what Summer and I went through and just listened to him. He's not sure if he can trust her again and asked how I was able to trust Summer again. I didn't really have an answer. It just takes time. Our situation wasn't exactly the same, just eerily similar. So yesterday while I was downtown I happened to see his wife out in front of a bar getting touchy feely with a guy at the entrance. I have met his wife a few times and am 99% sure that it was her. So as someone that he has confided in about the situation should I tell him this? Or should I just keep quiet? I'm not sure what to do especially since she's not staying at the house anymore. Any thoughts?
In other news youngest son returned home on Fri. We drove to S.F. to get him and he was happy to be coming home. We had a good time driving home and went to see my parents after dinner. He hadn't seen them in 6 weeks. It was nice to have him home. But nothing really changed. We are just sitting here waiting for them to get the recommendation written up and sent to Kaiser. Then we will go from there to see what the next step is.
Well it's time to try to catch up on some reading. I've been negligent in that aspect as well as the posting aspect.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Without really meaning to I guess that I did make my last post the last one for awhile. When I said that it was more out of frustration than anything else. It's just been one hell of a week around here. We dropped youngest off in S.F. last Mon. That was an experience unto itself. Afterwards Summer and I went out to lunch and walked on the beach. Then it was off to SFO to pick up my parents on their way home from their vacation.
Then Wed. we went to my aunts funeral. My family really needs to try to set up a reunion some time. I saw people that I haven't seen in years. The only time my dads side of the family gets together anymore is for funerals. When we got home that night I started yet another blog. This one is for family. To keep everyone up to date on how things are going for us. So that has been taking some time.
I finished scanning all of my parents old photos and am now starting to scan my grandmas. I've also started to create my first DVD. Talk about a pain in the ass. It's going to be a lot more work than I originally thought. Silly me. DVD's are a lot of work!
Went back to S.F. on Fri. to meet with the therapist and visit our son. It's amazing to me how some people think changing jobs or work schedules is as easy as snapping your fingers. We were told that because of our work schedules that we are basically raising our kids as if we were single parents. DUH! So the therapist told me that I should go back to working day shift and things will get better. A lot easier said than done. To go back to my old schedule would give me a pay cut that I can't afford. Then I would have to go back to my old crew and boss that I don't get along with. Then it will cut down my chances of permanent promotion down to nothing. So she suggested that I get a new job entirely. Honestly where do these people live? What fantasy world is it that easy to just find a new job? Like IO said summer of 2006 I was offered a job that would be doing the same as I'm doing now, would pay me twice what I make now, but I would be home less than I am now. I would work 10-13 hours a day 6-7 days a week. I would also work all over the state and sometimes go into Nevada. So I would live in a hotel when I wasn't at home. how easy would that make things? To live in her fantasy world would be wonderful.
We go back to see him tomorrow and then again on Fri. When we see him on Fri. we get to bring him home with us. It'll be nice to have him back. As quiet as it has been here we really miss him. The past week without him has been kinda nice in it's own way to. We were able to clean the house and it stayed clean. We have been able to focus more attention on our Oldest son this past week and that has been nice too. We finally had his 13th birthday party. Just a few weeks late.
That's going to be about all for now. I have to get ready for another IEP meeting this afternoon.
Then Wed. we went to my aunts funeral. My family really needs to try to set up a reunion some time. I saw people that I haven't seen in years. The only time my dads side of the family gets together anymore is for funerals. When we got home that night I started yet another blog. This one is for family. To keep everyone up to date on how things are going for us. So that has been taking some time.
I finished scanning all of my parents old photos and am now starting to scan my grandmas. I've also started to create my first DVD. Talk about a pain in the ass. It's going to be a lot more work than I originally thought. Silly me. DVD's are a lot of work!
Went back to S.F. on Fri. to meet with the therapist and visit our son. It's amazing to me how some people think changing jobs or work schedules is as easy as snapping your fingers. We were told that because of our work schedules that we are basically raising our kids as if we were single parents. DUH! So the therapist told me that I should go back to working day shift and things will get better. A lot easier said than done. To go back to my old schedule would give me a pay cut that I can't afford. Then I would have to go back to my old crew and boss that I don't get along with. Then it will cut down my chances of permanent promotion down to nothing. So she suggested that I get a new job entirely. Honestly where do these people live? What fantasy world is it that easy to just find a new job? Like IO said summer of 2006 I was offered a job that would be doing the same as I'm doing now, would pay me twice what I make now, but I would be home less than I am now. I would work 10-13 hours a day 6-7 days a week. I would also work all over the state and sometimes go into Nevada. So I would live in a hotel when I wasn't at home. how easy would that make things? To live in her fantasy world would be wonderful.
We go back to see him tomorrow and then again on Fri. When we see him on Fri. we get to bring him home with us. It'll be nice to have him back. As quiet as it has been here we really miss him. The past week without him has been kinda nice in it's own way to. We were able to clean the house and it stayed clean. We have been able to focus more attention on our Oldest son this past week and that has been nice too. We finally had his 13th birthday party. Just a few weeks late.
That's going to be about all for now. I have to get ready for another IEP meeting this afternoon.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Well as suspected last nights post didn't go over to well. It was taken compeltely out of context. which further solidifies to me why I need to censor myself on what I fell, think, and write about on my little tiny niche in the blogoshere. I must continue to just keep things inside and that way it won't be taken out of context. If it don't get written then no one knows about it but me. I've lived my life for over 30 years that way. Why stop living it now?
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Danger Will Roberson! Danger!
Or however it is that the saying from that Lost in Space show goes. To be more accurate it should read: Danger blog readers! Danger!
This isn't going to be a very upbeat post I can guarantee that right off the bat. I'm just in a very shitty mood right now. Very, very shitty mood. I cannot express how shitty I am feeling right now.
To start off with We finally have a date that our youngest son will be going to the 2 week evaluation that we were promised back in May. We received a call on Fri. afternoon from his Kaiser therapist saying that the Edgewood Center in San Francisco will have a bed ready for him on Oct. 1. So it went from a few months of nothing to he'll be leaving in a week. So I called the center yesterday and got a list of things that they need to have done this week before he can go there. Which left SR running all over the place tonight trying to rush through physicals and TB tests. We also now have to go buy him new clothes this weekend because he don't have clothes that are appropriate to wear in S.F. We were going to get his winter clothes for his birthday next month. Now we need them this weekend.
We are in such a rush anymore. For everything. The stress is getting unbearable. We have been letting everything slide lately. The house looks like shit right now. We're behind on laundry, my parents come home from their trip on Mon. afternoon so they won't even be able to see youngest until he comes home. We need to do a ton of housework next week so that we can have oldest son's birthday thingy on Sat. night. We wanted to have a combined birthday party for both boys but that won't be happening now. Youngest is going to miss his brothers birthday too.
To top off all the other crap that we have to do next week my sister called me this afternoon when I got to work and told me that our aunt died this morning. So I will be going to the viewing on Tue. evening and the funeral services on Wed. afternoon. This will be an easier funeral to go too this time though. Summer is going to be able to attend this one with me seeing as youngest will be in S.F. at the time. We just need to decide whether oldest will be going with us or staying home with his Great Grandma. We really don't want to take him out of school. But he also should be around the family as well. It may be the only time he sees some of the relatives at this point.
I know that I wrote a warning in the beginning of this post, but I just can't seem to let myself write what I was warning about. I don't want to revert to what I used to be. Then again if I don't write it out I'll end up keeping it all inside and that will just make it worse. It basically boils down to this: I'm tired of the double standards. I'm tired of be asked to things that are not done for me in return. I have a job too. I am also in a managerial position so I need to set an example. The thing is that when I ask and am turned down I am to just accept it and go on about my day. When I am asked to do the same thing but say that I can't leave work I get an attitude and am treated like I don't care. I do care. The thing is if I run to take care of things every time I'm asked to it is just going to solidify to the kids that they don't have to listen to certain people. They only have to listen to me and that's it. Boundaries need to be set and they need to be enforced. STRONGLY enforced. The parent needs to stick by what they say. I they say NO then it must mean NO. When it comes out any different the child quickly learns that NO actually means no until you get tired of saying no then it will be a yes. Does that make sense? Or am I just talking out of my ass here. Maybe I just don't know a dammed thing.
It's a dammed good thing that I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I haven't seen him since May. With all the other crap that we have had going on I haven't had time to get in to see him. Maybe I'll feel a hell of a lot better tomorrow. that is if I actually open up to him and don't just keep things on the surface. I need to get down inside.
All I can really say right now is that I can't wait for Oct. 20 to get here.
This isn't going to be a very upbeat post I can guarantee that right off the bat. I'm just in a very shitty mood right now. Very, very shitty mood. I cannot express how shitty I am feeling right now.
To start off with We finally have a date that our youngest son will be going to the 2 week evaluation that we were promised back in May. We received a call on Fri. afternoon from his Kaiser therapist saying that the Edgewood Center in San Francisco will have a bed ready for him on Oct. 1. So it went from a few months of nothing to he'll be leaving in a week. So I called the center yesterday and got a list of things that they need to have done this week before he can go there. Which left SR running all over the place tonight trying to rush through physicals and TB tests. We also now have to go buy him new clothes this weekend because he don't have clothes that are appropriate to wear in S.F. We were going to get his winter clothes for his birthday next month. Now we need them this weekend.
We are in such a rush anymore. For everything. The stress is getting unbearable. We have been letting everything slide lately. The house looks like shit right now. We're behind on laundry, my parents come home from their trip on Mon. afternoon so they won't even be able to see youngest until he comes home. We need to do a ton of housework next week so that we can have oldest son's birthday thingy on Sat. night. We wanted to have a combined birthday party for both boys but that won't be happening now. Youngest is going to miss his brothers birthday too.
To top off all the other crap that we have to do next week my sister called me this afternoon when I got to work and told me that our aunt died this morning. So I will be going to the viewing on Tue. evening and the funeral services on Wed. afternoon. This will be an easier funeral to go too this time though. Summer is going to be able to attend this one with me seeing as youngest will be in S.F. at the time. We just need to decide whether oldest will be going with us or staying home with his Great Grandma. We really don't want to take him out of school. But he also should be around the family as well. It may be the only time he sees some of the relatives at this point.
I know that I wrote a warning in the beginning of this post, but I just can't seem to let myself write what I was warning about. I don't want to revert to what I used to be. Then again if I don't write it out I'll end up keeping it all inside and that will just make it worse. It basically boils down to this: I'm tired of the double standards. I'm tired of be asked to things that are not done for me in return. I have a job too. I am also in a managerial position so I need to set an example. The thing is that when I ask and am turned down I am to just accept it and go on about my day. When I am asked to do the same thing but say that I can't leave work I get an attitude and am treated like I don't care. I do care. The thing is if I run to take care of things every time I'm asked to it is just going to solidify to the kids that they don't have to listen to certain people. They only have to listen to me and that's it. Boundaries need to be set and they need to be enforced. STRONGLY enforced. The parent needs to stick by what they say. I they say NO then it must mean NO. When it comes out any different the child quickly learns that NO actually means no until you get tired of saying no then it will be a yes. Does that make sense? Or am I just talking out of my ass here. Maybe I just don't know a dammed thing.
It's a dammed good thing that I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I haven't seen him since May. With all the other crap that we have had going on I haven't had time to get in to see him. Maybe I'll feel a hell of a lot better tomorrow. that is if I actually open up to him and don't just keep things on the surface. I need to get down inside.
All I can really say right now is that I can't wait for Oct. 20 to get here.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Busy, busy, busy...........
........with just a smidgen of laziness in there for good measure.
I've been quite busy lately with work, family matters, doctor appointments (sometimes two a week), personal projects that I have decided to start on, and IEP meetings. I have also pretty much cut my blogging time at work down to nothing. Reading some comments on a few blogs has pretty much scared me away from that. For the short term anyways.
I was actually dumb enough to think that once both boys were in school I'd be able to spend more time blogging during my alone time at home. What a silly thought that was. When you don't get home till after midnight, don't fall asleep till almost 2, then get up to help get kids ready for school at 6:45 it leaves you pretty tired. So I'm back in bed when oldest leaves the house. Then get up around noon and the day is pretty much shot. I really need to do something about this.
So youngest is now back in school. He likes it and seems to be doing good there. He's also seeing a therapist through the county now once a week. She has suggested to me that I don't take him hunting at all this year (a little too late for that since he went dove hunting with me, but no more this year), that we don't let him watch any hunting shows on TV and that we don't let him watch any of my hunting movies. So what that means for me is that I'm not allowed to watch hunting movies or TV either when he is at home.Kinda REALLY SUCKS! So the TV hasn't been on much lately when he's at home since that is usually what is on if the TV is on.
In other news oldest going to be a teenager on Thu. I can't believe it. I'm really getting old. I'm in my early thirties and have a teenager. How did this happen? You don't need to answer that. :D I said that to my mom the other day (the not being old enough to have a teenager) and she told me to shut up. SHE wasn't old enough to be a grandparent to a teenager. Add to that the fact that she didn't have a say in the matter either. So I guess that means I need to look elsewhere for my pity parties. :D
Strangely enough oldest son really don't seem too excited about becoming a teenager. I know I was all excited about it. He just wants to know when we will be celebrating it this year since my parents are over seas right now. They are on a Trans Atlantic cruise. They flew to London on Tue. spent4 days there, then got on a ship Sat. morning in Dover and are cruising to New York. Then they will stay in NYC for 4 days and fly home around Oct. 2 I believe. Must be nice to be retired.
As to my personal project that I have been working on, I have started to bring home my parents photo albums from when the got married up to just a few years ago. I have been going through them and scanning the photos that I want to have and trying to restore them as best I can. Some of them are pretty faded. Especially the ones that don't say Kodak on the back. The ones that are printed on Kodak paper aren't faded. It's really weird seeing myself like I used to be. I looked like such a dork back in the late 80's. I also brought back a lot of memories as well. Especially the Christmas photos. I saw a photo taken Christmas of 78 when I received my most remembered toy. It was a Sho Gun Warrior. It had rockets that shot from it's chest and a fist that when you pushed a button would fly into the air. I loved that toy. Didn't it look so cool?!
So for the rest of this post I will just add some of the pictures that I scanned and leave a brief description of what is being looked at.
This would be me about 1977-8. not sure which. We had just got back from a camping trip to Lake Shasta. I cought both of these fish. One is a German Brown and the other is a Small Mouth Bass.
My sister and I in 1979. It was Easter Sunday. My aunt made that shirt for me. It was my favorite shirt.
This one of those pictures taken that serve no purpose except to embarrass the subject. Pay attention Therese! My family was out for a walk and I needed to go use the bushes. So what does my dad do? He takes this picture and tells me that he is going to show it to my girlfriends when I get older. He does just that too. Why? To embarrass the child! It is a parents right to do just that. Especially after all the embarrassment they cause you. More on that later though.
As I said earlier- I was a dork in the late 80's. Here I am at Crater Lake in 1988. Shudder.
MY freshman year of High School. It was spirit week and this day was 60's day. So I dressed like a hippie.
This is at my grandparents 69th wedding anniversary. In the picture are my grandparents and about half of their grandchildren. Unfortunately the person mentioned here
is also pictured. This is the only picture that my mom hasn't photo shopped him out of. She wasn't able to do that with this picture because it would take others out as well.
Ah yes. 1993. I was 19 years old. Living on my own. Don't you just love the hair? I was going for the Jason Newstead look. Shaved sides, long everywhere else. This was taken about 3 weeks before I met Summer.
One last picture. This would be Summer and I the day we got engaged. Weren't we cute?
I've been quite busy lately with work, family matters, doctor appointments (sometimes two a week), personal projects that I have decided to start on, and IEP meetings. I have also pretty much cut my blogging time at work down to nothing. Reading some comments on a few blogs has pretty much scared me away from that. For the short term anyways.
I was actually dumb enough to think that once both boys were in school I'd be able to spend more time blogging during my alone time at home. What a silly thought that was. When you don't get home till after midnight, don't fall asleep till almost 2, then get up to help get kids ready for school at 6:45 it leaves you pretty tired. So I'm back in bed when oldest leaves the house. Then get up around noon and the day is pretty much shot. I really need to do something about this.
So youngest is now back in school. He likes it and seems to be doing good there. He's also seeing a therapist through the county now once a week. She has suggested to me that I don't take him hunting at all this year (a little too late for that since he went dove hunting with me, but no more this year), that we don't let him watch any hunting shows on TV and that we don't let him watch any of my hunting movies. So what that means for me is that I'm not allowed to watch hunting movies or TV either when he is at home.
In other news oldest going to be a teenager on Thu. I can't believe it. I'm really getting old. I'm in my early thirties and have a teenager. How did this happen? You don't need to answer that. :D I said that to my mom the other day (the not being old enough to have a teenager) and she told me to shut up. SHE wasn't old enough to be a grandparent to a teenager. Add to that the fact that she didn't have a say in the matter either. So I guess that means I need to look elsewhere for my pity parties. :D
Strangely enough oldest son really don't seem too excited about becoming a teenager. I know I was all excited about it. He just wants to know when we will be celebrating it this year since my parents are over seas right now. They are on a Trans Atlantic cruise. They flew to London on Tue. spent4 days there, then got on a ship Sat. morning in Dover and are cruising to New York. Then they will stay in NYC for 4 days and fly home around Oct. 2 I believe. Must be nice to be retired.
As to my personal project that I have been working on, I have started to bring home my parents photo albums from when the got married up to just a few years ago. I have been going through them and scanning the photos that I want to have and trying to restore them as best I can. Some of them are pretty faded. Especially the ones that don't say Kodak on the back. The ones that are printed on Kodak paper aren't faded. It's really weird seeing myself like I used to be. I looked like such a dork back in the late 80's. I also brought back a lot of memories as well. Especially the Christmas photos. I saw a photo taken Christmas of 78 when I received my most remembered toy. It was a Sho Gun Warrior. It had rockets that shot from it's chest and a fist that when you pushed a button would fly into the air. I loved that toy. Didn't it look so cool?!So for the rest of this post I will just add some of the pictures that I scanned and leave a brief description of what is being looked at.
This would be me about 1977-8. not sure which. We had just got back from a camping trip to Lake Shasta. I cought both of these fish. One is a German Brown and the other is a Small Mouth Bass.
My sister and I in 1979. It was Easter Sunday. My aunt made that shirt for me. It was my favorite shirt.This one of those pictures taken that serve no purpose except to embarrass the subject. Pay attention Therese! My family was out for a walk and I needed to go use the bushes. So what does my dad do? He takes this picture and tells me that he is going to show it to my girlfriends when I get older. He does just that too. Why? To embarrass the child! It is a parents right to do just that. Especially after all the embarrassment they cause you. More on that later though.
As I said earlier- I was a dork in the late 80's. Here I am at Crater Lake in 1988. Shudder.MY freshman year of High School. It was spirit week and this day was 60's day. So I dressed like a hippie.
This is at my grandparents 69th wedding anniversary. In the picture are my grandparents and about half of their grandchildren. Unfortunately the person mentioned here is also pictured. This is the only picture that my mom hasn't photo shopped him out of. She wasn't able to do that with this picture because it would take others out as well.
Ah yes. 1993. I was 19 years old. Living on my own. Don't you just love the hair? I was going for the Jason Newstead look. Shaved sides, long everywhere else. This was taken about 3 weeks before I met Summer.
One last picture. This would be Summer and I the day we got engaged. Weren't we cute?
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Sate Fair!
Sat. was the day that we all went to the California state fair. I had been looking forward to this years fair for quite some time. It's usually a yearly thing that we got to. But last year we went to Tahoe for vacation instead. This year almost didn't happen due to finances but we made it. as a great time. Went and saw all the cool exhibits, the animals, the side shows, the crazy people riding the insane rides, ate fair food, and the most important feature of the fair was people watching. Or to be more accurate stomach watching. :D
The day went pretty well. We only had one small outburst from youngest son because we wouldn't buy him a toy. We told him before hand not to ask for a toy because we were on a tight budget. So what does he do? He asks for a t-o-y every few minutes. Hey he didn't say toy, he spelled it. What are you gonna do? Well what we were supposed to do. We told him n-o. He threw a tantrum, hit and kicked me, I got flustered and and got him with my foot after being kicked 7 too many times. He looked at me asked why I did that, I told him and he settled down. Asked for dinner and things were fine afterwards. All in all though he did pretty dam good for as long as we were there. We left the house shortly after 11:30 and didn't leave the fair till after 10:00. It was close to midnight by the time we got home.
Some highlights of the day:
Some low points of the day:
That's it for the fair review. One last thing to add though. When did the mow hawk come back into style? I saw no fewer than 6 kids under the age of 12 with this out of date hair style. What's up with that?
So to end I'll show a few photos of the day of fun.
The day went pretty well. We only had one small outburst from youngest son because we wouldn't buy him a toy. We told him before hand not to ask for a toy because we were on a tight budget. So what does he do? He asks for a t-o-y every few minutes. Hey he didn't say toy, he spelled it. What are you gonna do? Well what we were supposed to do. We told him n-o. He threw a tantrum, hit and kicked me, I got flustered and and got him with my foot after being kicked 7 too many times. He looked at me asked why I did that, I told him and he settled down. Asked for dinner and things were fine afterwards. All in all though he did pretty dam good for as long as we were there. We left the house shortly after 11:30 and didn't leave the fair till after 10:00. It was close to midnight by the time we got home.
Some highlights of the day:
- Spending the day with family. Always a plus.
- Seeing the Toytopia exhibit. That was pretty dam cool. Got to see tons of toys that I used to play with as a kid back in the late 70's early 80's. Amazingly enough quite a few of the toys were still in the original packages. Even after 30 years.
- Watching the Extreme Super Bike stunt riders. That was simply awesome. I was surprised by how many pictures I took while watching the 12 minute show. Close to 60 pictures and 3 short videos. (I'm testing out the new Google video feature for Blogger and posting a 19 second clip here.)
Some low points of the day:
- The heat! It was just over 100 degrees on Sat. It was hot. It wasn't as hot as it was for some of the days I've attended in years past though.
- The temper tantrum of youngest son. Enough said.
- The cost of food. Un-freaking-believable! Good Lord! we spent 30 bucks just for 3 sandwiches and a thing of fries for Summer, CH Jr. and myself. That don't include the popcorn, lemonades, smoothies, corn dog, slice of pizza, funnel cake and ice cream cone. At least the water was free. There was no way in hell I was going to buy a beer. A 10 ounce cup cost as much as a six pack.
- I know I'm probably going to take a ration of shit for this one, but it can't be helped. The funnel cake was a major disappointment. After reading all the reviews for the funnel cake on a few blogs and from from all the comments on those blogs that was my sole purpose for attending this years fair. After hearing about it's "gooey goodness" I just had to have one. It was alright but not worth all the hype I was giving it. It definitely wasn't worth the $5.50 I paid for it. That was for plain powdered sugar. If I wanted fruit toppings, or whipped cream it was an extra dollar per topping. Maybe I built it up to much. I don't know. I do know I will NOT be buying another one in the future.
- I was unable to afford a deep fried Twinkie. I have been wanting one of those for years. But youngest ended up getting his toy after we were done buying food for the day. Oh well. I probably would have been disappointed anyways.
That's it for the fair review. One last thing to add though. When did the mow hawk come back into style? I saw no fewer than 6 kids under the age of 12 with this out of date hair style. What's up with that?
So to end I'll show a few photos of the day of fun.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Tagged
A little over a week ago Digger tagged me over at his WordPress page. Me being the bad person that I am took way too long to get to it. So here goes. Let's see what we can come up with.
1. Blogger who is most like me: I'm not sure if there really is a blogger out there that I read that is like me. I'm a unique sort of guy. :D Truthfully There probably is a few bloggers out there that are like me but they just don't seem to be in the "circle" of blogs that I seem to read. But the blogger that comes to mind is RS. The reason that I say he is the most like me is because he was able to take his marriage from the edge of disaster and save it. So we do have that in common.
2. Blogger I read who is LEAST like me. this one is going to be a little bit easier for me to answer. Thing is there are quite a few bloggers in my "circle" that are total opposites of me. I'll go ahead and go out on a limb here and say that Christian Husband gets this nomination. I think it's for pretty obvious reasons for people that are familiar with the two of us.
3. Name 3 bloggers of the same sex you’d like to have drinks with. This is going to be another tough one to pin down. There are more than three male bloggers out there that I'd like to have drinks with. In the spirit of keeping this tag the way Digger intended it to go I'll go ahead and not nominate a blogger that has already been linked to in this post. Fist on that list would be LBP. Here is a man that shares the same passion that I do for the outdoors. He has a love for hunting and fishing. Need I say more? I'd like to spend more time with LBP than just drinks would allow. Here is a blogger that I'd like to spend some time in the field with.
Next on the drinks list would be FTN. Here is a blogger that has a great sense of humor. He also has an uncanny way of getting tons of comments. I'd like to get just half of his comments. The comments isn't why I'd like to hang out with him though. With FTN it's about his humor and his ability to have male friendships. I could learn from him.
Rounding off the 3 bloggers would be Mr. Husbland. he don't blog much anymore now that he has the addition of a baby to his household.he's another blogger that likes the outdoors. Hunting and camping.
4. Name 3 bloggers of the opposite sex you’d like to share a hot tub with. Now this is a really hard one. :-) Man I kill myself.
How am I supposed to answer this one and stay in good standings with my wife? The last thing I need is to be kicked to the couch at night. Especially with our couch. It's not the most comfortable one. First off though I'll have to say that having someone in the hot tub with a Kick Ass Rack!! is a must. this is a lady that has it all. The BOOBS!! (tm), the red hair, the florescent green finger nail polish and an excellent way with words. how could a hot tub party be complete with out her?
Therese in Heaven is the next lady that I'd like to invite. We could go over the basics of why it is important to save certain stories to tell about kids as they get older. Like brushing their teeth with lube. That is almost a requirement to tell when he gets older. Especially when he has children of his own.
And to keep me in good standings with my wife Summer Rose will be there as well. After Therese and Fadkog leave the fun will really begin in the hot tub. ;-)
5. Which blogger would you vote for in a political campaign? This is a hard one. It may even be the one where I re-link someone from a previous question. FADKOG just had a way with words. She can take the things that most people would think are boring and make it very interesting. She would be a perfect politician. I find nothing to be more boring than politics. With her in the running I'd actually be recording the talks just to hear what she would have to say. She is that good.
6. You are thrown into a dimension where you can read one, and only one, blog. Which one is it? This one is just to hard to answer. I don't think I could get by with just one blog. At the time that Digger first tagged me I had this one answered very easy. Unfortunately things happened and the blog that I was going to put here has gone dark. Finished Last was going to be the one blog that I would have to have with me. He had a way of getting you hooked. Leaving you with cliff hangers that had you chomping at the bit for the next installment. Sadly though he was discovered by a friend IRL and had to shut down his blog. If you are still reading blogs Mr. Nice Guy you are going to be missed.
7. Which blogger is living a life you think YOU might like to be living. There is no one single blogger out there that has a "perfect" life that I would want to live. Where everything they do I say 'Wow! I wish that was me doing everything they do.' The one person that has a facet of life that I'd like to be living right now though would be 2 am somewhere. I don't want anything to do with his marital situation, or his sex life (I don't know a sane person that would want that). But he is in a situation that I would LOVE to be in though. He is in the process of looking for a new job now. Has been for quite some time now. Recently he has had several job offers made to him. So many in fact that he has the opportunity to turn jobs down. That would be a dram come true for me.
Tag three people and you’re on your way! I'll go ahead and tag: Tajlude, Desperate Husband (just because I know you are looking for things to write), and aphron that is of course if you are still blogging.
1. Blogger who is most like me: I'm not sure if there really is a blogger out there that I read that is like me. I'm a unique sort of guy. :D Truthfully There probably is a few bloggers out there that are like me but they just don't seem to be in the "circle" of blogs that I seem to read. But the blogger that comes to mind is RS. The reason that I say he is the most like me is because he was able to take his marriage from the edge of disaster and save it. So we do have that in common.
2. Blogger I read who is LEAST like me. this one is going to be a little bit easier for me to answer. Thing is there are quite a few bloggers in my "circle" that are total opposites of me. I'll go ahead and go out on a limb here and say that Christian Husband gets this nomination. I think it's for pretty obvious reasons for people that are familiar with the two of us.
3. Name 3 bloggers of the same sex you’d like to have drinks with. This is going to be another tough one to pin down. There are more than three male bloggers out there that I'd like to have drinks with. In the spirit of keeping this tag the way Digger intended it to go I'll go ahead and not nominate a blogger that has already been linked to in this post. Fist on that list would be LBP. Here is a man that shares the same passion that I do for the outdoors. He has a love for hunting and fishing. Need I say more? I'd like to spend more time with LBP than just drinks would allow. Here is a blogger that I'd like to spend some time in the field with.
Next on the drinks list would be FTN. Here is a blogger that has a great sense of humor. He also has an uncanny way of getting tons of comments. I'd like to get just half of his comments. The comments isn't why I'd like to hang out with him though. With FTN it's about his humor and his ability to have male friendships. I could learn from him.
Rounding off the 3 bloggers would be Mr. Husbland. he don't blog much anymore now that he has the addition of a baby to his household.he's another blogger that likes the outdoors. Hunting and camping.
4. Name 3 bloggers of the opposite sex you’d like to share a hot tub with. Now this is a really hard one. :-) Man I kill myself.
How am I supposed to answer this one and stay in good standings with my wife? The last thing I need is to be kicked to the couch at night. Especially with our couch. It's not the most comfortable one. First off though I'll have to say that having someone in the hot tub with a Kick Ass Rack!! is a must. this is a lady that has it all. The BOOBS!! (tm), the red hair, the florescent green finger nail polish and an excellent way with words. how could a hot tub party be complete with out her?
Therese in Heaven is the next lady that I'd like to invite. We could go over the basics of why it is important to save certain stories to tell about kids as they get older. Like brushing their teeth with lube. That is almost a requirement to tell when he gets older. Especially when he has children of his own.
And to keep me in good standings with my wife Summer Rose will be there as well. After Therese and Fadkog leave the fun will really begin in the hot tub. ;-)
5. Which blogger would you vote for in a political campaign? This is a hard one. It may even be the one where I re-link someone from a previous question. FADKOG just had a way with words. She can take the things that most people would think are boring and make it very interesting. She would be a perfect politician. I find nothing to be more boring than politics. With her in the running I'd actually be recording the talks just to hear what she would have to say. She is that good.
6. You are thrown into a dimension where you can read one, and only one, blog. Which one is it? This one is just to hard to answer. I don't think I could get by with just one blog. At the time that Digger first tagged me I had this one answered very easy. Unfortunately things happened and the blog that I was going to put here has gone dark. Finished Last was going to be the one blog that I would have to have with me. He had a way of getting you hooked. Leaving you with cliff hangers that had you chomping at the bit for the next installment. Sadly though he was discovered by a friend IRL and had to shut down his blog. If you are still reading blogs Mr. Nice Guy you are going to be missed.
7. Which blogger is living a life you think YOU might like to be living. There is no one single blogger out there that has a "perfect" life that I would want to live. Where everything they do I say 'Wow! I wish that was me doing everything they do.' The one person that has a facet of life that I'd like to be living right now though would be 2 am somewhere. I don't want anything to do with his marital situation, or his sex life (I don't know a sane person that would want that). But he is in a situation that I would LOVE to be in though. He is in the process of looking for a new job now. Has been for quite some time now. Recently he has had several job offers made to him. So many in fact that he has the opportunity to turn jobs down. That would be a dram come true for me.
Tag three people and you’re on your way! I'll go ahead and tag: Tajlude, Desperate Husband (just because I know you are looking for things to write), and aphron that is of course if you are still blogging.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
I just heard about this on one of my local radio stations. Apparently this guys wife was selling her "goods" for $250 an hour for the last 12 years. Oh and the guy is a sheriff. How could you NOT know that your wife is sleeping around like that? I mean she could hide the money easily enough, but you just can't hide that much use and abuse of your "money maker".
Cops wife arrested for prostitution.
Cops wife arrested for prostitution.
Monday, August 20, 2007
My week in review
What an interesting week I just had. First we have had someone (read neighborhood kid) coming into our backyard when no one is home. How do we know this? The person broke the gate that I just made 2 months ago. Then the other day when the kids were swimming in the pool with a friend, youngest son was getting out and was standing on the top step of the ladder. 4 feet off the ground. I just happened to be looking out the window to check on them at the right moment to see his friend push him from behind and he fell to the ground. Landing on the side of his ankle. I ended up taking him to the Minor Injury Clinic at Kaiser after dinner that night. He has no broken bones but he did have a sprain in his ankle. So he was on crutches for a few days. The day after this happened he had an appointment with his county social worker. During the meeting he tried to hit her with his crutches.
That same day we also found out that the non public school that he is attending will be shutting down for good on Aug. 24. So we have to find him a new school to attend. What makes it worse is that we had an IEP meeting the first of Aug and the school never said a thing about closing down. Even though they knew about it at the time of the meeting they were still talking to us about the plans they had for our son when regular school started. So now we have to find him a new school.
Before I continue with the next portion I need to add this little disclaimer: I in no way, shape, or form, am writing this portion to be derogatory or offensive to my Catholic readers. This is just from my own little heathen point of view. Now that the disclaimer is out of the way I can go ahead and continue.
On Fri. I had to attend a funeral for my great Uncle. He passed away from Alzheimer’s last week. Well he was a very devout Catholic. So that means that it was a Catholic funeral. A full on Catholic service with communion and everything. It was like attending a mass on Sun. morning. In fact it was THE LONGEST funeral services that I have ever attended. We entered the church just before 1:00 in the afternoon. By the time that the services were done it was close to 3:00! WOW! Let me tell you something-My ass hurt from sitting in those pews for so long. Then with all the ‘Please stand’ and the ‘ You may be seated’, well let’s just say that I got one heck of a workout. I think I can go ahead and skip the gym wok out this week. (Yeah right. Like THAT’S ever going to happen.)
I did learn some interesting things about my Great Uncle though throughout the services. I always knew that his goal in life was to make people laugh. He loved playing jokes on people. Well his older brother told a story of when they were kids. His two brothers were asleep in their bedroom. GU (great uncle) wanted to scare them for a joke so he threw a firecracker between the two beds. Well he missed and caught the drapes on fire instead. His dad ran into the room and stomped the fire out in his bare feet.
Back in the 60's he was going from job to job not really finding anything stable back in Pa. When he was in the Navy during WWII he fell in love with Ca. So he packed his bags and left his wife and 4 kids in Pa. while he was looking for a job and a home. 3 months later he wrote to his wife and said that he was ready for them to move out here with him. Apparently he was so happy to see his wife and kids that 10 months later they had their fifth child. He always said that he wasn't a horny Protestant. Instead he was a very faithful Catholic.
After the services we all went to my cousins house for a few hours to spend time with family and have a little bite to eat. That's when the bad thing happened. My grandma who is 83 years old was walking outside to find a place to sit. She was carrying a plate of food and a cup of coffee. When she went to step from the house to the patio she forgot about the 3 inch difference in height. Down she went. She hit the ground hard. When she landed the entire fall was on her upper arm. Now from her elbow to her shoulder she is different shades of blue, black and purple. Luckily she had no broken bones. We took her to the Dr. on the way home that evening. I was sitting with my back to her when she fell. Then I heard someone hit the ground and saw people rushing to someone. My mom said it was grandma and all I could think was that she broke her hip. Leave it to me to think the worst right off the bat.
That same day we also found out that the non public school that he is attending will be shutting down for good on Aug. 24. So we have to find him a new school to attend. What makes it worse is that we had an IEP meeting the first of Aug and the school never said a thing about closing down. Even though they knew about it at the time of the meeting they were still talking to us about the plans they had for our son when regular school started. So now we have to find him a new school.
Before I continue with the next portion I need to add this little disclaimer: I in no way, shape, or form, am writing this portion to be derogatory or offensive to my Catholic readers. This is just from my own little heathen point of view. Now that the disclaimer is out of the way I can go ahead and continue.
On Fri. I had to attend a funeral for my great Uncle. He passed away from Alzheimer’s last week. Well he was a very devout Catholic. So that means that it was a Catholic funeral. A full on Catholic service with communion and everything. It was like attending a mass on Sun. morning. In fact it was THE LONGEST funeral services that I have ever attended. We entered the church just before 1:00 in the afternoon. By the time that the services were done it was close to 3:00! WOW! Let me tell you something-My ass hurt from sitting in those pews for so long. Then with all the ‘Please stand’ and the ‘ You may be seated’, well let’s just say that I got one heck of a workout. I think I can go ahead and skip the gym wok out this week. (Yeah right. Like THAT’S ever going to happen.)
I did learn some interesting things about my Great Uncle though throughout the services. I always knew that his goal in life was to make people laugh. He loved playing jokes on people. Well his older brother told a story of when they were kids. His two brothers were asleep in their bedroom. GU (great uncle) wanted to scare them for a joke so he threw a firecracker between the two beds. Well he missed and caught the drapes on fire instead. His dad ran into the room and stomped the fire out in his bare feet.
Back in the 60's he was going from job to job not really finding anything stable back in Pa. When he was in the Navy during WWII he fell in love with Ca. So he packed his bags and left his wife and 4 kids in Pa. while he was looking for a job and a home. 3 months later he wrote to his wife and said that he was ready for them to move out here with him. Apparently he was so happy to see his wife and kids that 10 months later they had their fifth child. He always said that he wasn't a horny Protestant. Instead he was a very faithful Catholic.
After the services we all went to my cousins house for a few hours to spend time with family and have a little bite to eat. That's when the bad thing happened. My grandma who is 83 years old was walking outside to find a place to sit. She was carrying a plate of food and a cup of coffee. When she went to step from the house to the patio she forgot about the 3 inch difference in height. Down she went. She hit the ground hard. When she landed the entire fall was on her upper arm. Now from her elbow to her shoulder she is different shades of blue, black and purple. Luckily she had no broken bones. We took her to the Dr. on the way home that evening. I was sitting with my back to her when she fell. Then I heard someone hit the ground and saw people rushing to someone. My mom said it was grandma and all I could think was that she broke her hip. Leave it to me to think the worst right off the bat.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
I saw that Therese had made her own Simpson's avatar and I figured I'd do my own too. Seeing as I am a Simpson fan and all. still waiting for my chance to see the movie though.
Friday, August 10, 2007
For lack of anything else to post tonight I copied this from
Finished Last. It has been pretty busy week around here. I'm taking a test for a promotion at work tomorrow morning. Hopefully I pass it again. The last time they had the test I ranked number 18 in the state, but the test got "compromised" so they threw it out. Then there is the fact that we have had someone breaking into our back yard on several occasions the last 2 weeks. Moire about that tomorrow though.
Enjoy! If you think something is left out or want to know more about something here just ask me in the comments and I'll answer anything you want.
1. HAVE YOU GOTTEN LAID IN 2007? Yes I have. Many times I must say.
2. EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC PLACE? How public do you consider public to be? If you mean in front of a group of people then the answer is no. I don't think I could deal with that. But if you mean in a parking lot of a Target store while the store is open then yes I have.
3. EVER LAUGH DURING SEX? IF SO WHY? Yes I have. Because my partner is/was a very quiet person during all of our previous encounters. Then in the middle of one encounter she just let out with Harder! Faster! It took me by surprise and I laughed. Worst thing to have done at the time.
4. EVER CRY DURING SEX? IF SO WHY? Not that I recall.
5. DO YOU LIKE TO CUDDLE AFTER SEX? Of course I do. who doesn't like to cuddle after sex. That would be a better question.
6. EVER REGRET SEX WITH SOMEONE? The easy answer to this would be yes. I could very easily say I regretted having sex with the 2 ladies prior to Summer. but then I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't have sex with them. So no I don't.
7. EVER FAKED AN ORGASM? Nope. Is it even possible for a guy to do? Seriously.
8. DIRTY TALK, OR SHUT UP? That is something that has just entered into our sex life. The dirty talk that is. I love it!The dirtier the better.
9. EVER HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX? Well let me think here.HHhhmmmmmmm.....I have 2 kids and got a previous girlfriend pregnant........I think the answer is yes.
10. EVER MASTURBATE TO YOUR FRIEND'S SIGNIFICANT OTHER? I'm not that big on masturbation for starters. So no I haven't.
11. EVER HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND? Nope.
12. EVER HAVE A THREESOME? Yes. very fun too I must say.
13. EVER WATCH PORN DURING SEX? Yes indeedy.
14. EVER THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE DURING SEX? Do I have to answer this question?
15. HAS THE CONDOM EVER BROKEN? Several times. Honestly! No joke.
16. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE? Falling asleep. Or quite possibly one time Summer and I were in the throws of passion before we were married. At the time we were living with her mom. I was a smoker at the time and her mom had supposedly quit. Or wasn't supposed to because of her high blood pressure. Well as we are in the moment her mom walks into the room and asks me for a cigarette. Then asks me for a light. She then proceeds to sit down on the bed and start talking to us. Can we say show stopper? I don't know if she knew what we were doing at the time or not. I know she knew we were having sex while we lived there but I don't know about that moment in time.
Actually some if not all of my most embarrassing sexual moments have happened as a result of Summer's family in one way or another. Her sister had a way of walking in at the wrong time. Still does sometimes. Except now it's more of her calling on the phone at the wrong time instead. Her brother was throwing things at us another time. NO he was NOT in the room but the way the house was designed you could throw things from one room to another at some parts of the house.
17. HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY? 19
18. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE SEX WITH RIGHT NOW? Plead the fifth.
19. DO YOU THINK THAT NUMBER 18 IS POSSIBLE? Well since I pleaded the fifth who knows? Anything is possible right?
20. ARE YOU HORNY NOW? Ummm let me check my pulse.
Yup. I still have a pulse so the answer is YES!!!
21. HOW MANY SEXUAL PARTNERS? 3 But then again that number could change depending on your definition of "sex". With the 4th person there was no "penetration" sex so I just go with 3.
22. DO YOU LIKE SEX IN THE CAR? Sure do. Lost my virginity in a car.
23. DO YOU STILL TALK TO THE PERSON YOU LOST VIRGINITY TO? Not since the last time we slept together. Which was about a month after I broke it off with her. We stayed fuck buddies for a month or so after.
24. EVER HAVE SEX WITH A RELATIVE/FRIEND'S SIGNIFICANT OTHER? Nope.
25. EVER BEEN WITH A CHEATER? Not that I know of. Unless there is something I should know about my love.
26. TOYS, GOOD OR BAD. Sadly I don't get the opportunity to find out. Summer says they are very bad.
27. LINGERIE. Sure!
28. EVER SLEEP WITH A CO-WORKER? I married a former co-worker.
29. WHERE HAVE YOU HAD SEX?
(*)park
()church
()cemetery
(*)beach
(*)boat
()school
(*)parent's bed Hers NOT mine!
(*)your bed
(*)car
(*)picnic table
()kitchen counter
(*)couch/chair
()dining room/kitchen table
(*)woods (open and/or in a tent)
()hood of a car
(*)bathroom
(*)shower
(*)bathtub
(*)the other person's bed
()porch/deck/balcony
(*)in a house with parents home
()at a party
(*)on top of the washer/dryer
(*)with other people in the room
(*)hotel
()concert
()grandparent's house
(*)field
()bleachers
()bookstore stock room
()linen closet
(*)in a lake
(*)at your place of employment
(*)been caught/walked in on
Finished Last. It has been pretty busy week around here. I'm taking a test for a promotion at work tomorrow morning. Hopefully I pass it again. The last time they had the test I ranked number 18 in the state, but the test got "compromised" so they threw it out. Then there is the fact that we have had someone breaking into our back yard on several occasions the last 2 weeks. Moire about that tomorrow though.
Enjoy! If you think something is left out or want to know more about something here just ask me in the comments and I'll answer anything you want.
1. HAVE YOU GOTTEN LAID IN 2007? Yes I have. Many times I must say.
2. EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC PLACE? How public do you consider public to be? If you mean in front of a group of people then the answer is no. I don't think I could deal with that. But if you mean in a parking lot of a Target store while the store is open then yes I have.
3. EVER LAUGH DURING SEX? IF SO WHY? Yes I have. Because my partner is/was a very quiet person during all of our previous encounters. Then in the middle of one encounter she just let out with Harder! Faster! It took me by surprise and I laughed. Worst thing to have done at the time.
4. EVER CRY DURING SEX? IF SO WHY? Not that I recall.
5. DO YOU LIKE TO CUDDLE AFTER SEX? Of course I do. who doesn't like to cuddle after sex. That would be a better question.
6. EVER REGRET SEX WITH SOMEONE? The easy answer to this would be yes. I could very easily say I regretted having sex with the 2 ladies prior to Summer. but then I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't have sex with them. So no I don't.
7. EVER FAKED AN ORGASM? Nope. Is it even possible for a guy to do? Seriously.
8. DIRTY TALK, OR SHUT UP? That is something that has just entered into our sex life. The dirty talk that is. I love it!The dirtier the better.
9. EVER HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX? Well let me think here.HHhhmmmmmmm.....I have 2 kids and got a previous girlfriend pregnant........I think the answer is yes.
10. EVER MASTURBATE TO YOUR FRIEND'S SIGNIFICANT OTHER? I'm not that big on masturbation for starters. So no I haven't.
11. EVER HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND? Nope.
12. EVER HAVE A THREESOME? Yes. very fun too I must say.
13. EVER WATCH PORN DURING SEX? Yes indeedy.
14. EVER THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE DURING SEX? Do I have to answer this question?
15. HAS THE CONDOM EVER BROKEN? Several times. Honestly! No joke.
16. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE? Falling asleep. Or quite possibly one time Summer and I were in the throws of passion before we were married. At the time we were living with her mom. I was a smoker at the time and her mom had supposedly quit. Or wasn't supposed to because of her high blood pressure. Well as we are in the moment her mom walks into the room and asks me for a cigarette. Then asks me for a light. She then proceeds to sit down on the bed and start talking to us. Can we say show stopper? I don't know if she knew what we were doing at the time or not. I know she knew we were having sex while we lived there but I don't know about that moment in time.
Actually some if not all of my most embarrassing sexual moments have happened as a result of Summer's family in one way or another. Her sister had a way of walking in at the wrong time. Still does sometimes. Except now it's more of her calling on the phone at the wrong time instead. Her brother was throwing things at us another time. NO he was NOT in the room but the way the house was designed you could throw things from one room to another at some parts of the house.
17. HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY? 19
18. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE SEX WITH RIGHT NOW? Plead the fifth.
19. DO YOU THINK THAT NUMBER 18 IS POSSIBLE? Well since I pleaded the fifth who knows? Anything is possible right?
20. ARE YOU HORNY NOW? Ummm let me check my pulse.
Yup. I still have a pulse so the answer is YES!!!
21. HOW MANY SEXUAL PARTNERS? 3 But then again that number could change depending on your definition of "sex". With the 4th person there was no "penetration" sex so I just go with 3.
22. DO YOU LIKE SEX IN THE CAR? Sure do. Lost my virginity in a car.
23. DO YOU STILL TALK TO THE PERSON YOU LOST VIRGINITY TO? Not since the last time we slept together. Which was about a month after I broke it off with her. We stayed fuck buddies for a month or so after.
24. EVER HAVE SEX WITH A RELATIVE/FRIEND'S SIGNIFICANT OTHER? Nope.
25. EVER BEEN WITH A CHEATER? Not that I know of. Unless there is something I should know about my love.
26. TOYS, GOOD OR BAD. Sadly I don't get the opportunity to find out. Summer says they are very bad.
27. LINGERIE. Sure!
28. EVER SLEEP WITH A CO-WORKER? I married a former co-worker.
29. WHERE HAVE YOU HAD SEX?
(*)park
()church
()cemetery
(*)beach
(*)boat
()school
(*)parent's bed Hers NOT mine!
(*)your bed
(*)car
(*)picnic table
()kitchen counter
(*)couch/chair
()dining room/kitchen table
(*)woods (open and/or in a tent)
()hood of a car
(*)bathroom
(*)shower
(*)bathtub
(*)the other person's bed
()porch/deck/balcony
(*)in a house with parents home
()at a party
(*)on top of the washer/dryer
(*)with other people in the room
(*)hotel
()concert
()grandparent's house
(*)field
()bleachers
()bookstore stock room
()linen closet
(*)in a lake
(*)at your place of employment
(*)been caught/walked in on
Friday, August 03, 2007
I am man.....(part II)
So what was I talking about yesterday? Well nothing major. I just had a bad case of the "wandering eye" the other day.
We had an IEP meeting for youngest son the other day (again). at this meeting there was a new person in attendance. When I walked into the room I instantly noticed her. Well to be more accurate I noticed parts of her.
Now I know that I have said in the past that I am not a huge fan of breasts. At least not a huge fan of large breasts. Now don't get me wrong I do like them. I like to look at them. Touch them. All the other fun things that there are to do with BOOBS! I'm just not a person that notices them before I notice other body parts. Like belly buttons. MMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm!!!!!
This was not the case at the meeting though.I walked in and instantly noticed the top that she was wearing. It was a re top with black flower shapes in it. The sleeves were long and flare at the wrists. The neck took a really big plunge. Down to her twins. What a nice set of twins they were too. The bra she was wearing didn't push them up but it did push them together. Quite nicely I must say. Made for some really nice cleavage shots. I found myself having a hard time not staring at them. I did good though. I paid attention to what was going on in the meeting. I did good there. But I did find myself glancing over at her.
After the meeting as I was walking to my truck she called me over to talk to me some more. She told me some things that she was not able to say in the meeting because she is contracted through the school. I really noticed them then. She is about a foot shorter than me. So I had to look down to talk to her. That's when I noticed how tanned they were.
So yes. I have to admit it. I am man. I am pig.
Does this mean that I'm no longer attracted to Summer? Does this mean that I want to do things with another woman? Does this mean that I am just a normal living, breathing, sexual man? That has good eyesight?
The answer to the first two questions is HELL NO! I'm still very attracted to Summer, and her new set of twins. But due to the fact that I am a living, breathing, sexual man some things are just inevitable. I'm still going to look. I', just not going to act on anything that may or may not pop into my mind. (More about that some other time.) It could mean that I'm wanting some sex too. Maybe a little of both?
Besides how does the saying go? Just because I'm on a diet don't mean I can't look at the menu.
We had an IEP meeting for youngest son the other day (again). at this meeting there was a new person in attendance. When I walked into the room I instantly noticed her. Well to be more accurate I noticed parts of her.
Now I know that I have said in the past that I am not a huge fan of breasts. At least not a huge fan of large breasts. Now don't get me wrong I do like them. I like to look at them. Touch them. All the other fun things that there are to do with BOOBS! I'm just not a person that notices them before I notice other body parts. Like belly buttons. MMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm!!!!!
This was not the case at the meeting though.I walked in and instantly noticed the top that she was wearing. It was a re top with black flower shapes in it. The sleeves were long and flare at the wrists. The neck took a really big plunge. Down to her twins. What a nice set of twins they were too. The bra she was wearing didn't push them up but it did push them together. Quite nicely I must say. Made for some really nice cleavage shots. I found myself having a hard time not staring at them. I did good though. I paid attention to what was going on in the meeting. I did good there. But I did find myself glancing over at her.
After the meeting as I was walking to my truck she called me over to talk to me some more. She told me some things that she was not able to say in the meeting because she is contracted through the school. I really noticed them then. She is about a foot shorter than me. So I had to look down to talk to her. That's when I noticed how tanned they were.
So yes. I have to admit it. I am man. I am pig.
Does this mean that I'm no longer attracted to Summer? Does this mean that I want to do things with another woman? Does this mean that I am just a normal living, breathing, sexual man? That has good eyesight?
The answer to the first two questions is HELL NO! I'm still very attracted to Summer, and her new set of twins. But due to the fact that I am a living, breathing, sexual man some things are just inevitable. I'm still going to look. I', just not going to act on anything that may or may not pop into my mind. (More about that some other time.) It could mean that I'm wanting some sex too. Maybe a little of both?
Besides how does the saying go? Just because I'm on a diet don't mean I can't look at the menu.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
I am man........
.......I am pig.
Some things just can't be helped. I am a visual person. When I see something that catches my attention I can't help but notice it. Unfortunately it don't stop there at noticing it. It captivates me. Consumes me. I find myself fighting the urge to stare at it. Trust me when I say that I am not proud of this fact. I really don't like it. It is a part of what makes me.......well........me.
What am I talking about some of you may be saying. Others may know exactly what I'm talking about.
For now though I'm afraid that I must leave it at that and got to work.
Some things just can't be helped. I am a visual person. When I see something that catches my attention I can't help but notice it. Unfortunately it don't stop there at noticing it. It captivates me. Consumes me. I find myself fighting the urge to stare at it. Trust me when I say that I am not proud of this fact. I really don't like it. It is a part of what makes me.......well........me.
What am I talking about some of you may be saying. Others may know exactly what I'm talking about.
For now though I'm afraid that I must leave it at that and got to work.
Monday, July 30, 2007
The lost art of dateing
As I had said in my post about the weekend getaway Miss Kick Ass Rack had hit on a topic that I wanted to discuss, but didn't want to ruin the good points of our weekend away together. In her post she describes an evening out with her husband without the kids. She feels like they have "forgotten how to date". Ironically I felt the same way when Summer and I returned from Reno.
I want to make one thing very clear though before I continue. We did have a wonderful time together. It was relaxing and nice to finally be alone. We really needed the time alone.
Here is the thing though. We really didn't talk much the entire time that we were gone. The drive up was spent listening to the radio. We held hands pretty much the entire time, but conversation was lacking. When we stopped for breakfast at Denny's we sat at the table in silence. Outside of asking if the other was liking the food. Or Summer asking me how my stomach was holding up.
When we got to Reno and got into our room again not much talk. We laid on the bed and almost instantly fell asleep. When we woke up we had a wonderful round of coupling, showered and went down to the casino. We walked around to various places for a little over an hour. Not much talking. Went back to our room and got ready for dinner. While we ate dinner again it was pretty much in silence.
Are you seeing a theme here?
I'll go ahead and spare you the rest of the details.
The point is that somewhere along the line we seem to have forgotten how to carry on a conversation that didn't revolve around the kids. I did feel connected to Summer while we were together but it also felt like something was missing. That something was conversation. It is something that I crave. But it is also something that I have forgotten how to do. There isn't just one of us that is to blame for this. It is both of us. It just seems awkward that with as little time that we do see each other on a regular basis that we have nothing to talk about.' Either we don't want to talk about it because we are on a "date night" (ie. kids, work) or we have already talked about it. How did we ever get to this point? Or maybe a better question would be when have we NOT been at this point.
Like things have always been between us the physical aspect of our relationship while on our getaway was wonderful. As has always been the case throughout our relationship the communication wasn't all that it could have been. In some ways I guess it's a good thing that we have difficulties in communication. It cuts down on the possibilities of an argument. At the same time it frightens me. Our kids won't live with us forever. When the boys move out of the house how will we communicate with each other? I don't want a life of living in the same house with the woman I love and have nothing to talk about. If things go like they have historically for us the sex will be good in the future, but like I said I want more than that. I'm just not sure how to change it.
I like to talk to people. Sometimes. But all the conversations I have are superficial. I don't really have any "deep" talks. That is another regret that I have. When I'm out with my dad whether it be hunting or fishing we have the perfect opportunity to have a meaningful conversation. We always let the chance slip through our grasp though. It's sad really.
For now this is about all I can write. My brain is getting jumbled with thoughts.
I want to make one thing very clear though before I continue. We did have a wonderful time together. It was relaxing and nice to finally be alone. We really needed the time alone.
Here is the thing though. We really didn't talk much the entire time that we were gone. The drive up was spent listening to the radio. We held hands pretty much the entire time, but conversation was lacking. When we stopped for breakfast at Denny's we sat at the table in silence. Outside of asking if the other was liking the food. Or Summer asking me how my stomach was holding up.
When we got to Reno and got into our room again not much talk. We laid on the bed and almost instantly fell asleep. When we woke up we had a wonderful round of coupling, showered and went down to the casino. We walked around to various places for a little over an hour. Not much talking. Went back to our room and got ready for dinner. While we ate dinner again it was pretty much in silence.
Are you seeing a theme here?
I'll go ahead and spare you the rest of the details.
The point is that somewhere along the line we seem to have forgotten how to carry on a conversation that didn't revolve around the kids. I did feel connected to Summer while we were together but it also felt like something was missing. That something was conversation. It is something that I crave. But it is also something that I have forgotten how to do. There isn't just one of us that is to blame for this. It is both of us. It just seems awkward that with as little time that we do see each other on a regular basis that we have nothing to talk about.' Either we don't want to talk about it because we are on a "date night" (ie. kids, work) or we have already talked about it. How did we ever get to this point? Or maybe a better question would be when have we NOT been at this point.
Like things have always been between us the physical aspect of our relationship while on our getaway was wonderful. As has always been the case throughout our relationship the communication wasn't all that it could have been. In some ways I guess it's a good thing that we have difficulties in communication. It cuts down on the possibilities of an argument. At the same time it frightens me. Our kids won't live with us forever. When the boys move out of the house how will we communicate with each other? I don't want a life of living in the same house with the woman I love and have nothing to talk about. If things go like they have historically for us the sex will be good in the future, but like I said I want more than that. I'm just not sure how to change it.
I like to talk to people. Sometimes. But all the conversations I have are superficial. I don't really have any "deep" talks. That is another regret that I have. When I'm out with my dad whether it be hunting or fishing we have the perfect opportunity to have a meaningful conversation. We always let the chance slip through our grasp though. It's sad really.
For now this is about all I can write. My brain is getting jumbled with thoughts.
Friday, July 27, 2007
I don't know where the time has been going lately. I do know this though: there doesn't seem to be enough of it lately. I mean seriously think about it. Summer is almost over already. School starts again in a few weeks. Aug. 22 I believe. What do we have to show for this years summer vacation time? NOTHING! We haven't done squat this summer. no family vacation like usual. We usually take a trip to Tahoe a few weeks before school starts. Not this year. There just isn't enough money. That and the fact that I'm running dangerously low on vacation time. Things have just sucked it down big time this year. Between Dr. appointments, Summer's surgery, and coming home early to take care of youngest son it's just getting drained. I've got just over 2 weeks but I like to keep that in reserve. I see 100 hours of vacation as zero. Especially when there is only 40 hours of sick leave.
That last paragraph bored the hell out of you all didn't it. It's ok. Admit it. It bored me and I'm the one that wrote it.
Anyways I have a few things on my mind. Unfortunately they aren't enough to make a stand alone post. So it's time for the bullet post!
That last paragraph bored the hell out of you all didn't it. It's ok. Admit it. It bored me and I'm the one that wrote it.
Anyways I have a few things on my mind. Unfortunately they aren't enough to make a stand alone post. So it's time for the bullet post!
- As I have eluded to previously I'm not a small person. Weight has always been an issue with me. In fact that is why I was kicked out of the Army.I was over weight. Don't take into account that from the day I signed up and the day that I was booted out I lost 80 pounds. I went from a size 42 down to a 36. Then when I left I ballooned right back up there. A few years ago, 2003I believe, I started a new diet. I did the Adkins thing. You know the diet where you eat meat and stuff but no carbs. That means no bread or potatoes. No beer or soda. I did dam good though. I started in June and stopped for the Christmas holiday. Went from 280 down to 206. Once again I was in a size 36. The intention was to go back on the diet after Christmas. Never happened. Now? Now I'm at the heaviest I've ever been. Just over 300. Plus my waist is a 44 now. I have tried various diets through the years and none of them worked except for the Adkins. I can't give up bread or potatoes again though. So now I'm considering something else. My neighbor had a gastric bypass surgery a few months ago. He's dropping weight like crazy. So I'm considering the thought of seeing if Kaiser will approve me for the procedure. I mean they have already told me that I'm "morbidly obese" so whats the harm. Right?
- As most of my long time readers know I started this blog because of the problems that Summer and I were going through. Since then it has gone through a few different phases. Mainly now it is used to help me keep my thoughts in check. That was the main problem that Summer and I had. I would think something in the heat of the moment and instead of thinking about it I would say whatever was in my mind. I have done a much better job of that in the past year or two. It still lingers and I catch myself doing it, but I am getting better. It is coming at an expense though. I am now afraid to bring certain topics up in fear of them being taken the wrong way. So I just keep them inside. I know that is a bad thing as well. I really need to find a balance between the two. Some of these things really need to be said and discussed. I just need to get over my fear of losing my temper again.
- I have always wanted to get a tattoo. Ever since I was in Jr. High. I just was never in a position where I could afford one. Well that urge of wanting one never went away. In fact it is getting stronger now. I really want one. Badly. I've got several in mind that I want to get. Just don't have a location of where I want them to be.
- I really can't wait for the upcoming hunting season to get here. Especially since dove season opens on a Sat. this year. So I'll be out for the morning hunt and then the evening hunt. It's still up in the air if I'm going deer hunting this year though. I will be going duck hunting though. Surprise surprise. :D There is a group of 8 people that are putting in for the opener of goose and duck season at Tule Lake. My dad, 2 uncles, 2 cousins, and one of my uncles is bringing 2 nephews for their first duck hunt. Then we are planning on going back to Tule to go pheasant hunting. The plan now is to leave right after we eat thanksgiving dinner. Make the 11 hour drive, sleep a little bit and hunt Fri. Sat. and Sun. What a way to spend the Thanksgiving holiday!
- This really has nothing to do with anything, but I really like this song. That and they are performing at Sac Valley Amphitheatre tonight. And I can't go. It's not that bad though. They are the only ones on the Project Revolution Tour that I'm interested in seeing so a ticket would just be a waste of money anyways.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
Feelin XL
The other day we went over to my parents house to see my dad. He came home early from his trip to Alaska. 2 weeks early. Anyways we're there and are watching the videos that he took and looking at the pictures. Having a good time.
When it got to be time to leave my dad and I walk in front of summer and my mom who are sitting on the couch. Suddenly Summer and my mom are laughing and Summer is pointing at my dads crotch. Nice dear.
Dad looks down and he has a sticker just about even with his zipper. It is about a 1" circle. All it has on there is the letters XL.
Without missing a beat my dad says "Well I was feeling a bit Extra Large today".
Good times. Good times.
When it got to be time to leave my dad and I walk in front of summer and my mom who are sitting on the couch. Suddenly Summer and my mom are laughing and Summer is pointing at my dads crotch. Nice dear.
Dad looks down and he has a sticker just about even with his zipper. It is about a 1" circle. All it has on there is the letters XL.
Without missing a beat my dad says "Well I was feeling a bit Extra Large today".
Good times. Good times.
Friday, July 20, 2007
The White Stripes - Icky Thump
I heard this "song" (I use the pfrase lightly with as much sarcasm as I can type) on the radio the other night for the first time. All in all I must say this is the worst thing to happen to music since that sweater song that Therese posted a few months ago. Had I heard this back then I most definately would have won seeing as there is NOTHING that can hurt a humans ears more than this.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
The weekend getaway
Well Summer and I finally had our weekend getaway to Reno. It was a good time, but like all good things it just wasn't nearly long enough. Why is that? Vacations just never seem to be long enough. We were actually quite lucky to be on this little trip actually. It almost didn't happen because I caught a very bad stomach virus on Thu. It was not pleasant at all. But it was too late to cancel the reservations so there was no way I was going to stay at home. We were going to go on this trip even if it would kill me in the end.
Slight detour here. I LOVE the new auto save feature Blogger now has. It just saved me from deleting this post.
so Sat. morning came and we were all ready to go. Dropped the kids off with my mom and away we went. This was a slow leisurely trip so I was in no hurry to get to our destination. That being said we stopped off on the way at Denny's for breakfast. What a disappointment. They stopped selling their breakfast skillets. But we persevered! Along the way we decided that we were going to take a slight detour on the way. Usually we just got straight to Reno over I80. But this time I wanted to see some sites. So instead we went over the old Donner Pass. The old highway 40. Now that was a beautiful scenic route. Especially when you get to the summit. The view up there is just breathe taking.
We arrived in Reno at about 12:30 and got checked in to Circus Circus. When we got to our room we were on the 12th floor and the view was nice. We had a room that looked west back onto I80 and the mountains. So we got settled in and saw the bed. Oh yeah. We got a real treat this weekend. We got a room with a king size bed. Let the fun begin. This being an adult weekend with no kids we knew exactly what needed to be done with that bed too.
One look at it and it was.
Oh yeah. We hopped on that bed curled up and took an hour long nap. now that's living right there. I tell you what.
After our little cat nap we went down to the casino and just walked around. Asking each other what we wanted to do. That went on for about 2 hours or so. Until we made our way back to the room. With the king size bed. It looked so inviting. Once again I knew exactly what to do. Lay down for another nap.
Hey I still had the stomach virus! Give a guy a break.
Summer on the other hand had different plans. So we did what she wanted instead. We had adult type of fun.
After our little romp we showered and headed down to El Dorado for our first buffet experience of the trip. I had been hyping this up to everyone I know for a few weeks that I couldn't wait to get to the buffet lines. I was bragging that a buffet hasn't been created yet that could take me out. I was going to make this place wish they had never said all you can eat crab legs and shrimp.
Sadly I must admit it though. Due to the virus this place ate me up and spit me out. I had my ass handed to me. I ate one and a half small plates of food. What a disappointment.
After dinner it was time to walk along the strip and take some night photos. It was a bit warm out though for 9:30 at night so we weren't out long. We then found ourselves back in the casino for some slot machine fun. I/we did pretty well too I must say. I put a 10 in my machine and made that 10 last about 30 minutes. Cashed out with $8.40. At one point I was ahead 2 whole dollars! WooHoo! Summer lost about another dollar. Real high rollers the two of us make right?
It was now time for bed so up we went to our room. I took some more pictures of the city scape before heading to bed and asleep we went. Real party animals.
Sun. it was waking time and what a wake up call I got too I must say. It back at it for the adult entertainment. But it was not just any other frolic that we usually enjoy together. Oh no. Summer actually asked me to re-introduce ice into our adult fun activities. So Sun. morning was extremely fun indeed. Then it was off to the Atlantis for their Sun. Brunch. All you can eat. I had been building this brunch up for the same amount of time as I was the dinner buffet. With the same results. I had my ass handed to me. A sad sad day indeed.
The rest of the drive home was quite nice. We got home felling refreshed and relaxed. That is until we got my moms house and picked up the kids. Then it was right back to normal again. Oh joy.
All in all it was a wonderful weekend away. We enjoyed each others company and had a short amount of time to recharge our batteries. Now we just need to try and get a little bit longer period of time away together. At least 2 nights next time.
These two photos are of Donner lake from the summit. It truly is an amazing site to see.
Here we have what apparently can only be described as 'Beauty and the Beast'. Otherwise known as Summer and CH.
The biggest little city in the world. We were once told that the casinos are not allowed to have all their lights lit up at any one given time. i think if I remember correctly they only have approximately 60% of the lights on at once. It would take up to much energy to have them lit up all in their glory.
So is our weekend in a nutshell. As I have eluded in comments at FADKOGS there is a little bit more to the weekend, but I want to save that for another post. I'd like to keep this post up beat and positive.
Slight detour here. I LOVE the new auto save feature Blogger now has. It just saved me from deleting this post.
so Sat. morning came and we were all ready to go. Dropped the kids off with my mom and away we went. This was a slow leisurely trip so I was in no hurry to get to our destination. That being said we stopped off on the way at Denny's for breakfast. What a disappointment. They stopped selling their breakfast skillets. But we persevered! Along the way we decided that we were going to take a slight detour on the way. Usually we just got straight to Reno over I80. But this time I wanted to see some sites. So instead we went over the old Donner Pass. The old highway 40. Now that was a beautiful scenic route. Especially when you get to the summit. The view up there is just breathe taking.
We arrived in Reno at about 12:30 and got checked in to Circus Circus. When we got to our room we were on the 12th floor and the view was nice. We had a room that looked west back onto I80 and the mountains. So we got settled in and saw the bed. Oh yeah. We got a real treat this weekend. We got a room with a king size bed. Let the fun begin. This being an adult weekend with no kids we knew exactly what needed to be done with that bed too.
One look at it and it was.
Oh yeah. We hopped on that bed curled up and took an hour long nap. now that's living right there. I tell you what.
After our little cat nap we went down to the casino and just walked around. Asking each other what we wanted to do. That went on for about 2 hours or so. Until we made our way back to the room. With the king size bed. It looked so inviting. Once again I knew exactly what to do. Lay down for another nap.
Hey I still had the stomach virus! Give a guy a break.
Summer on the other hand had different plans. So we did what she wanted instead. We had adult type of fun.
After our little romp we showered and headed down to El Dorado for our first buffet experience of the trip. I had been hyping this up to everyone I know for a few weeks that I couldn't wait to get to the buffet lines. I was bragging that a buffet hasn't been created yet that could take me out. I was going to make this place wish they had never said all you can eat crab legs and shrimp.
Sadly I must admit it though. Due to the virus this place ate me up and spit me out. I had my ass handed to me. I ate one and a half small plates of food. What a disappointment.
After dinner it was time to walk along the strip and take some night photos. It was a bit warm out though for 9:30 at night so we weren't out long. We then found ourselves back in the casino for some slot machine fun. I/we did pretty well too I must say. I put a 10 in my machine and made that 10 last about 30 minutes. Cashed out with $8.40. At one point I was ahead 2 whole dollars! WooHoo! Summer lost about another dollar. Real high rollers the two of us make right?
It was now time for bed so up we went to our room. I took some more pictures of the city scape before heading to bed and asleep we went. Real party animals.
Sun. it was waking time and what a wake up call I got too I must say. It back at it for the adult entertainment. But it was not just any other frolic that we usually enjoy together. Oh no. Summer actually asked me to re-introduce ice into our adult fun activities. So Sun. morning was extremely fun indeed. Then it was off to the Atlantis for their Sun. Brunch. All you can eat. I had been building this brunch up for the same amount of time as I was the dinner buffet. With the same results. I had my ass handed to me. A sad sad day indeed.
The rest of the drive home was quite nice. We got home felling refreshed and relaxed. That is until we got my moms house and picked up the kids. Then it was right back to normal again. Oh joy.
All in all it was a wonderful weekend away. We enjoyed each others company and had a short amount of time to recharge our batteries. Now we just need to try and get a little bit longer period of time away together. At least 2 nights next time.
These two photos are of Donner lake from the summit. It truly is an amazing site to see.
Here we have what apparently can only be described as 'Beauty and the Beast'. Otherwise known as Summer and CH.
The biggest little city in the world. We were once told that the casinos are not allowed to have all their lights lit up at any one given time. i think if I remember correctly they only have approximately 60% of the lights on at once. It would take up to much energy to have them lit up all in their glory.
I just like the back of this shirt summer is wearing.
This would be the entrance to El Dorado.
This is the Silver Legacy. I have more pictures of what is on the inside of the dome. They have a Silver mine inside that is pretty cool. They are actually celebrating their anniversary this year. I'd love to be there for the celebration they are going to throw. As a side note the Silver Legacy was under construction when Summer and I got married in Reno 1994. The chapel we got married at is about 3 blocks from where this picture was taken.
So is our weekend in a nutshell. As I have eluded in comments at FADKOGS there is a little bit more to the weekend, but I want to save that for another post. I'd like to keep this post up beat and positive.
Monday, July 16, 2007
Lucky Man - Montgomery Gentry
Yes indeed. Sometimes I may not realize this. I may take things for granted. I might not be able to see what I truly have because I'm so caught up in myself. thinking only of everything that is wrong in my life. Through it all though, I truly am, A Lucky Man.
I have days where I hate my job
This little town and the whole world too
Last Sunday when my Steelers lost
Lord it put me in a bad mood
I have moments when I curse the rain
Then complain when the sun's too hot
I look around at what everyone has
And I forget about all I've got
But I know I'm a lucky man
God's given me a pretty fair hand
Got a house and a piece of land
A few dollars in a coffee can
My old trucks still running good
My ticker's ticking like they say it should
I got supper in the oven, a good woman's loving
And one more day to be my little kid's dad
Lord, knows I'm a lucky man
Got some friends who would be here fast
I could call em any time of day
Got a brother who's got my back
Got a mama who I swears a saint
Got a brand new rod and reel
Got a full week off this year
Dad had a close call last spring
It's a miracle he's still here
But I know I'm a lucky man
God's given me a pretty fair hand
Got a house and a piece of land
a few dollars in a coffee can
My old trucks still running good
My ticker's tickin' like they say it should
I got supper in the oven, good woman's lovin'
And one more day to be my little kid's dad
Lord, knows I'm a lucky man
My old trucks still running good
My ticker's ticking like they say it should
I got supper in the oven, a good woman's lovin'
And even my bad days ain't that bad
Yeah, I'm a lucky man
I'm a lucky lucky man
Yes indeed. Sometimes I may not realize this. I may take things for granted. I might not be able to see what I truly have because I'm so caught up in myself. thinking only of everything that is wrong in my life. Through it all though, I truly am, A Lucky Man.
Monday, July 09, 2007
It's been quite a long time since I have been here with anything of real substance around here. Honestly I have no good reason for that either. I've been running around pretty busy here lately.
- Things around the house have been on a slight upswing. Youngest moods have seemed to stabilized. He still has his moments but they are getting to be less frequent and when they do occur they aren't lasting as long. At least that is my observation. I'm sure that SR's will be different. He is a totally different child after I go to work and he is alone with her.
- Oldest son spent the weekend with my sister last weekend. We went up there for dinner Fri. night and got to meet her new girlfriend.
- Since youngest son didn't get to spend the weekend with her Summer and I took him to go see a movie on Sat. evening. We went to go see Ratatouille. It was a pretty good movie. It was also the first movie I ever went to that I walked out in the middle to get the free refill of popcorn. I always buy the big one with free refill but never get the refill. I'm just a sucker.
- The movie experience was a good one though. It was his first trip to a movie theatre. He did really well. Sat there the entire movie and watched in silence.
- Two weeks ago we went camping at the family reunion. That was a good trip. Although there weren't as many people there as usual. My great uncles family wasn't there this year. He has Alzheimer's and isn't doing very well. They aren't expecting him to last much longer.
- Summer and I have been getting along swimmingly lately. I think she's still excited about her new car. Hell I'm still excited over the new car. It's a gas guzzler though. Well let me rephrase that. The mileage is good on it for a V8. It gets the same mileage as the Explorer. So that is actually pretty good. The thing is that it has a 22 gallon tank. Damned expensive to fill. Especially at 3.15 a gallon.
- Just a few more days until Summer and I take off for Reno. The trip is going to be great! We're going to Circus Circus for the night. We leave at 8:00 in the morning Sat. and won't be back till Sun. night. I can't wait! So far the itinerary is based on buffet food. We're eating dinner at the El Dorado Sat. night. The we're hitting the Atlantis for their buffet brunch Sun. morning. At some point on the trip we will be hitting Sportsman Warehouse too. I'll be like a little kid in Toy's R Us. It's the hunting/fishing mans toy store. I'm all giddy.
- We have nothing else planned for the trip. Except of course hot crazy hotel sex. We might spend a few dollars in a slot machine but that's just for the free drinks.
- You know a funny thing happened the other day. Summer was having a bad day and was kinda depressed. I told her that the reason for the depression was due to lack of sex. I told that it is scientifically proven that people that have sex more frequently are less susceptible to depression and are happier in their day to day lives. Since that talk we have had sex 3 times in 36 hours. And guess what? We're both happier people! (I have absolutely nothing to back up what I said.)
- That's all for now. Just dropping in to say that things are going pretty good from my point of view. I can't wait for Reno this weekend.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
The Bible
Just thought I'd leave you all with a little bit of religious teachings from the good book before I leave for the weekend. Play nice!
In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth and populated the Earth with broccoli, cauliflower and spinach, green and yellow and red vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy lives.
Then using God's great gifts, Satan created Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and Krispy Creme Donuts. And Satan said, "You want chocolate with that?"
And Man said, "Yes!" and Woman said, "and as long as you're at it, add some
sprinkles." And they gained 10 pounds. And Satan smiled.
And God created the healthful yogurt that Woman might keep the figure that Man found so fair. And Satan brought forth white flour from the wheat, and sugar from the cane and combined them. And Woman went from size 6 to size 14.
So God said, "Try my fresh green salad." And Satan presented Thousand-Island Dressing, buttery croutons and garlic toast on the side. And Man and Woman unfastened their belts following the repast.
God then said, "I have sent you heart healthy vegetables and olive oil in which to cook them." And Satan brought forth deep fried fish and chicken-fried steak so big it needed its own platter. And Man gained more weight and his cholesterol went through the roof.
God then created a light, fluffy white cake, named it "Angel Food Cake," and said, "It is good." Satan then created chocolate cake and named it "Devil's Food."
God then brought forth running shoes so that His children might lose those extra pounds. And Satan gave cable TV with a remote control so Man would not have to toil changing the channels. And Man and Woman laughed and cried before the flickering blue light and gained pounds.
Then God brought forth the potato, naturally low in fat and brimming with nutrition. And Satan peeled off the healthful skin and sliced the starchy center into chips and deep-fried them. And Man gained pounds.
God then gave lean beef so that Man might consume fewer calories and still satisfy his appetite. And Satan created McDonald's and its 99-cent double cheeseburger. Then said, "You want fries with that?" And Man replied, "Yes! And super size them!" And Satan said, "It is good." And Man went into cardiac arrest.
God sighed and created quadruple bypass surgery.
Then Satan created HMOs.
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