My Journey of Self Discovery

Ch Is Working Days

summerrose06@gmail.com (Summer Rose) — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 06:00:00 +0000

Since my dearest hubby has decided not to come back to blogging, any time soon. He is doing very well. I did ask Ch when he was planning on returning to blog land there was no answer, he owns another blog that family can venture to and leave comments, he has not touched that one either I have no idea what will happen if I don't post for him. There are two posts up on my blog that tells what we are going through I must warn you will, it will not be easy to read. There is so much more to post than what I have there. So much pain and tears seemed to well every time I write. Ch will be back to working night starting in July I'm not looking forward to it, what can you do. It's part of life and his job that he has to do. I'm blessed everyday to have such a wonderful husband Ch has become and every day I let him know it. In the mean time keep watching my blog for further updates.

Love
Summer Rose

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Wed, 27 Feb 2008 05:00:00 +0000

Did I forget to mention in my previous post that I finally got that promotion?

I did?

Sorry. Well I finally got the promotion at work and it was official Last week on the 17th. That's good news #1. Good news #2 is that we got a second person to do my job. That means that the position that has been empty for 2 years is now full. The good thing about that is that I am no longer stuck on the 3:30 to midnight shift. Beginning sometime in May after the new guy is trained I will move back to the day shift for 2 months. Then we will be on a 2 month rotation. That way we will keep up to date on how to do the full aspect of the job and not just the paperwork portion. It also means that I won't be burnt out anymore and will be able to spend some much needed time with my family in the evenings.

Ta-ta!

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 16:34:00 +0000

Amazingly enough I am still alive. Surprising to hear I know but it is true. I have been pretty much gone from blogging for a month now. Haven't even been stopping by to read any since the beginning of the month. Too many things have gotten in the way lately. But here's a little secret: Not all of the reasons for my disappearance are bad. Our old computer took a dump last month so we were down to one computer. Summer needed the laptop for school so I was out of a computer for awhile. Luckily we did our taxes and got a really nice return so new bought a new one. I love it! Windows Vista isn't nearly as bad as I heard it made out to be either.

I have also refound some old past times as well in the last few weeks. I have started fishing on the weekends with the boys while Summer has been at work. We haven't had much luck but we have had fun all the same. Then at the very beginning of the month I got pretty sick and bored. So I found another favorite past time of mine. Reading. I figured that I have already watched the first three movies of Harry Potter that I didn't need to start from the4 beginning. So I started at book 4 on the 3rd of the month. I finished that book and actually liked it so then I watched the movie. Then went on to the next book and movie the following week. Long story short I finished the last book last night. Did I mention that I started to read it on Tue night? That was a record for me. First off reading 4 books in less than a month, and secondly reading a book in 3 days. There was a downside to reading these books though. i have a tendency when I get into a book to REALLY get into a book. So that was what I was spending all of my waking hours doing. Reading. I was staying up till 2 or 3 in the morning reading. I would read at work instead of working. It would just consume me. I would find myself dreaming about the book but not what I had read but what I thought would happen next. The most surprising thing about reading these four books and the amount of time it took to read them was how interested I was in them. Especially since they were, in thew beginning a kids book.

Enjoy your weekend!

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 20:26:00 +0000

As Summer said over the weekend I'm taking kind of a break. I just haven't been feeling it lately. with everything that has been going on lately I guess I've just lost the oomph so to speak. That and the fact that the home computer has taken a dump on us. So we are now sharing one computer until we can afford to by a new one. Since Summer is going to school and she needs the computer the most I haven't been online as much. things at work have made me afraid to use the computers at work as well.

The depression has hit me really hard the last week or two as well. I've had at least 4 panic attacks just this month. This is with taking the medication like I'm supposed to. I was so bad last week that when I was driving home from my moms house one night I was actually afraid to be behind the wheel. During an appointment with my therapist last week I told him that I felt like I was on the verge of a breakdown. I just don't know how much more I can take.

Post #365

summerrose06@gmail.com (Summer Rose) — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 00:19:00 +0000

Ch went on a break so I'm going to go ahead, and just post of what I know here. The rest of the details will be on my blog, as soon I get a paper out of the way for school. Once again his depression has gotten the best of him; Mom, dad and sister and sister's friend are in Hawaii celebrating both of their Annie's of being clean I think it's been about 5 yrs for both of them. His funk is caused by not having any time with us, and there is also the kiddo situation which has turned worse than ever. We are looking into getting another emergency I.E.P and possibly looking into suing the county that we live in. So in the meantime keep us in your thoughts and prayers it seems we can never have too many of those.

Thank you for your understanding
Summer Rose

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 21:03:00 +0000

Hey out there! Do any of you still remember me? I'm CH. I know that I've been lacking lately. That might be an understatement actually. I don't know what it is but I just haven't been able to get the gumption up to post on here as of late. I'm torn. Don't know what to do. Don't know what would make me happier. I've thought a lot recently about shutting down. Then every time I think that I also think that it would be a waste to do so.I have 3 years of my life documented here. I don't want to just give up on it. I'll probably just not post as often. Who knows.

So anyways not much has been going on here in the last few weeks since I last posted. I've been making cookies for Christmas again. I'm on my fifth double batch so far. Still have at least 2-3 more double batches to go. As usual I'm going over board on the cookies again. But we go through a lot. 2 Christmas parties, give some away to our neighbors on Christmas day, then there is the ones we'll take to my parents on Christmas day. So we go through a lot too. It's not like I eat them all to myself. That gets saved for the Cordial Cherries. Those are all MINE!

Hunting has been pretty slow lately. I haven't had many opportunities to go. Although 2 weeks ago I got the chance to go on the best pheasant hunt of my life. It was truly amazing. It was like watching a show on the Outdoor Chanel that was taped in South Dakota. Truly a once in a lifetime hunt for someone from Ca.

Jr. has been keeping us busy with his 4H stuff. He is showing a goat this year. Plus the chili cook off that he has signed up for next month. He's also signed up for the rocketry club as well. So we're pretty busy with that.

Youngest is doing alright. At least he is when I'm around. School has been pretty good for him. Home has been getting a little better. At least we are moving ahead in the right direction.

Summer has started babysitting to make some extra money. She's also going back to school starting next week. I think that she has pretty much given up on massage. She did give it a fair try though. We just need more income coming in. Half of her check is going into the gas tank now. Plus her employer has stopped paying standby time. So if she is not giving massages she's not getting paid. They are really slow lately too so sometimes she's there for 6 hours and only does 1 massage. That's a lot of time to be sitting around and not be getting paid.

As for me my schedule/shift has started taking it's toll on me. Right now I'm just hoping that we can get a second lead worker on the crew. Soon. I love the work aspect of the shift still, but I'm getting tired of not seeing the family. I get to see the kids for about 20 minutes in the morning and half an hour for dinner. Summer and I see each other at dinner and thats about it. Unless she comes home from work early. Which isn't often. Plus she works on my days off and I work on hers. We get to a point where we are doing really well together and we can't see each other. So here's to hoping we get a second lead so that I can go back to days. Or at the very least go on a rotating shift which is what my boss wants. If we get two leads he wants to rotate us every two months so we get the experience of the whole job. not just one part. Right now I'm great at the paperwork aspect. But when it comes to the maintenance aspect I suck. I don't deal with that on my shift.

I am taking some time off soon though so that's going to be nice. SR is going to be taking some time off as well at the same time so we can spend time together. I'm working day shift on the 23rd and 24th so I can attend the work Christmas party. Then I don't go back to work until the 2nd of Jan. I'll be off for 8 days and only use 4 days of vacation. Gotta know how to work the system. :D

Hopefully I'll be back in a week or so. We'll see.

Do I look mad?

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Sun, 18 Nov 2007 19:13:00 +0000

I really need to do something about all the gray hairs in my beard.

For some reason my youngest thinks I look mad in this photo. How can I be mad? I'm out duck hunting! Life don't get better than that. Well unless you wake up to an amazingly sexy wife the next day that is feeling kinda amorous. :D

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 15:47:00 +0000

And this my friends is just one in a long list of reasons why I hate the dentist.Dentist loses drill bit in patients nasal cavity. I know the possibility of this happening to me are very slim to none, but I'm sure thats what this poor woman thought too.

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Sat, 03 Nov 2007 00:13:00 +0000

Sky Rockets in Flight.

Afternoon delight.

Oh yeah life is good once again. :D

growing up in the 80's (edited)

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Sun, 28 Oct 2007 20:27:00 +0000

I'm terribly sorry about how this turned out. It was supposed to have pictures to go along with all of these but they won't show up for some reason. so I am taking them off of the post so it won't take up a lot of empty space. The pictures would have helped a lot for the younger crowd RS and Therese. Especially for the garbage Pail Kids. Man I LOVED those.

You Know You Grew Up In the 80's if:

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.

2. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton

3. You know that 'WOAH' comes from Joey on Blossom

4. If you ever watched 'Fraggle Rock'

5. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

6. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.

7. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. One of the greatest computer games EVER!

8. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.

9. You played the game 'MASH'(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)

10. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it. I totally rocked the stonewashed look. Had two jean jackets. 1 stonewashed and the other was washed in bleach.

11. You know the profound meaning of ' WAX ON , WAX OFF'

12. You wanted to be a Goonie.

13. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)

14. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.

15. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

16. You took lunch boxes to school...and traded Garbage Pailkids in the schoolyard.

17. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.

18. You still get the urge to say 'NOT' after every sentence.

19. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.

21. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.

22. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying 'I know you are, but what am I?'

23. You remember 'I've fallen and I can't get up'

24. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.

25. You have ever played with a Skip-It.

26. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.

27. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.

28. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot. She was hot! I had the biggest crush on her when I was in Jr. High. I would have given my left nut to be with her.

29. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.

30. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool...and don't even flinch when people refer to them as 'NKOTB' I won't comment on this one.

31. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on 'Saved By The Bell,' The ORIGINAL class.

32. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.

33. You just sang those words to yourself.

34. You still sing 'We are the World'

35. You tight rolled your jeans. We didn't tight roll our jeans like pictured here. Instead we used safety pins to get the jeans tight around the ankles and have a crease go up your leg.

36. You owned a bannana clip.

37. You remember 'Where's the Beef?'

38. You used to (and probably still do)
say 'What you talkin' 'bout Willis?'

39. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head, aren't you!

I passed!!

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Sun, 28 Oct 2007 04:47:00 +0000

That's right folks. Back in Aug. I wrote ever so briefly about taking a promotional test for my job. Well guess what? I PASSED!!! I just got the notice in the mail today. I didn't do as good as I did last year (I was ranked 18) but I still passed (22 this year). So that means that my temporary position that I'm in now will become permanent in the coming months. Pay raise here I come!

So if you don't mind SR has something sexy planned to celebrate. :D

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Fri, 26 Oct 2007 22:36:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Fri, 26 Oct 2007 18:15:00 +0000

In the spirit of RS's 'what I learned this week' I decided that I just had to put this one up. Mom gives 4 month old bottle with whiskey.

Honestly I just don't know what to say about this. I've heard of rubbing a little whiskey on a baby's gums when they are teething. But to give them a bottle with whiskey in it completely different. Let's not forget the fact that this is no longer the 50's. There is medicine to use now that wasn't available for teething babies in the "old" days. Just amazing.

Still around

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Thu, 25 Oct 2007 06:42:00 +0000

Well I am still around. Just not nearly as much as I'd like to be. This is really getting pathetic actually. I haven't posted a thing since the 16th!! What the hell is up with that? Is my life really that boreing? Please don't answer that. I already know the answer is yes.The fact is nothing much has been going on that has really been blog worthy. Youngest son turned 7 last Fri. We had his birthday dinner with my parents on Sat. evening. HJe has 2 $20 gift cards for Walmart and you'd think that he has Hilton money now. He's going to buy the entire store out.

Duck season also started on Sat. morning. I didn;t hunt on opening day though. I was getting things ready for that evening. My dad and I did go out on Sun. morning though. We had a good day. Came home with a few birds, took a few pictures and shot some hunting footage. We are both recording our duck hunts this year. I even got to shoot a bird when my dad was taking movies of the decoys. Can'twait to see it. Too bad at was a "real" duck. It's going to take all year if not next season as well to live this down. I'm so ashamed of myself. Below are 2 of the pictures I took on Sun. morning.

Sun. was a hard day to get through towards the end. I didn't get any sleep on Sat. night. My work phone kept ringing every time I tried to fall asleep. People calling in sick or tug boats wanting after hours openings. So finally at about 10:30 I told work not to call me again because I was supposed to get up at 1 in the morning. So that put a stop to that. Then after the last phone call Summer asked me if I "needed some help getting to sleep". That's code for she wants 'The Sex'. So me not being the type of person that turns down a woman in need got to take my sleeping aid. We both went to sleep happy. Then it was up 2 hours later to drive 100 miles each way then back in time to go to work that evening. I LOVE this time of year! DUCK SEASON IS OPEN!!!!!!!!!!

So at the very least this means that I'll be posting my sunrise pictures every week.

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 19:45:00 +0000

Where to start?

Last week at work I was talking to one of the guys that ones a ferry I'm in charge of. He told about a situation that he is going through with his wife. It brought back a lot of memories for me. He and his wife are going through the same thin g that Summer and I did a few years ago. He intercepted a call from a guy that hung up when he answered. So he checked the caller ID. There were a lot of calls from the same person. He checked the caller ID on the upstairs phone and all calls from the guy were deleted. He looked at the cell phone bill and found that in a 1 month period she called the guy over 200 times. All of the calls coincided with the times that he left the house to go to work. He would leave and the first call would be made less than 5 minutes later. Sounds really familiar with what happened with us. The other thing is that our "guy" was a firefighter, and his is a policeman. So he'd done the same thing that I did. Went and looked at all the phone bills for a few months. The amount of calls is unbelievable.So he went a step further than I did and kicked her out of the house. So now he's living in a 5 bedroom home all alone.

Well to say the least it brought back a few memories. I told him about what Summer and I went through and just listened to him. He's not sure if he can trust her again and asked how I was able to trust Summer again. I didn't really have an answer. It just takes time. Our situation wasn't exactly the same, just eerily similar. So yesterday while I was downtown I happened to see his wife out in front of a bar getting touchy feely with a guy at the entrance. I have met his wife a few times and am 99% sure that it was her. So as someone that he has confided in about the situation should I tell him this? Or should I just keep quiet? I'm not sure what to do especially since she's not staying at the house anymore. Any thoughts?

In other news youngest son returned home on Fri. We drove to S.F. to get him and he was happy to be coming home. We had a good time driving home and went to see my parents after dinner. He hadn't seen them in 6 weeks. It was nice to have him home. But nothing really changed. We are just sitting here waiting for them to get the recommendation written up and sent to Kaiser. Then we will go from there to see what the next step is.

Well it's time to try to catch up on some reading. I've been negligent in that aspect as well as the posting aspect.

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 17:55:00 +0000

Without really meaning to I guess that I did make my last post the last one for awhile. When I said that it was more out of frustration than anything else. It's just been one hell of a week around here. We dropped youngest off in S.F. last Mon. That was an experience unto itself. Afterwards Summer and I went out to lunch and walked on the beach. Then it was off to SFO to pick up my parents on their way home from their vacation.

Then Wed. we went to my aunts funeral. My family really needs to try to set up a reunion some time. I saw people that I haven't seen in years. The only time my dads side of the family gets together anymore is for funerals. When we got home that night I started yet another blog. This one is for family. To keep everyone up to date on how things are going for us. So that has been taking some time.

I finished scanning all of my parents old photos and am now starting to scan my grandmas. I've also started to create my first DVD. Talk about a pain in the ass. It's going to be a lot more work than I originally thought. Silly me. DVD's are a lot of work!

Went back to S.F. on Fri. to meet with the therapist and visit our son. It's amazing to me how some people think changing jobs or work schedules is as easy as snapping your fingers. We were told that because of our work schedules that we are basically raising our kids as if we were single parents. DUH! So the therapist told me that I should go back to working day shift and things will get better. A lot easier said than done. To go back to my old schedule would give me a pay cut that I can't afford. Then I would have to go back to my old crew and boss that I don't get along with. Then it will cut down my chances of permanent promotion down to nothing. So she suggested that I get a new job entirely. Honestly where do these people live? What fantasy world is it that easy to just find a new job? Like IO said summer of 2006 I was offered a job that would be doing the same as I'm doing now, would pay me twice what I make now, but I would be home less than I am now. I would work 10-13 hours a day 6-7 days a week. I would also work all over the state and sometimes go into Nevada. So I would live in a hotel when I wasn't at home. how easy would that make things? To live in her fantasy world would be wonderful.

We go back to see him tomorrow and then again on Fri. When we see him on Fri. we get to bring him home with us. It'll be nice to have him back. As quiet as it has been here we really miss him. The past week without him has been kinda nice in it's own way to. We were able to clean the house and it stayed clean. We have been able to focus more attention on our Oldest son this past week and that has been nice too. We finally had his 13th birthday party. Just a few weeks late.

That's going to be about all for now. I have to get ready for another IEP meeting this afternoon.

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Fri, 28 Sep 2007 01:09:00 +0000

Well as suspected last nights post didn't go over to well. It was taken compeltely out of context. which further solidifies to me why I need to censor myself on what I fell, think, and write about on my little tiny niche in the blogoshere. I must continue to just keep things inside and that way it won't be taken out of context. If it don't get written then no one knows about it but me. I've lived my life for over 30 years that way. Why stop living it now?

Danger Will Roberson! Danger!

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Thu, 27 Sep 2007 06:13:00 +0000

Or however it is that the saying from that Lost in Space show goes. To be more accurate it should read: Danger blog readers! Danger!

This isn't going to be a very upbeat post I can guarantee that right off the bat. I'm just in a very shitty mood right now. Very, very shitty mood. I cannot express how shitty I am feeling right now.

To start off with We finally have a date that our youngest son will be going to the 2 week evaluation that we were promised back in May. We received a call on Fri. afternoon from his Kaiser therapist saying that the Edgewood Center in San Francisco will have a bed ready for him on Oct. 1. So it went from a few months of nothing to he'll be leaving in a week. So I called the center yesterday and got a list of things that they need to have done this week before he can go there. Which left SR running all over the place tonight trying to rush through physicals and TB tests. We also now have to go buy him new clothes this weekend because he don't have clothes that are appropriate to wear in S.F. We were going to get his winter clothes for his birthday next month. Now we need them this weekend.

We are in such a rush anymore. For everything. The stress is getting unbearable. We have been letting everything slide lately. The house looks like shit right now. We're behind on laundry, my parents come home from their trip on Mon. afternoon so they won't even be able to see youngest until he comes home. We need to do a ton of housework next week so that we can have oldest son's birthday thingy on Sat. night. We wanted to have a combined birthday party for both boys but that won't be happening now. Youngest is going to miss his brothers birthday too.

To top off all the other crap that we have to do next week my sister called me this afternoon when I got to work and told me that our aunt died this morning. So I will be going to the viewing on Tue. evening and the funeral services on Wed. afternoon. This will be an easier funeral to go too this time though. Summer is going to be able to attend this one with me seeing as youngest will be in S.F. at the time. We just need to decide whether oldest will be going with us or staying home with his Great Grandma. We really don't want to take him out of school. But he also should be around the family as well. It may be the only time he sees some of the relatives at this point.

I know that I wrote a warning in the beginning of this post, but I just can't seem to let myself write what I was warning about. I don't want to revert to what I used to be. Then again if I don't write it out I'll end up keeping it all inside and that will just make it worse. It basically boils down to this: I'm tired of the double standards. I'm tired of be asked to things that are not done for me in return. I have a job too. I am also in a managerial position so I need to set an example. The thing is that when I ask and am turned down I am to just accept it and go on about my day. When I am asked to do the same thing but say that I can't leave work I get an attitude and am treated like I don't care. I do care. The thing is if I run to take care of things every time I'm asked to it is just going to solidify to the kids that they don't have to listen to certain people. They only have to listen to me and that's it. Boundaries need to be set and they need to be enforced. STRONGLY enforced. The parent needs to stick by what they say. I they say NO then it must mean NO. When it comes out any different the child quickly learns that NO actually means no until you get tired of saying no then it will be a yes. Does that make sense? Or am I just talking out of my ass here. Maybe I just don't know a dammed thing.

It's a dammed good thing that I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I haven't seen him since May. With all the other crap that we have had going on I haven't had time to get in to see him. Maybe I'll feel a hell of a lot better tomorrow. that is if I actually open up to him and don't just keep things on the surface. I need to get down inside.

All I can really say right now is that I can't wait for Oct. 20 to get here.

WHAT?!?!

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Fri, 21 Sep 2007 14:11:00 +0000

I opened the internet this morning to find THIS article. Apparently this lady is pushing for a law that states marriages will automatically dissolve after 7 years.

Where do these people come from?

Busy, busy, busy...........

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 19:13:00 +0000

........with just a smidgen of laziness in there for good measure.

I've been quite busy lately with work, family matters, doctor appointments (sometimes two a week), personal projects that I have decided to start on, and IEP meetings. I have also pretty much cut my blogging time at work down to nothing. Reading some comments on a few blogs has pretty much scared me away from that. For the short term anyways.

I was actually dumb enough to think that once both boys were in school I'd be able to spend more time blogging during my alone time at home. What a silly thought that was. When you don't get home till after midnight, don't fall asleep till almost 2, then get up to help get kids ready for school at 6:45 it leaves you pretty tired. So I'm back in bed when oldest leaves the house. Then get up around noon and the day is pretty much shot. I really need to do something about this.

So youngest is now back in school. He likes it and seems to be doing good there. He's also seeing a therapist through the county now once a week. She has suggested to me that I don't take him hunting at all this year (a little too late for that since he went dove hunting with me, but no more this year), that we don't let him watch any hunting shows on TV and that we don't let him watch any of my hunting movies. So what that means for me is that I'm not allowed to watch hunting movies or TV either when he is at home. ~~Kinda~~ REALLY SUCKS! So the TV hasn't been on much lately when he's at home since that is usually what is on if the TV is on.

In other news oldest going to be a teenager on Thu. I can't believe it. I'm really getting old. I'm in my early thirties and have a teenager. How did this happen? You don't need to answer that. :D I said that to my mom the other day (the not being old enough to have a teenager) and she told me to shut up. SHE wasn't old enough to be a grandparent to a teenager. Add to that the fact that she didn't have a say in the matter either. So I guess that means I need to look elsewhere for my pity parties. :D

Strangely enough oldest son really don't seem too excited about becoming a teenager. I know I was all excited about it. He just wants to know when we will be celebrating it this year since my parents are over seas right now. They are on a Trans Atlantic cruise. They flew to London on Tue. spent4 days there, then got on a ship Sat. morning in Dover and are cruising to New York. Then they will stay in NYC for 4 days and fly home around Oct. 2 I believe. Must be nice to be retired.

As to my personal project that I have been working on, I have started to bring home my parents photo albums from when the got married up to just a few years ago. I have been going through them and scanning the photos that I want to have and trying to restore them as best I can. Some of them are pretty faded. Especially the ones that don't say Kodak on the back. The ones that are printed on Kodak paper aren't faded. It's really weird seeing myself like I used to be. I looked like such a dork back in the late 80's. I also brought back a lot of memories as well. Especially the Christmas photos. I saw a photo taken Christmas of 78 when I received my most remembered toy. It was a Sho Gun Warrior. It had rockets that shot from it's chest and a fist that when you pushed a button would fly into the air. I loved that toy. Didn't it look so cool?!

So for the rest of this post I will just add some of the pictures that I scanned and leave a brief description of what is being looked at.

This would be me about 1977-8. not sure which. We had just got back from a camping trip to Lake Shasta. I cought both of these fish. One is a German Brown and the other is a Small Mouth Bass.

My sister and I in 1979. It was Easter Sunday. My aunt made that shirt for me. It was my favorite shirt.

This one of those pictures taken that serve no purpose except to embarrass the subject. Pay attention Therese! My family was out for a walk and I needed to go use the bushes. So what does my dad do? He takes this picture and tells me that he is going to show it to my girlfriends when I get older. He does just that too. Why? To embarrass the child! It is a parents right to do just that. Especially after all the embarrassment they cause you. More on that later though.

As I said earlier- I was a dork in the late 80's. Here I am at Crater Lake in 1988. Shudder.

MY freshman year of High School. It was spirit week and this day was 60's day. So I dressed like a hippie.

This is at my grandparents 69th wedding anniversary. In the picture are my grandparents and about half of their grandchildren. Unfortunately the person mentioned here
is also pictured. This is the only picture that my mom hasn't photo shopped him out of. She wasn't able to do that with this picture because it would take others out as well.

Ah yes. 1993. I was 19 years old. Living on my own. Don't you just love the hair? I was going for the Jason Newstead look. Shaved sides, long everywhere else. This was taken about 3 weeks before I met Summer.

One last picture. This would be Summer and I the day we got engaged. Weren't we cute?

Randomosity IV

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 17:32:00 +0000

Orgies.

It's all fun and games.

Till the itching starts.

Sate Fair!

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 20:45:00 +0000

Sat. was the day that we all went to the California state fair. I had been looking forward to this years fair for quite some time. It's usually a yearly thing that we got to. But last year we went to Tahoe for vacation instead. This year almost didn't happen due to finances but we made it. as a great time. Went and saw all the cool exhibits, the animals, the side shows, the crazy people riding the insane rides, ate fair food, and the most important feature of the fair was people watching. Or to be more accurate stomach watching. :D

The day went pretty well. We only had one small outburst from youngest son because we wouldn't buy him a toy. We told him before hand not to ask for a toy because we were on a tight budget. So what does he do? He asks for a t-o-y every few minutes. Hey he didn't say toy, he spelled it. What are you gonna do? Well what we were supposed to do. We told him n-o. He threw a tantrum, hit and kicked me, I got flustered and and got him with my foot after being kicked 7 too many times. He looked at me asked why I did that, I told him and he settled down. Asked for dinner and things were fine afterwards. All in all though he did pretty dam good for as long as we were there. We left the house shortly after 11:30 and didn't leave the fair till after 10:00. It was close to midnight by the time we got home.

Some highlights of the day:

Spending the day with family. Always a plus.
Seeing the Toytopia exhibit. That was pretty dam cool. Got to see tons of toys that I used to play with as a kid back in the late 70's early 80's. Amazingly enough quite a few of the toys were still in the original packages. Even after 30 years.
Watching the Extreme Super Bike stunt riders. That was simply awesome. I was surprised by how many pictures I took while watching the 12 minute show. Close to 60 pictures and 3 short videos. (I'm testing out the new Google video feature for Blogger and posting a 19 second clip here.)

Some low points of the day:

The heat! It was just over 100 degrees on Sat. It was hot. It wasn't as hot as it was for some of the days I've attended in years past though.
The temper tantrum of youngest son. Enough said.
The cost of food. Un-freaking-believable! Good Lord! we spent 30 bucks just for 3 sandwiches and a thing of fries for Summer, CH Jr. and myself. That don't include the popcorn, lemonades, smoothies, corn dog, slice of pizza, funnel cake and ice cream cone. At least the water was free. There was no way in hell I was going to buy a beer. A 10 ounce cup cost as much as a six pack.
I know I'm probably going to take a ration of shit for this one, but it can't be helped. The funnel cake was a major disappointment. After reading all the reviews for the funnel cake on a few blogs and from from all the comments on those blogs that was my sole purpose for attending this years fair. After hearing about it's "gooey goodness" I just had to have one. It was alright but not worth all the hype I was giving it. It definitely wasn't worth the $5.50 I paid for it. That was for plain powdered sugar. If I wanted fruit toppings, or whipped cream it was an extra dollar per topping. Maybe I built it up to much. I don't know. I do know I will NOT be buying another one in the future.
I was unable to afford a deep fried Twinkie. I have been wanting one of those for years. But youngest ended up getting his toy after we were done buying food for the day. Oh well. I probably would have been disappointed anyways.

That's it for the fair review. One last thing to add though. When did the mow hawk come back into style? I saw no fewer than 6 kids under the age of 12 with this out of date hair style. What's up with that?

So to end I'll show a few photos of the day of fun.

Tagged

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Mon, 27 Aug 2007 19:28:00 +0000

A little over a week ago Digger tagged me over at his WordPress page. Me being the bad person that I am took way too long to get to it. So here goes. Let's see what we can come up with.

1. Blogger who is most like me: I'm not sure if there really is a blogger out there that I read that is like me. I'm a unique sort of guy. :D Truthfully There probably is a few bloggers out there that are like me but they just don't seem to be in the "circle" of blogs that I seem to read. But the blogger that comes to mind is RS. The reason that I say he is the most like me is because he was able to take his marriage from the edge of disaster and save it. So we do have that in common.

2. Blogger I read who is LEAST like me. this one is going to be a little bit easier for me to answer. Thing is there are quite a few bloggers in my "circle" that are total opposites of me. I'll go ahead and go out on a limb here and say that Christian Husband gets this nomination. I think it's for pretty obvious reasons for people that are familiar with the two of us.

3. Name 3 bloggers of the same sex you’d like to have drinks with. This is going to be another tough one to pin down. There are more than three male bloggers out there that I'd like to have drinks with. In the spirit of keeping this tag the way Digger intended it to go I'll go ahead and not nominate a blogger that has already been linked to in this post. Fist on that list would be LBP. Here is a man that shares the same passion that I do for the outdoors. He has a love for hunting and fishing. Need I say more? I'd like to spend more time with LBP than just drinks would allow. Here is a blogger that I'd like to spend some time in the field with.

Next on the drinks list would be FTN. Here is a blogger that has a great sense of humor. He also has an uncanny way of getting tons of comments. I'd like to get just half of his comments. The comments isn't why I'd like to hang out with him though. With FTN it's about his humor and his ability to have male friendships. I could learn from him.

Rounding off the 3 bloggers would be Mr. Husbland. he don't blog much anymore now that he has the addition of a baby to his household.he's another blogger that likes the outdoors. Hunting and camping.

4. Name 3 bloggers of the opposite sex you’d like to share a hot tub with. Now this is a really hard one. :-) Man I kill myself.

How am I supposed to answer this one and stay in good standings with my wife? The last thing I need is to be kicked to the couch at night. Especially with our couch. It's not the most comfortable one. First off though I'll have to say that having someone in the hot tub with a Kick Ass Rack!! is a must. this is a lady that has it all. The BOOBS!! (tm), the red hair, the florescent green finger nail polish and an excellent way with words. how could a hot tub party be complete with out her?

Therese in Heaven is the next lady that I'd like to invite. We could go over the basics of why it is important to save certain stories to tell about kids as they get older. Like brushing their teeth with lube. That is almost a requirement to tell when he gets older. Especially when he has children of his own.

And to keep me in good standings with my wife Summer Rose will be there as well. After Therese and Fadkog leave the fun will really begin in the hot tub. ;-)

5. Which blogger would you vote for in a political campaign? This is a hard one. It may even be the one where I re-link someone from a previous question. FADKOG just had a way with words. She can take the things that most people would think are boring and make it very interesting. She would be a perfect politician. I find nothing to be more boring than politics. With her in the running I'd actually be recording the talks just to hear what she would have to say. She is that good.

6. You are thrown into a dimension where you can read one, and only one, blog. Which one is it? This one is just to hard to answer. I don't think I could get by with just one blog. At the time that Digger first tagged me I had this one answered very easy. Unfortunately things happened and the blog that I was going to put here has gone dark. Finished Last was going to be the one blog that I would have to have with me. He had a way of getting you hooked. Leaving you with cliff hangers that had you chomping at the bit for the next installment. Sadly though he was discovered by a friend IRL and had to shut down his blog. If you are still reading blogs Mr. Nice Guy you are going to be missed.

7. Which blogger is living a life you think YOU might like to be living. There is no one single blogger out there that has a "perfect" life that I would want to live. Where everything they do I say 'Wow! I wish that was me doing everything they do.' The one person that has a facet of life that I'd like to be living right now though would be 2 am somewhere. I don't want anything to do with his marital situation, or his sex life (I don't know a sane person that would want that). But he is in a situation that I would LOVE to be in though. He is in the process of looking for a new job now. Has been for quite some time now. Recently he has had several job offers made to him. So many in fact that he has the opportunity to turn jobs down. That would be a dram come true for me.

Tag three people and you’re on your way! I'll go ahead and tag: Tajlude, Desperate Husband (just because I know you are looking for things to write), and aphron that is of course if you are still blogging.

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 04:38:00 +0000

I just heard about this on one of my local radio stations. Apparently this guys wife was selling her "goods" for $250 an hour for the last 12 years. Oh and the guy is a sheriff. How could you NOT know that your wife is sleeping around like that? I mean she could hide the money easily enough, but you just can't hide that much use and abuse of your "money maker".

Cops wife arrested for prostitution.

My week in review

noreply@blogger.com (Confused Husband) — Mon, 20 Aug 2007 20:01:00 +0000

What an interesting week I just had. First we have had someone (read neighborhood kid) coming into our backyard when no one is home. How do we know this? The person broke the gate that I just made 2 months ago. Then the other day when the kids were swimming in the pool with a friend, youngest son was getting out and was standing on the top step of the ladder. 4 feet off the ground. I just happened to be looking out the window to check on them at the right moment to see his friend push him from behind and he fell to the ground. Landing on the side of his ankle. I ended up taking him to the Minor Injury Clinic at Kaiser after dinner that night. He has no broken bones but he did have a sprain in his ankle. So he was on crutches for a few days. The day after this happened he had an appointment with his county social worker. During the meeting he tried to hit her with his crutches.

That same day we also found out that the non public school that he is attending will be shutting down for good on Aug. 24. So we have to find him a new school to attend. What makes it worse is that we had an IEP meeting the first of Aug and the school never said a thing about closing down. Even though they knew about it at the time of the meeting they were still talking to us about the plans they had for our son when regular school started. So now we have to find him a new school.

Before I continue with the next portion I need to add this little disclaimer: I in no way, shape, or form, am writing this portion to be derogatory or offensive to my Catholic readers. This is just from my own little heathen point of view. Now that the disclaimer is out of the way I can go ahead and continue.

On Fri. I had to attend a funeral for my great Uncle. He passed away from Alzheimer’s last week. Well he was a very devout Catholic. So that means that it was a Catholic funeral. A full on Catholic service with communion and everything. It was like attending a mass on Sun. morning. In fact it was THE LONGEST funeral services that I have ever attended. We entered the church just before 1:00 in the afternoon. By the time that the services were done it was close to 3:00! WOW! Let me tell you something-My ass hurt from sitting in those pews for so long. Then with all the ‘Please stand’ and the ‘ You may be seated’, well let’s just say that I got one heck of a workout. I think I can go ahead and skip the gym wok out this week. (Yeah right. Like THAT’S ever going to happen.)

I did learn some interesting things about my Great Uncle though throughout the services. I always knew that his goal in life was to make people laugh. He loved playing jokes on people. Well his older brother told a story of when they were kids. His two brothers were asleep in their bedroom. GU (great uncle) wanted to scare them for a joke so he threw a firecracker between the two beds. Well he missed and caught the drapes on fire instead. His dad ran into the room and stomped the fire out in his bare feet.

Back in the 60's he was going from job to job not really finding anything stable back in Pa. When he was in the Navy during WWII he fell in love with Ca. So he packed his bags and left his wife and 4 kids in Pa. while he was looking for a job and a home. 3 months later he wrote to his wife and said that he was ready for them to move out here with him. Apparently he was so happy to see his wife and kids that 10 months later they had their fifth child. He always said that he wasn't a horny Protestant. Instead he was a very faithful Catholic.

After the services we all went to my cousins house for a few hours to spend time with family and have a little bite to eat. That's when the bad thing happened. My grandma who is 83 years old was walking outside to find a place to sit. She was carrying a plate of food and a cup of coffee. When she went to step from the house to the patio she forgot about the 3 inch difference in height. Down she went. She hit the ground hard. When she landed the entire fall was on her upper arm. Now from her elbow to her shoulder she is different shades of blue, black and purple. Luckily she had no broken bones. We took her to the Dr. on the way home that evening. I was sitting with my back to her when she fell. Then I heard someone hit the ground and saw people rushing to someone. My mom said it was grandma and all I could think was that she broke her hip. Leave it to me to think the worst right off the bat.